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Justin grabbed a handful of tiny plastic pumpkins and set them in front of the miniature buildings. “Are you going to change it up this year or go as Batman again?”
Javi’s dark eyes rolled up at him, exasperated. “Everyone expects me to be Batman.”
“You don’t have to do what people expect.” Justin balanced a couple of pumpkins on some church steps.
Javi pointed a connecting track piece at Justin. “Yes, you do.”
“Why is that?”
Javi shrugged. “So you don’t hurt anyone’s feelings.”
“What about your own feelings?” Justin grabbed a couple of musty, pint-size hay bales from a Ziploc bag and stacked them in front of the town hall building.
Javi frowned. “I like Batman.”
“Got it.”
“You’re gonna break Grandma’s heart if you go to jail,” Javi said offhandedly as he realigned the tracks to circle his tiny town.
“Javi,” cautioned Sofia, joining them.
Justin stole a quick look at his ma and caught her wiping her eyes with her sleeve. The sight struck him like a punch in the gut. Sofia stopped at the edge of the sofa, pinwheeled her arms, then collapsed onto the cushions with an oof.
“I’m as big as a whale,” she laughed.
“A blue one,” Javi shouted. “Because they’re the biggest! Mrs. Penway told us.”
“Tell Mrs. Penway thanks,” Sofia observed drily.
“And she’s hugely beautiful, too,” James called from the kitchen. He shed his coat and hat, strode around the granite island, then paused to kiss the top of Sofia’s head.
“Emphasis on the huge.” Sofia exchanged a tender smile with James that filled Justin with a strange sense of longing. He’d never be loved like that. Not that he’d let anyone close. He’d had and lost his better half. No one could occupy that spot again.
“What’s that behind your back? Is it a present?” Javi abandoned the train set and flung himself at his stepfather. James dropped a bag and caught Javi in a bear hug.
“More dresses for our little one?” Sofia passed Javi a light-up Batman mask then held up a glittery pink garment.
Something twisted in Justin’s gut. He’d miss seeing her and James’s child born while he was behind bars. A couple months ago, they’d revealed the baby’s gender—a girl, rare in his male-dominated family. Jewel, who could outride, outrope and outshoot any of her brothers, was the least feminine of any of them, especially pretty-boy Jared.
Since then, James had compulsively bought tiny dresses, flowered headbands, ruffled hats and lace socks with ribbons, each item frillier than the one before. The nursery resembled the inside of a Pepto-Bismol bottle, the walls practically oozing pink. The house hummed with hope and joy, leaving Justin feeling at odds whenever he entered it. He no longer fit in with his family—if he ever had. His head drooped.
“This one has rhinestones,” James protested.
“So do about twenty of the other dresses you’ve bought her.” Sofia smoothed a hand over her stomach.
“Those were sparkles and some had sewn crystal beads. Big difference.”
Justin had to give it to James—he considered himself the absolute authority on just about everything, from bioenvironmental engineering down to the trimmings on a child’s dress.
Sofia and his ma exchanged amused glances, and Justin’s throat constricted. What did happy feel like exactly?
He couldn’t remember.
“Yeah, big difference,” exclaimed Jewel as she swept down the open spiral staircase from the loft above the living room. She’d freshened up some from this morning’s cattle drive, her hair tucked back into her usual braid and her dusty Wranglers swapped for a cleaner pair. “Don’t know why you’re trying to ruin your daughter with all this girly-girl stuff. Good thing she’ll have her aunt Jewel to set her straight.”
“Oh, her father’s going to spoil her rotten.” Sofia sighed.
“Am I spoiled?” Javi, wearing his glowing Batman mask, bumped into his miniature village then tumbled to the wide-planked pine floor.
Justin snatched him close before he hit the ground, protecting Jesse’s son the way he should have shielded Jesse. “Never. You care too much about everybody.”
Javi pushed up his mask and peered at Justin. “How come you don’t?”
Justin shook his head, feeling his family’s judgmental eyes on him. “I do.”
“Then how come you’re gonna break Grandma’s heart and go to jail?”
“Javi,” Sofia warned again.
“You told Daddy that,” Javi huffed.
“The decision might be out of his hands anyway.” James settled on the couch beside Sofia and draped an arm around her shoulders. “Heard the town’s holding a meeting next week to discuss revoking the facility’s conditional charter. Place might close.”
“Why?” An image of Brielle flashed in his mind’s eye. He could tell she was committed to Fresh Start, and it bugged him that she’d lose it. Darned if he could say why exactly, but it did.
“Just what we read in the paper. Folks are worried property values will go down, and crime rates will rise from attracting the wrong kinds of people.” James dropped his ear to Sofia’s belly.
Javi joined them and placed a hand next to his father’s cheek. “What makes people the wrong kind?”
Sofia slid her fingers through Javi’s hair. “Some people don’t like drug addicts or people going through tough times.”
“We had bad times, and the shelters let us stay. Why won’t they let them stay?” The color blanched from Javi’s normally tan skin. “Does that mean people don’t like Mama and me?”
Justin felt a lasso cinch his chest and squeeze. Javi had a point. “Everyone loves you, bud.”
James pulled Javi onto his lap. “You have a home now. A family. No more troubles.”
“But Mama was an addict,” Javi continued, his voice rising. “And my first daddy, too. They needed help. How come people won’t help them like they did for Mama and me?”
“Because they’re idiots,” Justin bit out. He wanted no part of the facility personally, but the idea of the town shutting it down irked him. Places like Fresh Start gave people hope, a second chance, a refuge. Jesse had sobered up before he’d been gunned down for an unpaid drug debt. Who knew how long he would have stayed clean that time? Each period of sobriety extended Jesse’s life. If not for the murder, he might be here today, setting up a train set with his son... Of course, that’d mean James and Sofia wouldn’t have a baby on the way, but...
