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A Fair Mystery: The Story of a Coquette
She saw that she was conquered; mortifying, humiliating as it was, she was conquered – there was no help for her.
She stood quite still for one moment; then she said slowly:
"Will you give me time?"
His face flushed hotly; his triumph was coming. A smile played round his lips and brightened his eyes.
"Time? Yes; you can have as much time as you like. You see the solution plainly, do you not? Marry me, and keep your fair name, your high position; defy me, and lose it all. You see it plainly?"
"Yes, there is no mistake about it – you have made it most perfectly plain," she said, in a low, passionless voice. "I quite understand you. Give me time to think it over – I cannot decide it hurriedly."
"What time do you require?" he asked. "I shall not be willing to wait very long."
"It is June now," she continued; "you cannot complain if I say give me until the end of August."
"It shall be so, Dora. Will you give me your hand upon it?"
"No," she replied, "I will not give you my hand. Come at the end of August, and I will give you your answer."
"I shall not be deprived of the happiness of seeing you until then, Dora?"
"I cannot say; I will not be followed, I will not be watched. I claim my perfect freedom until then."
"You shall have it. Do not think worse of me than I deserve, Dora. If I had found you married, I would not have spoken, I would never even have hinted at the discovery; but you are not married, darling, nor, while I live, shall any man call you wife except myself."
How bitterly at that moment she regretted not having been married! If she had known – if she had only known, he should have found her the wife of Earle!
"I have no wish to injure you, or to do anything except make life pleasant for you; but my love for you has mastered me, it has conquered me. You must be mine!"
Such passion shone in his eyes, gleamed in his face, that she shrunk back half frightened. He laughed, as he said:
"It is one thing, you see, Dora, to light a fire, another to extinguish it."
"Now, will you leave me, Lord Vivianne? You have placed the pleasing alternative very plainly before me; we have agreed upon a time until you come for my answer – that will be at the end of August. Until then your own good sense will show you the proper course to pursue; you need neither seek nor avoid me."
He bowed.
"I hope, Lady Studleigh, you will have overcome your great objection to my presence before you see me again. I will now go. Let me give you one word of warning. A desperate man is not to be trifled with; if you attempt to escape me, if you place yourself in any way legally out of my reach, you shall answer to me, not only with your fair name, but with your life! You hear?"
"I hear," she replied, calmly, "but I do not come of a race that heeds threats. Good-morning, my lord."
"Dora," he said, "for the sake of old times – of the old love – will you not give me one kiss?"
"I would rather see you dead!" was the reply, given with an angry bitterness she could not control.
He laughed aloud.
"I shall soon see that pretty spirit humbled," he said. "Good-morning, my lady."
And the next minute he was gone.
She stood for some little time where he had left her. Such fiery passion and anger surging in her heart as almost drove her mad. Her face flushed crimson with it, her eyes flamed, she twisted her white hands until the gemmed rings made great dents in them. She hated him with such an intensity of hatred, that she would have laughed over his death. Her graceful figure shook with its heavy strain of anger – her lips parted with a low, smothered cry.
"I pray Heaven to curse him!" she cried, "with a terrible life and a terrible death; to send him a thousandfold the torture he has given to me! I – I wish I could kill him!"
In the might of her wrath she trembled as a leaf upon a tree. She raised her right hand to heaven.
"I swear I will never marry him," she said. "Let him threaten, punish, disgrace, degrade me as he will, I swear that I will never marry him. I will lose love, happiness, wealth, position, nay even life first; but I swear also that I will torture him and pay him for all he has made me suffer!"
She walked to and fro, never even seeing the brilliant blossoms and the glossy leaves, trampling the fragrant flowers she gathered underfoot, moaning with a low, piteous wail. It was too cruel – too hard. She had sinned – yes, she knew that – sinned greatly; but surely the punishment was too hard. Others sinned and prospered; why was she so heavily stricken? She was young when she sinned – careless, ignorant, heedless; now she was to lose all for it. She had beauty that made all men her slaves; she had wealth such as she had never dreamed of; she had one of the highest positions in the land; she had, above all, the love of Earle, the love and fealty of Earle. Now, in punishment for this one sin, she must lose all. Would Heaven spare her?
Was it of any use in this her hour of dire need, praying? Why, in all her life – her brief, brilliant life – she had never prayed; was it of any use her beginning now? She did not even remember the simple words of the little prayer she had been used to say with Mattie at her mother's knee – it was all forgotten. She knew there was a God in heaven, although she had always laughed and mocked at religion, deeming it only fit for tiresome children and old women; surely there was more in it than this.
She knelt down and stretched out her hands with a yearning look, as though some voice in the skies would surely speak to her; then she could not remember how it happened, the fragrance of the flowers seemed to grow too strong for her, the glass roof, the green, climbing plants, the brilliant blossoms, seemed to fall on her and crush her. With a long, low cry she fell with her face on the ground, a streaming mass of radiant white and golden hair.
It was there, that, going in an hour afterward, Earle found her, and raising her from the floor, thought at first that she was dead.
Great was the distress, great the consternation; servants came hurrying in, the doctor was sent for. The earl and the countess returning, were driven half frantic by the sight of that white face and silent figure. It hardly reassured them to hear that it was only a fainting fit.
"Brought on by what?" asked the earl, in a fever of anxiety.
"Nothing more than the reaction after too great physical fatigue," replied the doctor.
"The Lady Doris looks stronger than she really is; the best advice I can give is, that she should leave London at once, and have some weeks of perfect rest in the country. Medicine is of no use."
Lady Linleigh quite agreed in this view of the subject, and the earl declared impetuously that they should go at once – to-morrow if she is better, he said, "I should not like such another fright."
That evening when Lady Doris lay on the little couch in Lady Linleigh's boudoir, and Earle sat by her side, he said to her:
"What caused that sudden illness, my darling? Did anything frighten you?"
"No; I was only tired, Earle."
"Tired! I am beginning to dread the word. Do you know what they told me, Doris?"
"No," she replied, looking at him with frightened eyes; "what was it?"
"One of the servants said she was quite sure that she had heard some one talking to you in the conservatory; but when I went in you were quite alone. Had any one been there?"
"What nonsense," she cried evasively; time and experience had taught her that it was foolish to risk the truth recklessly.
"I thought it was a mistake," said loyal Earle. "Who would be likely to be with you there, when you had reserved the morning for me?"
She closed her tired eyes, and said to herself how thankful she should be when all this was over.
CHAPTER LXXII
THE EARL RELUCTANTLY ASSENTS
Three days later they were once more at Linleigh Court. The earl would hear of no opposition; he ruthlessly broke all engagements, sacrificed all interest and pleasure; his daughter's health, he said, must be paramount with him, and so it was. The only drawback was that Earle could not go; he might run down for two or three days, but until Parliament broke up he could not be away for very long. The earl and countess were amused to see how both lovers felt the separation.
"Thank Heaven!" said Lady Estelle. "Ah! Ulric, you do not know how I thank Heaven that our child loves Earle."
"Did you ever doubt it, my lovely, sentimental darling?" said Lord Linleigh.
"I was not sure; I was always more or less afraid," said the countess. "She spoke so lightly of love; but now she seems very fond of Earle."
"I do not think the woman is born who could help loving Earle," said Lord Linleigh; "he is the finest, noblest man I know. She shows her good taste in loving him."
"She will be very happy," said Lady Estelle, with tears in her eyes. "She will be one of the happiest women in the world, and I am so grateful for it, Ulric; it might have been all so different for the poor child."
Lord Linleigh looked thoughtfully at her.
"Do you know, Estelle, I have an idea that Doris is very much changed? Have you noticed it?"
"She seemed to me much fonder of Earle, and not so strong as she was; I have not noticed any other difference."
"Then it must be my fancy. She has seemed to me more thoughtful, at times even sad, then strangely reckless. A strange idea has come to me – do you think she has any secret connected with that former lonely life of hers?"
"I do not think so," replied Lady Estelle, growing very pale.
"That was a strange notion of yours, my dear, sending her there. Still, those good people seem to have done their best for her."
