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In A Dark Wood
Shaun Whiteside
Marcel Moring
At the end of the Second World War, Jacob Noah emerges from the hole in the ground where he has been hiding for the past three years, and cycles madly back to his home town to find that his parents and brother have perished at the hands of the Nazis. Setting himself up as a shoemaker in the Dutch town of Assen, Noah patiently expands his business until he has become the most influential entrepreneur in the city.But however wealthy he becomes, nothing can console him for the loss of his family and the tragedy of history.In June 1980, on the eve of Assen's annual TT races, a despairing Noah sets off on a journey into the depths of his soul. Guided by a shabby, supernatural pedlar calling himself the 'Jew of Assen', he descends into the smoky heart of the town, a man-made hell modelled on Dis, the city in Dante's Inferno. In a rich and varied explosion of styles, fantasy and philosophical speculations, Marcel Möring leads us on a voyage through the dark heart of the twentieth century, and through a vivid exploration of loss and guilt.
Marcel Möring
IN A DARK WOOD
TRANSLATED BY SHAUN WHITESIDE
Epigraph (#ulink_721d8500-26c4-58e9-b77e-b86f8b590908)
Ego dixi: In dimidio dierum
meorum vadam ad portas inferi.
I said: In the midst of my days I
shall go to the gates of hell.
Isaiah 38:10
You come from nothing, you’re
going back to nothing. What’ve
you lost? Nothing!
Eric Idle, ‘Always Look on
the Bright Side of Life’
Contents
Cover (#uebcb7e7a-cb67-55ac-b795-ab8775ff9340)
Title Page (#ub9eae758-809d-5569-b54b-9ca429842d22)
Epigraph (#u5cca6fa4-2d8e-55fe-a2f4-f7c46b06cac5)
Part 1 (#ubf8e41d6-e9ed-5f7a-8de7-3543e69d2cb4)
Chapter 1 (#uf333ff92-53be-5467-859b-4299d1d035c7)
Chapter 2 (#u6191ca11-5638-5e19-83dd-5a92da9bbe4d)
Chapter 3 (#u2a716b13-7819-513b-804a-9b63af2fdfd0)
Chapter 4 (#ua169f19d-91ab-53ba-a97e-c3e42d5b3b17)
Chapter 5 (#u9a2f43ef-1084-5dd3-a397-9ebc9cc5a631)
Chapter 6 (#u18dddd1d-1b89-58b4-ae70-a94cb8820ca2)
Chapter 7 (#u84f624dc-d9dd-53a2-95ce-993f0f3be0bb)
Chapter 8 (#uc88c0413-389b-5b14-b154-4f0fc4be10da)
Part 2 (#u9de3e4f6-a3cc-502b-a60e-3552a06b1adc)
Chapter 9 (#u6cdc9dc1-7ff2-52a2-a3af-1ffa4ff49a7b)
Chapter 10 (#u7639fd8a-918f-5dd5-a57f-7d9723c70a64)
Chapter 11 (#u7d307db9-a977-50da-a510-229a07136ddb)
Chapter 12 (#u298f50a7-e775-5ff1-958b-dc39199ec877)
Chapter 13 (#u2a3a2eb7-1103-52e2-a6aa-218aded0e92c)
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Chapter 19 (#u351e6c0e-2502-58a5-bd7c-ac6a46fe1bc6)
Chapter 20 (#u13567318-e63d-518f-a73d-1303cc4fd7b4)
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Chapter 21 (#u82b92d24-002c-578d-a453-e49a8520bf01)
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Chapter 22 (#ud5b85bb0-4bf2-51c3-b002-d2765c4a2f12)
Chapter 23 (#ufdaada1e-475f-5559-8907-2c8ebb7e4c48)
Chapter 24 (#u516ebf37-eb65-5857-986d-204380ee374b)
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Chapter 25 (#u122c64ca-2a9a-5887-97b5-dfbfb3322a57)
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Chapter 26 (#u43fdabd2-8272-5e64-a559-cdc4b5d99037)
Chapter 27 (#ufdf52d68-3d35-580d-a671-549e8bf1e4a4)
Chapter 28 (#uc842b6d8-9ea8-5425-aed5-94f420f8b7e7)
Chapter 29 (#u0c72229e-78a4-509f-8dac-f2033e8541b0)
Chapter 30 (#u30657353-4624-52fa-998f-8e9ee64794c3)
Chapter 31 (#u9912e6ae-2de3-5c21-ab86-026af4f1d73f)
Chapter 32 (#ucefdf280-326d-5d8a-bdf6-7730cc62ca7a)
Chapter 33 (#u752d7174-e9a4-5565-8fb0-eb404909c098)
Chapter 34 (#u4a1bf646-d013-5965-94ba-016e760b863c)
Part 9 (#ueba295c3-fc3d-5a91-8e8f-aea36e7ed5bb)
Chapter 35 (#uc22d59e3-3ffc-545a-98c8-f002be7bd0ce)
Acknowledgements (#u1840ba6c-9453-5e40-b1f3-c358ac5a1cff)
Author’s Note (#uce48b0d3-fd18-5992-9cfe-c5ceb6772623)
Other Works (#u55631618-cbb5-5ad1-8bf8-44f3a6c56729)
Copyright (#u61af20b6-8efd-59c3-a6b7-fa2e299ac5d5)
About the Publisher (#uc5eb4dfd-2db9-557e-bdb0-ecf6b0e16cf6)
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Chapter 1 (#ulink_ef7d8ee9-fb96-578d-af5e-cf1bb81e74c4)
