Simple Truths of Life

On 23 February, I was able to rent out my father’s apartment for twenty-five thousand rubles. The price was five thousand less than the average due to the condition of the apartment. Although my mother and I were able to significantly clean it, and I repaired various things, but it was far from perfect. After a couple of months, I was able to pay all my father's old housing and communal services debts, and after that I began to give my own debt back to my mother.

Sometimes I felt not at my best when renting the apartment, feeling like the typical capitalist who does nothing to produce food and actually necessary goods, but simply receives money from other working people. But then capitalism is what people themselves choose to have every day of their life. Plus, the people who rented the apartment persuaded, one might say, me to rent it to them – they themselves wanted to rent the living space, and no one forced anyone to do anything. My moral was also raised by the fact that I was engaged in the translation of the book, the knowledge of which can greatly help people. If it was not for the renting of the apartment, then I would not be able to translate it, since there simply would not be time for this, as it would be necessary for me to earn money.

On February 28, 2019, I had a dream where there was Thao and, if I am not mistaken, my village friend who lived in the neighborhood’s house during our childhood. We were on the field near the spring. From what I remembered and wrote down, I asked Thao different questions about the Universe and the Superior Intelligence. Then I said that I was projecting Michel’s experience on this situation (many other things were revealed to Michel, which he was not allowed to tell anyone about). Then I asked Thao if she ever lived on Earth, and she said that (I could be very mistaken) she lived in 1945-1951. I asked her again many times, as I could not hear her because of the rustle of grass through which we ran. She said something about highly spiritual people who are born on a planet of a lower category and they live very little.

When I woke up, I remembered that Jesus, implanted in Maria, lived till 95 years. Moses also lived for a long time, 120 years.

Now, when I write this book, I understand that the words of Thao in my dream can be viewed from a different angle.

We know from the Bible that Adam (Robanan) lived for 930 years. The descendants of Robanan, Levia, and Dina lived less and less with each new birth. Thao told Michel that because of atavism, they felt themselves superior and did not mix with other races. I think she meant their longevity. People would say how Michel told them that the original ancestors of the Jews were from a third category planet. This is how it became clear to me that the higher the category of the planet, the more years people can live on it without aging, and on the ninth category people are even able to regenerate the cells of their bodies and never age or die. I made rough calculations and saw that perhaps people live on average about 400-500 years longer with each category, which gives a different perspective to Thao’s words in my dream.

At the same time, it becomes logical and fair that people live the least on the planet of the first category. I also know this from my own experience, since I could hardly come to terms with the thought that I would have to live with the damaged lip and baldness for the rest of my life. These sufferings make it possible to learn a lesson and no longer make the previous mistake on a planet where one would have to live with scars not tens of years, but hundreds of years.

In the process of acquiring new spiritual knowledge, we, like a balloon filled with helium that moves from high pressure to low, strive to live in such a way when the least pressure from our environment is exerted on us.

In the spring I finished translating the first two chapters of the book and went to local bookstores to write out publicists in the genre I needed. Since there was no “Spirituality”, I had to look in “Esotericism”. Returning back home, I sent all the necessary files to the e-mails of book publishers. Soon I received one letter telling me that they were considering publishing the book and would inform me of the decision.

In the spring, my mother and I went to the village to plant seeds and do other household chores. I was still not one hundred percent healthy, but I tried to distract myself by reading on my phone while we rode a couple of hours in the train. In the village, I helped my mother cut down old trees, repaired a television antenna for her, and helped with other minor things.

On May 22, 2019 I had my fourth lucid dream. I was in my father’s apartment when I realized that it was a dream, and I gained control of my body. Again, I felt a little uneasy from the thought who could be in my father’s apartment in that dream, and I went out of the front door to the landing and went down. The dream ended.

Before I gained control of myself, I saw that the apartment had old wallpapers, not new ones. The doors to the large and small rooms were closed, and I did not know what was behind them. It seemed that the weather was cloudy outside, as it was a bit dark in the hallway by the mirror where I stood and where in real life I felt the cold touch.

I noted for myself in the diary the need to remember that this is a dream, and in reality nothing and no one threatens me. If I have a lucid dream again – do not allow fears and discomforts influence my decisions.

In summer, I was able to get to Gorky Park. This was remarkable in its own way, since almost ten years ago I went for a walk to the same place by metro, but I had to go back because my heart started to hurt. Had I then removed my two main bad habits, I could have a completely different life. But, as Thao correctly told me in her telepathic message, then I would not have had experience with them and would not have known all that I know. Naturally, keeping the habits was a mistake, and I was very lucky to have such experience with Thiaooubians.

