Lessons Enlightenment

I don’t understand.

The ocean is calm. It is stillness. In the depths of the ocean, of course, there are currents. But there is no external. There is only internal. And you can only know something by encountering it. But if you are the depth itself, with what or with whom can you interact? You are the depth. Unfathomable and eternal.

So, is the ocean of consciousness a kind of oblivion?

You could call it that. It’s an entirely new level of consciousness. Presence in everything and the absence of everything. Do you understand?

Vaguely. So, you are everything, but you don’t differentiate or identify anything within yourself.

You could put it that way. I don’t separate anything from myself, and I am not separate. Therefore, you could say that I do not exist, that I don’t exist as Buddha. But I exist as buddha. Do you catch that?

Do you mean that you, as the person Gautama Buddha, have dissolved, but the consciousness of the buddha remains within you?

You’re right. And that buddha consciousness is a completely different kind of consciousness than what Buddha had. It is broader and deeper. But there are no words to describe it.

And having found the path of wisdom, are you now searching for the path of love?

I seek nothing now. I simply am consciousness that Is.

Sorry for the silly question, but what does this give you? I mean, individual consciousness of separation allows one to experience many details of the illusory world in all its diversity, and many of those details are very attractive. But then we lose all of this and become nothing. What does that give us?

Depth. Power. Magnitude. Grandeur. I’ve found the word. It gives grandeur.

Why would I need grandeur?

You misunderstand this word in the context it’s said. Not grandeur as superiority over others, but grandeur as all-encompassing. You can only taste a limited number of flavors, let’s say. But can you take them all in at once?

If I take them all in at once, I won’t be able to distinguish one from another. It’s like some kind of cocktail.

Yes, but it will be a unique flavor you can’t even imagine. When you speak of bliss, it is the state of being connected to unity. When you embrace all possible sensations, experiences, states, and opportunities, it gives a special state of consciousness where you dwell in the bliss of your grandeur.

Are the oceans of Love and Wisdom, as I understand, not mixing together, but rather existing in the Ocean of Consciousness like layers of salinity in our world ocean?

No, not like that. In reality, it is the same ocean, not different currents within it. Different perspectives of the ocean, if you will. How can I explain it? You pour water into a green vessel, and it seems to take on a green color. Then you pour the same water into a blue vessel, and it becomes blue. Or another example: Light, refracting through the ocean’s depth, shines one color of the rainbow. But refracting differently, it shows another color of the rainbow.

But this means that someone has to illuminate this ocean. Are you talking about the light of Christ’s consciousness and the light of your own consciousness?

Yes. But ultimately, they are one and the same. Because both the light of Christ’s consciousness and the light of Buddha’s consciousness are one light of consciousness.

There is the light of consciousness and the ocean of consciousness. How do they relate?

The light of consciousness is a fragment of the ocean of consciousness, rising to the surface of the ocean and then returning to it.

Are there others, besides Jesus and Buddha, who have reached the Ocean of Consciousness?

Yes, of course. But to varying degrees of proximity. Many still wander in other, more complex labyrinths of illusion. Having left one illusion, they enter other worlds, which captivate and allure with their brightness.

Are you referring to Nirvana, the realm of high spirits?

Yes, because any world is an illusion, a painted hearth. Essentially, there is nothing that can be observed or contemplated.

Don’t you observe anything? Does God not contemplate anything?

Understand this: I simply am. It is consciousness of presence, nothing more.

Presence of whom? An observer?

All-encompassing presence. Presence of everything. Of the observer. Of the observed. Of the act of observation. And the absence of all of it. Of the observer. Of the observed. Of the observation.

This is hard to grasp. Theoretically, I understand, but somehow it doesn’t quite fit within me.

That’s because there is no emptiness within you, or very little of it.

No emptiness?

Yes. How can you take everything in if you have no space for it? When you are filled with various knowledge, paradigms, beliefs, criteria, and so on. Discard all of that and become emptiness.

It’s easy to say: «become emptiness’…

It’s actually not difficult. You just need to discard everything at once.

But how? Should I stop eating and drinking, stop interacting with people, talking, meeting with them, lock myself in a dark retreat and thus discard everything?

There are such methods. But if you are not ready for them from the start, all this will pass in vain. And will only revive your thirst to regain everything once again.

You talk about thirst. How can it be quenched? How can I understand that I no longer need any of this?

Become the water itself, and then you won’t need to drink it. You will already be it.

I understand, but all of this feels like beautiful words and ideas to ponder. How do I do it?

Simply by not doing.

Not doing?

When you strive for something, you always strive outside of yourself. Discard all striving. Just be.

But then it turns out that I will simply be an observer of everything.

Yes. At first. That’s how I started. First – as the observer of everything. But then I realized there is no distinction between the observer and the observed. That all of it is one. After all, everything happening around you is your reflection. Therefore, you and what is happening around you are one. The observer and the observed are one. You must become such that you do not cast any reflections.

Like clear glass, through which light passes without even refracting. You’ve been given this analogy many times. You are clear glass. And you have no preferences other than to reflect Divine light. But you don’t reflect it; you let it flow through you, without holding onto it, not even for a second. You give it all, and you receive it all. And then you will see how life, like light, flows through you. But at the same time, you express no relation to this flow. In this way, you accept everything that flows through you. And then you come to the remarkable conclusion that to observe anything, there is no need to look outward. You can look within yourself. Because both outside and inside you, there is simply the dazzling Divine Light, which flows through you without refracting. Moreover, you will understand that if you become a pure prism, allowing the Divine flow of Light, the true purity of the Light is inside you. Because you do not refract it. And it’s easier for you to find and observe everything within yourself, for He is always near and always within you.

And then you withdraw from the external. From external reflections. You no longer care whether you reflect the light or not. You no longer care about anything, but simply immerse yourself in this Light, passing through you, and you become the Light itself. At first, you simply continue to observe the flashes of consciousness, the sparks and shimmering of this light within you. But then this Light expands within you, grows, and gradually fills all of your empty consciousness. And you become it. More precisely, you were always it; you just hadn’t accepted it in its original purity and power until now. And now – you’ve accepted it.

And then you stop interacting with the illusion around you. And it dissolves around and within you. You simply exist as an ocean of consciousness.

Many yogis describe such practices. Immersions within and observing the world of energies. I will become an ocean of light, and what will happen to me then?

Nothing. You will eternally remain the ocean of Light. And nothing will happen to you. You will eternally flow like an ocean of Light within yourself, shimmer, and someone will observe your shimmer. Among those who have not yet left the labyrinth of illusions.

So, it turns out that all my questions are in vain. Because knowledge is also an illusion?

You are simply returning to your Divinity by stepping away from your true self. And you are already on the path to yourself.

I thank you for the opportunity to know myself. And for the lesson.

I dwell within you. You dwell within me. We are one. And you are me, discovering the buddha within yourself.

Lesson 4. The Thirst for Perfection

Hello, Buddha. Speak with me.

I am with you.

After our conversations, people started sending questions for you. Will you answer?

Of course, if you ask, I will answer. I too was once like that and went through this stage of learning. I had many questions and doubts about the perfection of the world. Therefore, I will answer.

How did Buddha’s relationship with his Spiritual Family transform after his immersion in the Ocean of Consciousness?

What do you call a spiritual family?

Probably those entities that assist a person in their development. We are told that each of us has our own star family, a civilization from which we came, teachers and mentors, our higher aspects. Together, they form the collective Higher Beings that help us on our path.

All of this is just words and conventions. There is no separation. It is all just games, albeit of a high level. But now I am beyond the game. What you are talking about is separation: there is you, and there is someone else. But there is no one but you! You are alone. And that’s it. You are merely talking about your own roles in the game with yourself. Top masks. By removing all the masks, you become yourself and no longer play games. They will become uninteresting to you.

A child plays games because that’s how they learn about the world. An adult, having played enough games, no longer does so. You were told about a girl playing with dolls. The girl sincerely believes that the dolls can talk and move. But an adult sees that they are just dolls, and the comedies and tragedies played out become uninteresting to them. Because there is real, genuine adult life.

So you want to say that with enlightenment, you matured and exited the game? And now you guide the game?

Why would I guide a game with dolls? I simply exist. I just observe how others play with dolls with complete abandon.

But what is the meaning of such existence? I mean, there is always some meaning in human life. Initially, there is a drive for certain acquisitions, certain relationships. Hence the drive for spiritual growth and new levels of perception. But you have none of this, and you do not strive for anything. What is the meaning of such existence?

It has no meaning.

No meaning?!

Yes, because meaning is a thought, a formed desire, as thought always strives for something. Even the thought, «I want nothing,» is a desire for a state of non-wanting, but not the state itself. I exist without meaning and without desires.

But now, when you speak with me, you do have thoughts, right? For example, answers to my questions.

Yes. But this is already a completely different level of thinking, which is not even thinking. The process can be compared to ripples on the surface of the ocean when a light breeze touches the smooth water. It is the breeze itself. And the ripples on the ocean are our conversation. But the gentle ripples on the ocean’s surface cannot disturb its calmness.