… and here when he comes out of the peat bog after three years like a mole in a hole after three years almost black no brown like a fresh horse turd he glistens in the May sun when the sun shines on his skin he gleams like horse shit like a freshly polished sideboard and he walks half-bent if you want to call his walking walking and the sun stings his eyes his eyes water with the sting of the sun in his eyes after three years and when he comes out of the peat bog and stands upright and sees the May clouds in the airmail-blue light there are the houses along the Smilder Canal the straight edge of the wood a leaden wall hiding something that he knows all too well and in his head is just one thought one thought but it wants to stay one thought that knocks and bangs like a festering finger one feeling that makes his heart contract his fingers bend but around one thing that he wants to hold tight on to and squeeze it squeeze the juice from it till the life disappears …
God …
One thought and it’s revenge.
He wants revenge. Revenge for everything. He wants to pull out the piece of rope that holds up his trousers brush the earth to the side and fuck the damned field of the damned farmers to avenge himself. Throw the first the best broad-bosomed blonde peasant with her blushing face in a furrow and while her face lies in the fat soil and the spittle runs from her mouth and mixes with the black earth fuck her up the arse.
He wants to ride fire-starting and plundering through villages and fields and like a vengeful black figure on a pale horse reduce this land to ashes till nothing is left but pitch and sulphur the blackened stumps of houses the smoking foundations of farms ashen dry fields and swollen cadavers and purple corpses along the edge of the road.
But that’s not how it works.
A fighter plane skims over, wings waving. The RAF insignia a haze of blue and white and red.
A pig squeals in the distance.
Children in blue overalls fish in the black water.
Dandelions stand yellow in the grassy verge.
A workhorse trots neck bowed through a meadow.
Just before noon he steals a bicycle from behind a barn and without looking round at the yelling farm labourers busy in the field he pushes the pedals round, along the canal, towards the town.
He cycles.
He cycles along the straight canal, his only souvenir of the years as a mole in a hole banging against his leg in his jacket pocket.
He cycles. For the first time in three years he cycles and the wind blows through his blurring curls and his eyes water and his legs hurt and he cycles
and he cycles
and he cycles.
And as he
approaches the town half an hour later he pulls on his brakes to look around for a moment and the sunlight, faintyellowfaraway, a balm for the hard lines of the landscape, washes over his face and into his eyes and through his hair, and in the distance, where the dark water of the long canal disappears into the horizon and then grey and then a blur, where he lived for three years like a mole in a hole in the bog, a worm in the earth, and for three years smelt earth, bog, peat, brown water, his godforsaken soul, the high light rises like a wall of summer blue, a cliché of prosperity and happiness and beautiful memories fromwhenwewerestillyoungandtheworldwasgood, and the bile wells up in him, a bitterness wells up which to his own surprise makes him bend sideways to puke a silvery strand from his empty belly, right next to his string-laced shoes, a glittering salamander on the road surface.
Never again.
In the town he cycles through a web of surprised glances. Flags hang from the windows, orange pennants ripple in the mild spring wind, here and there a half-torn poster flaps against a wall.
The house and the shop come into view and stillness falls around him. It’s as if the air has been sucked away.
The trees stop rustling and the wooden tyres of his bicycle stop rattling over the cobbles. There is no movement.
As if he was cycling through a peepshow.
And then he sees it.
Where before on a red-brown wooden board above both display windows with the ostentatious pride of one who had struggled long and finally conquered, in pseudo-medieval letters that suggested a permanence that didn’t exist, where once stood his name and that of his brother, his father and his mother
Abraham Noah Shoes (also repairs)
it now jabbers in illegible gothic script:
