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Always Emily
Mary Sullivan
This time, it has to be forever Emily Jordan has been in and out of Salem Pearce's life for years. As an archaeologist, her work often took her far away–even when he asked her to stay. She called it bad timing. He called it running away. Now she's back and asking for one last chance.But Salem is a single father with more than himself to think about. If he gives Emily another shot and she takes off again, it'll hurt his daughters, too. He can't take that risk. But deep down, he needs Emily. He always has. Maybe this time she'll stay….
This time, it has to be forever
Emily Jordan has been in and out of Salem Pearce’s life for years. As an archaeologist, her work often took her far away—even when he asked her to stay. She called it bad timing. He called it running away. Now she’s back and asking for one last chance.
But Salem is a single father with more than himself to think about. If he gives Emily another shot and she takes off again, it’ll hurt his daughters, too. He can’t take that risk. But deep down, he needs Emily. He always has. Maybe this time she’ll stay….
“What’s wrong, Emily?”
Salem laid her on the sofa in his office. When he tried to let her go, she grasped his shirt.
Even through her clothing, her skin burned. Just like Emily to come here like this, to bring mayhem into his well-ordered existence. She liked drama. He liked peace. She liked chaos. He needed order.
“Emily,” he said, keeping his voice low to soothe her as he would a skittish animal. “I need to get water.”
She nodded. “Yes. Water.”
Even so, she didn’t ease her grip.
“Let go.” He became stern. “I’ll come back.”
“Promise?” Her insecurity tore at him. Trouble roiled in her witchy blue-hazel eyes.
Where was his confident, brash Emily? What happened to you?
“I’m always here for you, Emily. You know that.”
She smiled so sweetly it broke his heart. Yes, Salem was always here for her, but she wasn’t always there for him.
Dear Reader,
Always Emily is my tenth Mills & Boon Superromance book. I can’t tell you how much I enjoy writing them and living my dream job!
In this story, I deal with two large issues—the first of finding trust again once it’s been broken, and the second of rebuilding ourselves after the choices we’ve made backfire.
In every life, there will be issues and hardships. I called up difficult circumstances in my past, when I learned I was strong enough to not only survive, but also thrive. At the time, it required a lot of flexibility and adaptability. To give my characters depth in this novel, I delved into the emotions I felt back then.
When I write, I look for tidbits of insight or wisdom to pass along through my characters’ journeys and often look at what others around me are dealing with. Ultimately, though, I come back to my own journey and the lessons I’ve learned. These inform my stories.
I hope you enjoy reading Always Emily as much as I did writing it.
Mary Sullivan
Always Emily
Mary Sullivan
www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk)
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Mary grew up a daydreamer amid the pop and fizz of Toronto’s multicultural community, wondering why those around her didn’t have stories rattling around in their brains, too. This novel involves an archeologist and a museum curator, dovetailing with her enjoyment of all of history’s lively stories. New ideas continue to pop into her head, often at the strangest moments. Snatches of conversations or newspaper articles or song lyrics—everything is fodder for her imagination. Be careful what you say around her. It might end up in a novel! She loves to hear from readers. To learn more about Mary or to contact her, please visit her at www.marysullivanbooks.com (http://www.marysullivanbooks.com)
For eleven years, I was a member of an amazing critique group. It ran its course and is over now, but I will be grateful to these wonderful women for the rest of my days. We learned to write together, laughed a lot and inspired each other to be better writers, to do our best always.
My utmost respect and admiration go out to Ann Lethbridge, Maureen McGowan, Molly O’Keefe and Sinead Murphy.
Simply put, I am in awe of your talent.
Contents
CHAPTER ONE (#u3588f5f6-652e-55f0-ad08-ab9effacf253)
CHAPTER TWO (#u38ce33b8-ef60-5c94-b142-3e890fb34df2)
CHAPTER THREE (#u4c54d0f7-6dc8-5344-b4c4-9cc355b7f08e)
CHAPTER FOUR (#u5c630d8c-8ceb-5e7e-937d-698b089f17d6)
CHAPTER FIVE (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER SIX (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER SEVEN (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER EIGHT (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER NINE (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER TEN (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER ELEVEN (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER TWELVE (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER THIRTEEN (#litres_trial_promo)
Extract (#litres_trial_promo)
CHAPTER ONE
One year ago
“YOU COULD ALWAYS STAY here with me,” Salem Pearce whispered into the velvety night, his butter-soft voice a contrast to the chirrups of crickets in the tall grasses lining the road.
G. veletis. Spring crickets. Only the males sing. Like crickets, men had their calling, courtship and rivalry songs. Emily Jordan had heard them all. In her experience, men were full of bluster.
But not Salem. Not her friend of few words.
These words shocked her. Even more, they frustrated her because his timing couldn’t be worse.
“I’ve waited years for you to ask me that,” she said fiercely. “How could you do this to me now? The night before my flight out?”
“You’re always catching a flight.” The bitterness in his voice might have been justified if not for their history. She wasn’t the only one who had turned away in the past. “You’re always leaving.”
The pale moon shone on hair as black as a cricket’s back and sent his deep-set eyes, as dark as the night weaving through the woods beside them, into shadow. His Native American skin, honey-gold in sunlight, glowed darker in the moonlight. An intensity she hadn’t seen before hardened his features.