So this is a kind of meaningless existence, without goals and desires. So why does everyone strive for it?

Because it is the culmination of all desires. No matter where you strive, essentially, you are always striving for enlightenment, always striving towards that ocean of consciousness, whether consciously or unconsciously. This desire is inherently embedded in your essence, in the depth of your being. Because you are that ocean of consciousness, only temporarily having forgotten about it. However, some internal hunger, a sense of internal discomfort in your world, even with all imaginable comfortable external conditions, does not give anyone peace. You may sometimes forget about it, engrossed in one illusion or another. But this magnet is always alive in you and is inexhaustible. Therefore, no matter where you strive, you are actually striving to return to your origin. It’s like a stretched rubber band: the more you stretch it, the stronger the desire to return, and the harder it is to stretch further.

So in this state, there is nothing attractive; it is simply an automatic drive to return, so to speak, a return force. And no one can avoid this return, even if they don’t want to?

You cannot not want it. Because you are the point of return. You may want something that does not belong to you. But as soon as it becomes yours, you want it less and less because you find it within yourself. And in this case, how can you not want what you actually are? If the attractiveness lies in being yourself?

I don’t know. Maybe. But that’s if I consider myself perfect, then I want to be myself. But what if a person has some inferiority complexes? When they are constantly trying to portray someone more complete?

The point is, you are truly complete and perfect. You have everything. Including all the roles you have ever played. All roles. Do you understand? Even the roles played not only by you but by everyone who played them! And all of them are in you. And there is no one before whom you could appear incomplete or imperfect. There is only you.

Attractiveness exists when there is choice. When there are differences. But what can you choose when you are nothing?

Nothing? Didn’t you previously say that we become everything?

It’s the same thing.

I don’t understand.

Well, maybe it will be clearer if we use mathematics. Minus one and plus one together equal zero. Why?

Why?

Because in their combination, there are no differences. Minus one is different from zero, and plus one is different from zero and minus one. But zero is the complete absence of differences. At the same time, zero itself is a point of comparison, a reference point, relative to which a unit and minus one can always arise. Zero itself includes both minus one and plus one, as it resulted from their addition. But zero itself is nothing. Neither this nor that. But everything together.

I didn’t think you were a mathematician.

I am just searching for a clear analogy in your mind.

Becoming nothing. That frightens many.

Why?

Didn’t it frighten you before enlightenment?

No, it didn’t frighten me. Because that very magnet within me became so strong, the «rubber band» stretched so much, that it no longer frightened me; there was only a thirst to return to my whole self, to My True Self. When each of you reaches such a state where return is inevitable and the rubber band is stretched to its limit, then it will stop frightening you.

You see, the thing is, the world around us, with all its imperfections, is so familiar and stable. And what awaits you upon returning to the ocean of consciousness is so unknown… The unknown always frightens.

The unknown is the best thing that can be.

Why?

Because the unknown is a vast space of possibilities, an absence of limitations. It is complete freedom. Stepping into the unknown means freeing yourself from the chains that bind you: fears, attachments, debts, obligations… Complete, absolute freedom from everything.

Well, then. What frightens people is the loss of their identity, with which they identify themselves. It’s hard for us to understand. There is me with my characteristics, aspirations, and, most importantly, my memories of myself. And suddenly, all of this might disappear! It’s like losing your memory. I love someone. But suddenly I might not even recognize this person?

You will recognize everyone and love everyone. It’s a matter of your concept of «I.» It does not exist.

It doesn’t exist?

Yes. Because the «I» is separation. When there is «I» and «not-I.» Thus, the «I» is different from others.

But each drop of the ocean is like another. In essence, there are no such drops. There is just the ocean. The ocean of consciousness.

What is the Ocean of Consciousness? Is there something above it in terms of levels?

It’s difficult to define the undefinable. The very definition already implies separation. When there is difference, and each has its characteristics distinct from the other, it is defined in a specific way. The Ocean of Consciousness is a self-aware, infinite, and eternal substance that encompasses all possible potentials of awareness. But even the word «substance» is incorrect, and all definitions will be very approximate. Because the very word «definition» implies a limit to something. And the ocean of consciousness is limitless. And each of you is limitless just like this ocean of consciousness.

You often emphasize the word «absolute.» So, have you become the Absolute?

I have become the self-aware Absolute. I and He are one. I am Him.

And is He you?

No, not quite. I am Him. But He is even broader than I am.

But you are limitless.

Yes. But His limitlessness is more powerful.

I don’t understand. Is there a gradation of limitlessness?