"I believe," said Lady Estelle, hastily, "that she was quite as safe as she would have been under my own roof. I think I have noticed what you mean – a nervous kind of uncertainty and dread: but I am quite sure it is not because of any secret. Ulric; it is rather because she has been overtaxed. I remember speaking to her about it some time since. She will soon be well now."
Lady Estelle was right. Away from that terrible incubus, the dread of meeting the man she feared and detested; away from his baneful influence, she speedily recovered health and spirits; the dainty color flushed back in her lovely face, her eyes grew radiant, sweet snatches of song came from her lips; she was once more the bright, gay Doris, whose winsome smiles and charms had won all hearts. Lady Linleigh laughed at her fears, and for a short time all was happiness at Linleigh Court.
Earle came down for a few days, and then the wedding-day was fixed. It was to be on the tenth of August, and when the wedding was over they were to go right away until Lady Doris had recovered her usual strength.
It was not until afterward that Earle remembered how strange it was that she should have hurried on the wedding; when he came to think it over, he found that it was so. It was Doris who planned and arranged everything; he had but acquiesced, he had not been the prime mover in it. So it was settled – the tenth of August; not many more weeks of suspense and anxiety, not much more dread. Her revenge and her love would be gratified alike. She should be Earle's wife on the tenth; on the twentieth, when Lord Vivianne came, she should be far away with Earle to protect her; Earle to shield her. It would be useless to pursue her then; even if he did his worst, and betrayed her, she did not care, her position would be secure. Oh, it would be such glorious revenge, to find her married, after all his solemn oaths that she should be his wife, and belong to no other – either to him or to death!
"I will deceive him to the very last," she thought. "I will delude him until the very hour which sees me Earle's wife."
She bent all her energies to this. It was easy enough to win from Earle a promise of total silence; it was not quite so easy to win that same promise from the earl and countess. She did win it, though.
On that same evening that Earle left, a superb night in June, when the stars were gleaming in the skies, and the night air was heavy with sweet odors, Lord and Lady Linleigh had gone out into the grounds. The evening was far too beautiful to be spent indoors, and she followed them. They were sitting under the great drooping beeches, watching the loveliness of that fair summer night.
The same thought struck both of them as Doris came to them, that neither starlight nor moonlight had ever fallen on so fair a figure as this. Her long dress of white sweeping silk trailed over the long grass, she wore fragrant white lilies on her breast and in her golden hair; she might have been the very spirit of starlight, from her fair, picturesque loveliness. She went up to them, and bending down to kiss Lady Linleigh's hand, she knelt on the grass at their feet.
"You are alone," she said, "the two arbiters of my destiny. I am so glad, for I have a favor – a grace to ask."
"It is granted before it is asked," said the countess.
But Lord Linleigh laughed.
"No," he said, "that would hardly be wise; we cannot allow that."
She raised her face to his, and he saw how earnest it was in its expression of pleading and prayer.
"Dear papa," she said, gently, "you must not refuse me this."
"I will not, my darling, if it be in reason," he replied.
"Earle told me that you and he had arranged our wedding-day for the tenth of August," she continued. "Dear papa, dear Lady Linleigh, I want you to promise that it shall be kept a profound secret from the whole world."
"My dear Doris!" cried the countess.
"It is quite impossible," said the earl. "Besides, I see no reason for such a thing. Why should you want it so?"
"It is possible," she said. "I have been with you long enough to know that with you everything is possible. Why I wish it done, is my whim, my folly – my secret, if you will."
"I really do not see – " began the earl; but she laid one soft, white hand on his lips.
"Let me show you, papa. Let me hear your objections, and vanquish them one by one."
"To begin with – your train of bridesmaids, they must be invited."
"Papa," she interrupted, "I want none, I will have none, only Mattie, my foster-sister – let her come, no one else."
"Then the marriage settlements?" said the perplexed earl.
"They can be arranged with all possible secrecy, if you only say one word to your lawyers."
"But the bishop, and the marriage. My dear Doris, it is impossible, impracticable, ridiculous!"
"I am sure that you will be sorry, papa, if you refuse me."
And something in her voice struck the earl with keen anxiety.