“Of course I’m always leaving,” she answered. “Because I don’t work here. My livelihood takes me everywhere but here.”
“You set a record this time.” His voice hardened and cut through her defenses like an acetylene torch, the steel of the armor she’d spent years shaping useless against him when he used that harsh tone. She’d loved him for years, and then she’d learned to turn it off when he’d married someone else. “You didn’t last even a weekend.”
That set up her dander. “I’m returning to work.”
“Work? Is that what you call it?”
“Yes,” Emily shouted. Ooh, the man could make her so mad. “I’m a good archeologist. I do great work.”
“Archeology. Yes. You’re great.” He touched her arm, sending a zing of pleasure through her. “But we both know that isn’t why you go back, over and over again.” His tension swirled around them like fog, separating them as much as age and distance ever had.
“I’m returning to my work,” Emily insisted.
Salem stepped close so quickly, his long jet-black braid fell forward over his shoulder. “You’re returning to him.” The heat from his body chased away the late April chill.
“No.” She was involved with Jean-Marc, but her work called to her.
“He’ll be there.”
“Of course he will. He’s working on the same dig. He’s my boss. That doesn’t mean anything, Salem. There are a lot of people there.”
“You’re going back to him,” he repeated.
Relenting, she forced herself to answer honestly. “Yes.” Jean-Marc drew her as relentlessly as her work did. As equally.
A car on its way into Accord cast its headlights across the Colorado night and the glare turned the landscape to black and white.
She and Salem had been driving past each other on the small highway and had pulled over to talk. She’d wanted to tell him she was leaving in the morning. How could she have expected his beautiful, terrible bombshell? Stay with me.
In the wash of the car’s lights, Salem did his imitation of a sphinx, Native American-style. He closed up and set his beautiful lips into a thin line beneath his broad Ute cheekbones. Stone man. Lord, she hated when he did that.
This was so unfair. “You abandoned me first. Why?” Salem didn’t answer. She knew he understood the question, the one he’d never answered years ago. “Why?” she pressed. “You could have waited for me. You wanted me.”
“Not when we first met. You were so young. Like a kid sister. We had a bond, yeah. You were my little buddy. I couldn’t believe a twelve-year-old actually got me, understood my love of nature and my heritage, of history.”
He tapped his fist against his chin, a measured action, maybe judging how much to tell her? “I felt less alone because you were there. Why else would an eighteen-year-old hang out with a twelve-year-old? Why else would I pour my dreams out to you? I’d never known a kid who was so good at listening. I—I wished you were part of my family.” He angled away, as though embarrassed to admit to the very thing she had felt when she first met him—an unprecedented affinity with another person. Her heart soared. He had felt the same way as her!
“Then you were fourteen, almost fifteen, and beginning to look like a woman, and things changed. I fell in love with you.”
Her heart rate kicked up, did a song-and-dance routine in her chest.
“I found you attractive.” He grasped her upper arms, expression intense. “Don’t you get how young you still were? I respected both you and your dad too much to touch you. And myself, when it comes down to it. For God’s sake, it wouldn’t even have been legal. I tried waiting, but I kept on thinking about you, dreaming about you. I had to change how I dealt with you, to cut off the friendship, because it was becoming something it shouldn’t have been until you got older.”
All that time when she’d been dreaming about him, and he had started to turn away from her, he’d been doing the same with her. She’d had no idea. He’d hidden it well.
When he said, “I hated that attraction. It drove me nuts,” he shattered her blossoming happiness. “I had to distract myself with other women. Waiting was hard for a guy that age. What was I supposed to do? Wait four or five years?”
“Yes.” It came out a sibilant plea. “Why didn’t you?”
“You were a girl. I was a young man. I needed companionship.”
“You needed sex,” Emily said, still bitter sixteen years later.
“What was so wrong with that?” The sphinx was gone and Salem’s anger slipped through. “I was a guy. That’s what men do. They have sex with willing women. Annie was willing.”
“You didn’t have to get her pregnant.” And break my fourteen-year-old heart.
“That was an accident. Failed birth control.”
“You didn’t have to marry her.”
“Seriously, Emily? Leave Annie to raise the baby alone? Maybe let some other man step in? Don’t you know me at all?”
Yes, she did. Through and through. Proud, ethical Salem would do the right thing. She expected no less. It had been only her vulnerable young heart that had been unreasonable. It had hurt to lose him.
To lose something you never had, Emily?
But we did have something, a connection. Everyone thought so, not just me. Salem just told you he felt it, too.
“Why were you distant after you got married? We still saw each other all the time, but you treated me differently.”
“Of course I did.” The statement exploded out of him. “I was married and committed to making it work. I would have been a fool not to. I had children and was trying to create a strong family. My children had to believe I cared for their mother. Annie tried hard, too.”
It all made perfect sense. Her own naïveté had wounded her, not Salem.
“Stay,” Salem said again. “With me and the girls. Annie’s been dead for four years. We could make it work now.”
The age gap that had mattered when they were teenagers no longer did at thirty-six and thirty.
One big, big thing besides her career did separate them, though. Jean-Marc. She couldn’t dump him, long distance, just because Salem asked her to. Out of the blue, she might add. Where on earth had this come from?
“Don’t go back, Emily.”
“I have to.”
“Then this is goodbye.”
Her heart chilled. “What do you mean?”