Rather, it is the depth of limitlessness. You have been told about this.

Yes, I remember. Our Absolute is on the path of self-discovery through separation. And His ABSOLUTE is on the path of self-discovery through deepening into SELF. But actually, there is the Manifest Absolute and the Unmanifest Absolute. So, does that mean you are the Manifest Absolute?

Yes, I am the manifest part of the Manifest Absolute.

You are still a part? What about limitlessness?

It’s again a play on words. I am what you have been told about. At once both a part and the whole. And this is the only difference from Him, because He is simply the whole.

I was told that the goal of the experiment was to become a divine part of the whole and acquire all the qualities of the whole while still being a part. So, you have completed this path and demonstrated that it is possible?

Nothing is impossible. I have completed this path, and each of you will complete it too. But you will do it in your own way. When the fatigue from the game of illusions sets in. When the thirst for perfection becomes unbearable, you will return to your wholeness.

So, there is no point in trying if there is no thirst for perfection? Because it won’t work anyway?

If you have pondered this, then your thirst has already made itself known. And now, with each passing day, it will remind you more strongly. And until you quench this thirst, you will not find peace. You will not be able to be happy in imperfection, knowing that ahead of you lies your perfection.

What is perfection?

When you have everything. And there is nothing more to desire. All desires arise from the lack of something. So you desire something and achieve it. But upon achieving it, you desire the next thing that you don’t yet have. But if you have everything, then you have nothing more to desire. You asked about attractiveness. Remember the joy of achieving what you wanted. Can you imagine the joy of having everything? Everything you wished for and could wish for? Everything. Can you imagine the ecstasy of the perfection of perception?

I am usually told about the perfection of being.

It’s the same. Being is perception.

So, are you saying that achieving the state of the ocean of consciousness is the ecstasy of freedom and having everything?

Yes. That’s right.

But ecstasy implies a peak. And that means a decline will follow.

No. You will continuously be in this ecstatic state of perception, and in it, there can be no declines or anything unpleasant, because everything within you is perfect.

So, it turns out that there is nothing to do in general. Since the thirst has awakened in me, is the rest just a matter of time? Sooner or later, it will become critical, and I will be thrown back to my wholeness, like a stretched and released rubber band?

Yes. It is a natural and inevitable process. It is both your and my essence, from which there is no escape because you already are it. But this period can stretch over many lifetimes or decades of your life. So it’s up to you: to act or not to act. Whether you can continue to endure the thirst and not drink from the ocean of perfection.

It reminds me of a fairy tale about a person drinking from the ocean of oblivion.

Yes, it echoes the described process. The Ocean of Consciousness can also be called the Ocean of Oblivion. Oblivion of partiality, dissolution of boundaries and conditions. You suffer from thirst, and then, finally, unable to endure, you dive into the ocean and begin to drink the water of perfection and forget your thirst. Because you become that ocean: its waters dissolve your boundaries, and you become the «sea foam.»

Yes. It’s a poetic fairy tale. A fairy tale about how the Little Mermaid became nothing for the sake of love.

No. It’s a fairy tale about how, through love, the Little Mermaid became everything.

You are also a poet.

I have been observing for many centuries.

Where is love in the concept you described? Jesus showed the way of love. We are told that you showed the way of wisdom. And love?

The ocean of consciousness itself is love. And what drives you is only love. That very thirst is love; it is likeness. A fragment of love strives to return to the ocean of love, to its likeness. My difference from Jesus is that Jesus drew all seekers into his current, into his striving. He would give a push to each person’s thirst, becoming the channel of a stream into which anyone could be drawn to the ocean of consciousness. He allowed everyone to experience his thirst. He showed how to become that thirst and that love. I, on the other hand, walked the path of my thirst alone.

But you had disciples, didn’t you? What happened to them? Did they ascend?

Very few did. And not immediately.

What were the obstacles faced by the disciples of Buddha who did not reach the Ocean of Consciousness? What obstacles should those who embark on the path of enlightenment beware of?

There were many obstacles for the disciples. The greatest one is the fear of separation, the fear of losing everything. Obstacles exist when you are separate. There is you, and there is the goal you need to achieve, and there are also obstacles on the way to achieving it. In other words, there are boundaries that need to be overcome. But if there are no boundaries, there is nothing to overcome! And there are no obstacles.

So it turns out that the more a person separates from their wholeness, the stronger their thirst for return becomes, but at the same time, the greater the fear, because with further separation, the fear grows. It creates a kind of vicious circle. Returning through the fear of separation is impossible. But the separation itself creates fears. How can this be overcome?