I did not feel very well and did not approach anyone. I just walked. A dark rain cloud was forming, and I decided to go home because I did not take an umbrella with me. On the way to the Andreevsky bridge, I saw a young pretty girl who was walking alone. I was thinking about approaching her when a guy approached her from behind. It seemed to me that he had just met her, and she did not refuse him, as they soon sat on a bench, and the guy began to quickly write something down on the phone. I understand that they may have already known each other, but at that time this incident pretty much knocked me down. I had the feeling that if I was not hesitating, then everything could have been different.

In general, I really liked the park, and I realized that it was the place in which I needed to get acquainted with the girls, since there are a lot of people there, unlike in many other parks. Additionally, this park holds the first place in the list of Moscow places where people are advised to go for dating. Remembering the Pareto principle, having the opportunity, it is wiser to spend 20% of the effort to get 80% of the results than vice versa.

By the way, the Pareto principle reminded me at one time about 19% of the electrons that are not part of the Astral body and belong to the Universe, and about the remaining 81% of which the Astral body consists. Then Thao mentioned to Michel during the flight to Thiaoouba that their intergalactic base monitored their space ship, and if they had problems for technical or human reasons, in 81% of cases the base could control their spaceship’s safe return to the port. I suppose that Pareto was only slightly mistaken by one in his judgment.

In the spring, after I finished translating the first two chapters of the book, I decided to finally start making videos for YouTube. I thought to tell in them about my spiritual experience and about what I was able to learn in this life. Naturally, I wanted to talk about Thiaoouba and the creation of the Universe. An interesting question came up with these videos which I knew many people would start asking – how can you know that this book is true, to talk about it as such on the whole Internet? For this reason, I had to write in the script for the video about my experience with Thao and other people from Thiaoouba. But then another obvious point arose that I would not only have to write my real name, and not a pseudonym, but also show myself on camera – earlier I talked about my experience only to friends and in the group on Facebook. Before that, I was thinking about creating a separate channel where I would anonymously upload videos, because I was still afraid of a possible negative reaction from the public.

My newly acquired understanding and knowledge helped me to overcome most of the psychological barriers, and I uploaded the video where I talked about the Universe and my personal experience. I no longer need a pseudonym’s protection.

Duality of Life

I continued to masturbate once a week, but thought about removing masturbation from my life forever. But it was difficult. Sometimes I even thought about quitting masturbation, but replacing it with going to prostitutes once a month. But I immediately realized that this would be a big step down for me, and moneywise I would have to spend about 10% of the annual profit for renting the apartment.

One of the asymmetries of my life was that I was upset by the thought that people had sex, neighbors, for example, and I did not, but at the same time I watched porn easily. I recently realized that the reason was that I differentiated the women by those who were porn actresses and those who were ordinary girls. For example, I would not watch how the girls whom I approached to meet on the street had sex with their boyfriends and husbands. That would hurt me. Girls who act in porn are the same girls as everyone else. The difference lies only in the accumulated spiritual and material knowledge. This awareness about my thinking has helped me a lot to stop wanting to go to porn sites, as well as it helped to be more relaxed about the fact that others have sexual relationships.

Here I can also write about how for a long time I did not look at Russian girls on porn sites, since such videos would start to open the veil, and I began to see who I was; that is, foreign porn actresses seemed to be someone very distant, but Russian girls could well live even on my street, and in theory I could even approach one of them to get acquainted. After I began to actively get to know girls and subsequently gradually eliminated some of my psychological problems, I no longer experienced psychological discomfort at the sight of Russian girls. But if we look at the whole porn situation sensibly and openly, then it does not matter where the girl is from, since it is in any case very humiliating to watch how some man copulates with a girl you like, and with whom you yourself, frankly speaking, want to have sex, but cannot.

In my further Internet searches, I found the NoFap forum.[20] It was again clear that I was not alone with this habit, and women too were not protected from it. I found some interesting things for myself. For example, people could stay for many years without masturbation and sex, and they were all well in health – one of the reasons why I refused to say goodbye to masturbation once and for all. Moreover, there were people who masturbated and would then stop, not bringing the matter to orgasm. Everything was fine with them too. The general idea was such that it was worth trusting the nature that will restore the health of the body and organs – unless the matter is so serious that you need to seek medical attention, of course.

But there were ideas that I did not agree with because of my own experience. For example, I do not think that it is necessary to count days without masturbation, or to make any plans at all, since during a relapse a person will feel bad psychologically, which happens to many people on that forum. This is a normal psychological response to failure. The fact is that there wouldn’t be any failure if the person set the goal simply not to masturbate as much as he can, and if he returns to the habit, he simply realizes the reasons that led him to this activity and tries to learn from this event, so as next time to try to make another choice. As they say, never say never.

This is what I did after many years of self-flagellation due to the fact that I continued to visit porn sites and masturbate from time to time. This attitude helped me a lot, and I no longer scold myself after relapses. Also, I usually do not feel very bad after them.

The very same philosophy should be applied to all aspects of our lives. It is worth living in a balanced way when a person lives in the present moment and aspires to something that interests him, but at the same time he does not create for himself grandiose goals that may never be achieved. This is important psychologically, because then it will not be possible to fail in an attempt to achieve the unattainable.

I also do not agree with the opinion of some people that it is necessary to remove everything related to porn and erotica from your life. It is our choice, what we do with the information that comes into our minds. A person can live either only in the present moment thanks to the five senses, or in his inner world, which can be memories, thoughts, or fantasies. Therefore, all that needs to be done at the sight of a naked girl is to maintain the focus on reality. Being one hundred percent in reality, there simply will be no room for extraneous thoughts about returning to masturbation. This is simple logic, and I know from experience that this position is true and works.

So, after a week of abstinence, I watched a documentary about porn, and I did not masturbate for many days after that. The reason for the next relapse were fantasies – as almost always happens in my case. But I am working on it and making progress.

In general, thanks to this forum, I again saw the power of the Internet and of the free exchange of knowledge. As for the negative information, it mainly exists because of the very evils that Thao spoke about: money, politicians, hallucinogenic drugs, journalists looking for sensations, and religions. I will talk in the Manifesto regarding what people could do to improve the lives of others and at the same time their own.

Some time ago I came across the term “Incel”, which means “involuntary celibates”. I never considered myself one of those people, even though this term describes me. Once I went to their website to broaden my horizons, and I immediately began to feel the negative atmosphere that I did not like at all. I never visited that website again. I hope that my experience will help some of them to find kindness and love in themselves.

I understand from my experience that those people want love. It was precisely because I wanted to give my love, but in return I got ridicule and negativity, I sometimes began to feel hatred for people, realizing in the process that there is indeed one step from love to hate.

Then I saw a video of one of these Incels. At the time I did not know who he was, but it became clear to me that he most likely committed a murder after recording his video. I stopped the video and found out on the Internet that it was so. Looking through the video, I saw that the person, just like me, sometimes went into his inner world – this was obvious, and this is what people often call “creepy”, something that gives shivers.

Even the slightest presence in one’s mind will be reflected in facial expressions, eyes, and in general behavior.

I knew then that this was one of the reasons why girls did not want to have anything in common with that guy who was quite handsome. All he had to do was learn to live in the present moment and work on himself, to grow as a person. Alas, the young man did not know what I knew, and he took with him seven innocent people (in relation to his unsuccessful attempts to find a girl).

From the point of view of my knowledge, I can say that those instantly killed did not suffer much. Their Astral bodies were liberated, and they flew through the psychic channel to their Higher Self for a new reincarnation in a new body. Who suffered in this situation is the relatives and friends of the victims. As for the killer himself, who was shot dead by the police, if in his life he only suffered from the absence of a girlfriend, then the chances are that in future lives he will not have sex again, since he has not learned his life lesson, plus he will have to lose his beloved and closest people himself.

I feel that Jesus’ 45th statement in the Gospel of Thomas might speak about the reasons for people committing such atrocities. If a person chooses to keep bad thoughts about his environment, then he will do the respective actions. In order not to make more mistakes than necessary, you should try to consciously choose to have in yourself good and positive thoughts about ourselves and about our environment. Then the actions performed will be good and right. For this, again, you need to develop intellectually, to learn as much as possible about the world.

Many also laughed at me. There were several couples who walked holding hands and grinned at me – because of how I looked. There were just people who, accompanied by a comrade, spoke their vile words about my appearance. They did not hide it at all, believing that they were safe. But this is not so. I know that at that moment they signed the sentence for their suffering that they will experience according to Universal Law, which maintains justice in the world. And since no one can escape Universal Law, I know that I do not need to become an executioner, because otherwise I will make a mistake and suffer for it.

Of course, we are not talking about real physical attacks, when there is no other way but to defend oneself – which will not be a mistake.

One of the worst cases happened when I walked out from around the corner of my house in one evening. Two of my old friends were sitting on a bench at the corner, and one of them right at the time of my appearance was saying how many idiots he saw in his life. They laughed at the sight of me. Thanks to Thiaoouba for me not becoming a “convicted criminal” again at that moment…

This hurt my soul since thanks to my knowledge I realized that this was not a simple “coincidence”. Because of this I felt like the Universe itself was laughing at me. But then I calmed down my emotions and realized the simple truth that everything has its own description and the corresponding name, and at some points of my life I really fit the description of that word. I did this because I wished it, as it became a 100% choice when at the age of eighteen I learned how I look like when I go into my inner world.

I compared this to the acting of a good actor who plays different roles during his career, but at the same time, he is usually not like any of his characters. So, I acted out my role a long time ago, having experienced everything that it can give me, but I still remain in it for various reasons. Simply put – it is my fault that I look the way I look. I have a choice. Plus, I have not forgotten that those guys will be sooner or later punished by Universal Law for all their mistakes – no more, no less. And I am more than oaky with that.

Of course, while we need to name and describe different things, people, and animals, we need to be mindful of the emotional component of the words we use. There is a difference between the use of a word that is considered rude in a society, and that word which is considered normal to describe something or someone. In the first case, the person makes a mistake, and in the second, he does not. You may remember how Thao (I always thought she was the one who gave me that message, but I do not know for sure) used the word “masturbation” in her old message to me. It would be very strange to hear from them the word that I used in those days when I spoke about my bad habit.

You also need to remember about balance – if you have some kind of cautionary story that can help other people, you would be making a mistake by not telling it, but you should not embellish that story with unnecessary emotions or unnecessary details.

Another case contrasts with this one, when some alcoholic called me by a bad word that is said to men of non-traditional orientation. I think my purple shirt was the reason for his words. I chose that color to try to at least slightly match the color of my clothes with one of the possible colors of my Aura. Well, at that moment I was not at all affected by his comment, since it had nothing to do with me. Plus, my knowledge regarding mistakes and consequences also helped me not to get angry…

Years earlier, there was another case when I started playing LoL for half an hour a day and made myself a female nickname – Anna Hudson. I was absolutely indifferent to those very rare moments when bad words, which are used to call female dogs, flew towards me – they had nothing to do with me.

But sometimes there were moments, when I wondered who I was wasting my time for, trying to somehow help people, if they give me their negativity in response to my help. Maybe let this planet disappear in horrific cataclysms? But no. When the emotions passed, I realized again that it was all about knowing the spiritual side of life and that those people had almost none of that knowledge. And since I have them, I cannot help but share them if I do not want to suffer for the error of silence, living in one of the following lives in ignorance.

Do you know who these people are that have no spiritual knowledge? These are the people who live their first life in the Universe. Mathematically, there are very few of them, if we take into account that we can reach the planet of the second category in 500 – 15 000 years – at least one out of ten people, if we take an average life expectancy of fifty years.

By the way, since spiritual knowledge is stored in our Astral bodies, and we recall them when we are in a situation that we have already learned a lesson of, we can determine that we have lived before if we have the so-called “innate” sense of morality about something.

It is clear that a person living his first life never made mistakes and therefore should not suffer in the midst of society. Who does not feel discomfort among people? These are those people whose physical bodies are perceived as beautiful in the society in which they live. For example, people want to have sex with them, but they want the same in return. Of course, without spiritual knowledge, they will pay attention to the external appearances of a person, and not to his spiritual world. For the same reasons, these same people can speak negatively of others, and they will take the opportunity to improve their lives at the expense of someone else. After they collect errors during their lives, the time for reckoning for them will come, and they will feel on their own experience what people, whom they somehow caused pain and suffering, had to experience. This time can stretch over many lives. How much? Each of us decides for himself…

The complete lack of spiritual knowledge among a certain percentage of people born on the planets of the first category shows why the lessons of such planets are logical. Unknowingly, people will make many mistakes that will lead them to suffering and to a chance to learn how to live, suffer and die in the Universe.

Why do people agree to be born in bodies that are doomed to suffer at all? When reunited with the Higher Self, the soul assimilates all knowledge about the Superior Intelligence, the Universe and the reason for its creation, and about all the Laws of the Universe. They know that they are part of the eternal Spirit, and that they have been involved in creating the Universe in which they temporarily live.

I believe that I discovered another important feature of the functioning of the planets of the first categories. Since the planets of the first category should teach the people living on them how to live, suffer and die, the conditions on them must be appropriate. If it so happens that all people on the planet become spiritual due to the accumulation of necessary material knowledge, including lessons from history, then new souls who have never lived in the Universe before will not be able to be born on such a planet, because otherwise they would not make mistakes in a spiritual society and because of this they would be able to reunite with the Higher Self of the second category, and maybe even with the Higher Self of an even higher category, after their first life – and this despite the fact that they would not have learned any spiritual lessons! Further, living on the planets of the highest categories, these people, unknowingly, would make mistakes, the negative consequences of which could reach the Spirit.