"Have you any secret, sensible reason for what you ask, Doris?" he said, gravely, the old suspicion that there had been something strange in his daughter's life coming back to him with double force.
"I have my own fancy, papa; do not thwart it, do not oppose me now that I am so soon to leave you. You will always be pleased to think how much of my own way you have given me in this instance."
"Let her do as she will, Ulric," said Lady Linleigh; "it would be cruel to refuse her."
"Listen to my idea first, papa. This is the sort of wedding I should like – you, of course, can please yourself whether you let me have it or not. I should like no one except Mattie to know anything about it in advance of the day. I should like my wedding trousseau to be as magnificent and grand as you please, all ordered, arranged, and prepared, to be kept in London ready for me, so that I may select what I want to take abroad with me, then I should like Earle to come on the eighth, as though he were coming for an ordinary visit; on the ninth, I should be quite willing for you to tell the servants in the house, so that wedding favors, flowers, and a wedding breakfast can be prepared; then, early on the morning of the tenth, I should like to drive over to the old church at Anderley with Earle, Mattie, and you – Lady Linleigh, if she will come – no one else; then to be married in that pretty church, where the morning sun always shines so brightly, and then go away with Earle. No pealing of bells, no jewels, no showers of wedding presents, no pomp, no bishop, with assistant ministers, no ceremony, no grandeur. That is just what I should like, papa."
"I never heard such an extraordinary idea in all my life," said the earl. "I do not know what to answer. I should like you to have your own way; but such a wedding for an earl's daughter is unheard of."
"Yes; it is different to Hanover Square, miles of white satin and lace, bishops, bells, jewels, carriages, friends, and all that kind of thing. I know it is quite different; but let me have my own way, papa, please. Pray intercede for me, Lady Linleigh."
The countess turned to her husband.
"Let it be so, Ulric," she said.
He was silent. He would have refused altogether, but for the uncomfortable suspicion haunting him that she had some painful though hidden motive, and that it was connected with that past life of hers, of which he knew so little; but for that, he would have laughed the whole idea to scorn.
"My dear Doris, I cannot understand. Most ladies look upon their wedding as the crowning ceremony of their lives, the grandest event that can possibly happen to them – the very opportunity for a display of splendor and magnificence."
"I know they do," she replied, gently. Then, as her hands clasped his, he felt her shudder, as though cold. She raised her face, and kissed him; she clasped her white arms round his neck. "Papa," she cried, "although I am your own child, I have never been much to you; the best part of my life has been spent away from you; I have never seen my mother's face; she is not here to plead to you for me. I shall have gone away from you, and altogether, you will have known but little of me. I hope Heaven will send you other children to love and bless you; but, papa, do not refuse my prayer. In the after years, when I am far away, and perhaps a fair-haired son stands pleading where I stand pleading now, you will like to remember that you yielded to my prayer – that you granted me the greatest favor it was in your power to grant."
The earl looked down. Lady Linleigh was weeping bitterly.
"You hear, Ulric!" she said, in a low, passionate voice; "you hear! She says she has no mother to plead for her! Let me plead in the mother's place! Do what she asks!"
"I never did anything so unwillingly in all my life," said the earl; "it is unheard of, inconsistent, ridiculous in the highest degree; but I cannot refuse the prayer of my wife and child; it must be as you wish."
He saw, even in the starlight, the expression of relief that came over the beautiful, restless face.
"You promise, then," said Doris, "and you too, Lady Linleigh, that you will not tell to any creature living, except Mattie Brace, when I am to marry, whom I am to marry, or anything about it?"
"I promise," said Lady Estelle.
"And I too," repeated the earl, "although it is sorely against my better judgment, my will, my common sense, and everything else."
"Never mind, papa," said Lady Doris, "you have made me happy."
But even then, as she spoke, the tragedy was looming darkly over her.
CHAPTER LXXIII
THE COUNTESS BECOMES CURIOUS
"We ought to be very much flattered," said Lord Linleigh, with a smile, as he laid an open letter before his wife. "When did we leave London? – in June. It is only the middle of July, yet some of our friends are growing weary for us."