Did it mean Jesse’s death was one of those “meant to be” curveballs life threw at you? He’d bet the godly chaplain Brielle Thompson would think so.
“Thought you hated clinics like that,” Jewel drawled. She passed him a beer on her way back from the kitchen.
“Hate’s a strong word.” His thumb traced the tab’s sharp, metallic outline. “Just don’t see it helping me.”
“They’re dragging Jesse’s name into this,” James put in, grim.
“What? How?” his mother exclaimed.
“Javi, go to your room,” Sofia ordered.
“But—” he protested.
“Now.” James pointed at the stairs, and Javi scurried up them.
When they heard his bedroom door shut, James said, “They blame Jesse for bringing those murderers to town and claim the Fresh Start residents might do the same.”
Justin swore a blue streak, finishing with, “Of all the small-minded, hypocritical, overreactionary talk I’ve ever heard. We need to stop this.” His thumb twitched over his beer’s tab, but didn’t bend it back. It felt like a grenade—pull the pin and boom.
He needed to be alert for this conversation. Not numb.
“We’ll speak at the meeting.” James swept Sofia’s swollen feet onto his lap and rubbed them.
“That might help, but I’m not sure it’ll be enough,” worried Ma. “The lady who’s running it—what’s her name?”
“Brielle Thompson,” Justin supplied, thinking of the saintly warrior he’d gone toe to toe with days ago. She was a fighter. He set the beer down on the coffee table.
“Right.” His mother pulled off her glasses and polished them with the bottom of her yellow shirt. It coordinated with the polka dots in her headband and on her socks. Some people collected dolls. Some were into antique cars. His mother obsessed about matching her outfits, her furnishings, even her car accessories right down to the ocean-blue air freshener in the same shade as her sedan. She called it a lifestyle choice. “As a stranger,” she continued, “and a city girl, I’m not sure our neighbors will listen to her.”
Fired up, Justin bolted to his feet. “I’ll make them listen to her.”
“How are you going to do that?” Sofia asked, her eyes closed as James kneaded her insoles.
“I’m going over to Fresh Start to figure that out. Can anyone give me a ride?”
“Me.” Jewel bussed their ma on the cheek then hustled to join him. “I have plans in town anyway.”
“Wouldn’t be to hear Heath Loveland play at the Barnsider?” James teased.
“I’m going for the wings,” she huffed, then grabbed her coat and flounced out the door.
Justin and James grinned at each other. They loved tweaking their tough, tomboy sister about her supposed crush on one of their archrivals. Dubbed the “sensitive cowboy” by swooning ladies who flocked to his local gigs, Heath was the youngest in his family, like Jewel. Sometimes, given her extreme defensiveness, Justin and his brothers wondered if they might be right about Jewel liking Heath after all, crazy as that’d be.
“Take care now,” he heard his mother call as he jammed on his hat, shoved his arms in his jacket and flung himself out the door. Beer forgotten.
Fifteen minutes later he tromped up the steps to the old Greyson place. Its owner had raised a few cattle as a hobby and stabled horses, until recent years when hard times forced him to sell. The new owner, an investment banker looking to shelter money, rumor had it, had bought the place lock, stock and barrel. And it most recently had become the home of Fresh Start.
“Anybody here?” he called, opening the front door when no one answered his knock. He stepped inside just as Brielle emerged from a room to his left.
“What are you doing here?” Then—“Was the door unlocked?”
For some contrary reason, her hostile tone slapped a wide smile on his face. He swept off his hat and bowed slightly, all old-school, country-boy charm. “Yes, it was. And it’s nice to see you, too.”
“Can’t say the same, but come in. Doreen, please contact maintenance to have them check and reset the security keypad,” she called then turned back the way she came.
He followed her into a small, sterile-looking room, admiring the sway of her trim hips beneath a modest skirt that flowed nearly to her ankles. Today, the silky lavender material of her shirt buttoned at each wrist and twisted into a bow at her neck. With all this covering up, maybe it was a wonder he found an inch of her to be attracted to. Yet his eyes stuck to her like she was flypaper. He stroked his beard, his own form of concealment.
“Please. Sit.”
He folded himself into a chair and watched as she strode behind her desk and sat, her back so straight, he bet he could plumb an entire building off it. A hectic red colored her cheeks and brought out the mint of her magnetic eyes.
“What can I do for you?”
“It’s more what I can do for you.”
Her lips quirked, and he found himself mesmerized by the fuller bottom lip, imagining its softness...its taste...
“And what would that be?”
“Heard about the town hall meeting next week, and I wanted to help.”
She tilted her head and narrowed her eyes. “Why?”
“Why?”
“Seemed like you thought the clinic was a waste of time last time we talked.”
He dropped his eyes at her piercing gaze. With one look, she turned him into glass, see-through and potentially breakable. It was a damn uncomfortable feeling.
“It is for me. But other people...”
“If you don’t believe in what we do, how can you convince others?”
“I—I do believe you can make a difference. Just—you know—not with me.”
“And you’re in the habit of pronouncing judgments on things you know nothing about?”
His mouth dropped open. No. That was know-it-all James. “Look. I’m just beyond help is all.”
Her expression softened. “No one’s beyond help unless they put themselves out of reach.” He followed her eyes to a set of dog tags stowed in a paper clip tray.
“Are those yours?”
Suddenly she hurried from the room, rubbing her eye as if she’d gotten something in it. He glimpsed the anguish, the inner torment he’d spotted the night of the accident. It stirred his protective instincts. What kept her up at night?
Curiosity overruled politeness, and he leaned forward, grabbed the metal discs and read the inscription.
Pelton
William R.
4763888912
O Pos
Protestant
