The Widow's Little Secret

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It had been a hell of a night….

His wedding night, or should have been. If Mattie hadn’t been so hardheaded at the church yesterday, he’d have spent the night in bed with her. Jared didn’t need to look down to be reminded of the missed opportunity. It had kept him tossing and turning for hours.

What the hell was wrong with that woman? Naked, Jared rose from the bed and poured water from the pitcher into the basin at the washstand. Every other woman in the whole country was champing at the bit to get married. Hell, most of them were tracking men down, dragging them to the altar.

Jared braced his arms on the corner of the washstand and squinted into the mirror. Sure, he looked a little ragged this morning, hair sticking up, eyes red, heavy whiskers, but he was a good catch, as husbands went.

He had a respectable job that paid well. He worked hard, had money put away. He was handsome enough. He knew how to treat a woman, take care of her needs…her womanly needs.

Jared groaned aloud as his body tightened, remembering how he’d taken care of Mattie’s needs their night together—all three times. The ache worsened, just thinking about it.

She’d come here last night to talk to him, but all he’d been able to think about was getting her into bed again. He’d walked her home, but she hadn’t let him come inside with her.

He’d told her he’d let her know his decision about telling everyone the truth about the baby. But that was just an excuse to get to see her again; he’d never poison his child’s future by branding him a bastard.

Jared groaned softly, remembering the night the baby was conceived. Before, when he’d been a marshal riding the trail, thinking of her, and this happened, he’d just waited it out, concentrated on his job. But now that he was in the same town with her, seeing her, touching her, almost marrying her, his condition had grown worse, much worse.

It just wasn’t right, wanting one woman this much, but he did. If he didn’t do something about it soon…

“Damn stubborn woman,” Jared muttered.

When he’d come to Stanford he’d wanted to make himself a home here, court Mattie, get to know her. Many a night on the trail he’d wondered if he’d fallen in love with her.

Jared gazed into the mirror, but it wasn’t his reflection he saw, it was the past. Ten years. Ten long years of loneliness, hurt and painful memories. Somehow, all of that had gone away after one night with Mattie.

Hell, maybe he did love her.

No matter what, Jared didn’t intend to let her out of his life. He liked being around her, liked the way she looked, the way she smelled. He even liked that spirit of hers, though he’d have to find a way to control it.

And she was having his baby. A little grin pulled at his lips every time he thought of it. Him, a papa. Mattie, sweet Mattie, the mama.

He dipped his hands into the basin and splashed icy water on his face. He shuddered.

Mattie might think she could order him out of her life, or wish him away, or scare him away, but that wouldn’t happen. Jared wasn’t about to turn his back on her. And he certainly wasn’t going to abandon his child. Not when he was this close to having so many of the things he wanted.

Jared sighed in the silent room. Hell, he did love her. He loved her and he wanted her. He’d figure a way to have her.

But that would be so much easier to do if he could just get himself under control enough to make it through the day without embarrassing himself in front of the whole town.

Jared ground his teeth together, picked up the pitcher and poured it down his front.

He sucked in a quick breath as the icy water splashed over him. His chest heaved from the shock. His body shuddered.

But at least it took care of one problem.

Until the next time he laid eyes on Mattie.

Chapter Six

Jared needed breakfast, but didn’t dare go to the Cottonwood Café for it. He wasn’t exactly Mattie’s favorite person right now. He was liable to get the bowl of oatmeal he ordered dumped over his head.

And even that, he feared, would make him want her again.

He headed to the Silver Bell Restaurant at the other end of town to have his meal. After that, he’d get down to work. This was a quiet town, but he needed to learn his way around, make himself known, check for trouble spots. He didn’t intend to let things get out of hand in his town.