It was such a July morning as makes the dwellers in cities ill with envy – when the earth hangs like a huge, shining jewel in the firmament of heaven – a morning when life seems the greatest luxury, when to breathe and to live is a blessing without alloy. The sky was dark blue, without even one little white cloud to obscure it; it looked so far off, so much further than when low-lying clouds touch the earth. The sun was golden bright, warm without intense heat; and the air – ah! well, it would require a poet to tell how balmy and soft it was – how it came over the meadows laden with the breath of sweet clover – how it came from the woods with the odor of wild hyacinths – how it came from the gardens with the fragrance of rose and of lily, with the fragrance of every flower that blows. Then it was filled with soft, delicious thrills – with the cooing of the ring-doves, and the song of the lark. Nature was in her happiest mood.
The earl and countess had come down early to breakfast – the long windows were open – the perfumed air came in. They smiled, as among the letters they saw one from Earle to Doris.
"He writes every day," said Lord Linleigh.
"Quite right," said Lady Estelle. "I like to see lovers deeply in love."
They smiled again, when, fresh and fair as the morning itself, Doris came down. Her face flushed when she saw the letter; a sweet, dewy brightness came into her eyes; she laid it aside as though waiting for time.
"Read your letter, Doris," said Lady Linleigh, and the girl opened it.
Ah! well, perhaps life does not hold a greater pleasure than reading a passionate love-letter on a bright summer morning. Her dainty color deepened as she read; the light grew brighter in her eyes.
"My love!" thought the girl; "how he loves me."
And with the fragrant breath of the summer morning, with the light of the blue skies, with the song of the birds, there came to her a pang of regret that she was so utterly unworthy of this great pure love, that her soul was so terribly stained by crime. Then, she said to herself that she would atone for it, that she would to the very best of her power make up for it; that she would be so loving, so tender, so true, he should never have cause to regret it. For it was such a love-letter as would have touched any girl's heart; written with the fire of a poet and of a lover. She lost herself in a day-dream, in a golden trance of happiness: it was coming so near, this wedding-day which was to bind her to Earle forever, and free her from all care.
It was Lady Linleigh's voice that roused her, and she was asking:
"What friend is coming – who is coming, Ulric?"
"Lord Vivianne – he does not say how long he intends remaining. There is the letter; read it."
But the countess was preparing a cup of fragrant tea after the fashion she liked best, and Lord Linleigh, seeing that, said:
"I will tell you about it, Estelle. Lord Vivianne says he shall be passing through Anderley on his way to Leeson, and he should very much like to spend a few days with us. I can but answer in the affirmative, I suppose."
"Certainly; it will be a change for you; you have been very quiet lately; we can have a picnic and a dinner-party while he is here."
Lord Linleigh glanced with a shrewd smile at his daughter. It did not seem to him wonderful that his lordship should be passing through Anderley; the only pity was, that it was all in vain. But he did not see his daughter's face, it was turned from him.
The love-letter had fallen from her hands, the golden light had faded from the skies, the beauty of the morning had vanished; her face grew pale, her eyes darkened.
Why was he coming? Whatever might be the reason, it meant mischief to her, she was sure of it. He had promised not to come near her until the end of August, then he was to come for her answer. What was bringing him now?
"I must bear it, I have to live it through," she said to herself, "no matter what it may be."
In a dumb passion of despair, she heard Lady Linleigh ask when he was coming.
"He will be here by the end of the week," said the earl, carelessly; then he laughed a little.
"Why are you laughing?" asked Lady Estelle.
"My dear Estelle, I am just thinking how eagerly you seized upon his coming as an excuse for a little gayety," he replied; "you who assured me so seriously you preferred quiet and solitude."
Lady Estelle blushed.
"I plead guilty, Ulric," she said. "It must be because I am very happy myself that I like to see every one else happy, too."
They both wondered why Lady Doris was so silent.
"It must be from sheer excess of happiness," thought the countess.
Lord Linleigh asked:
"Will you drive with me this morning, Doris, or would you prefer to ride or walk?"
"Will you go with me?" asked Lady Estelle. "I am going to Streathaw."