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Your hot’n’cold stare makes me numb,
Cannot but wait for you to come.
***
I’m fearful of the very thought of you,
Cuz nothing’s changed since Sunday morning came.
And only God knows when you say «I love you’,
I feel unsure of my reply’s the same
***
First things first but
cravings are on top
You think it won’t get better soon
Keep your eyes on
the prize when you feel low
Never mind giving in
Now I’m a spent firework;
but, jeez, at least,
I’ve been one
That’s how I live:
I come and go
no run is no fun
no fun
Inspired by David Mitchel, Cloud Atlas
***
When you put your lipstick on for the wrong person
This is when you realize it couldn’t have been worse
No one cares about your loss
Funny you should ask how we became this selfish
Extraordinary things forever perish
Know why? They are everywhere
Keeping us alive was a just game
It was coming through and finally came
The end, goodbye, I’m done
If I were you then I would give up
Unless you bury us you can’t live it up
No breaks, break up it is
You got used to licking love off the knifes, darling
Don’t you see how low down this time you’re falling?
Zone out, let that sink in
Find a boy who’d cherish you, not his own projections
You are not here to meet someone’s expectations
Enough, be strong, be whole
Love, next time don’t let me even close
Attention seekers always need a dose
***
It must’ve been something I never saw
It must’ve been something you never showed
How can someone feel it without a soul?
That once was like shipwrecked, then found washed ashore
Roads lead to the dead end though I don’t care
So let’s take the ferry and better sail
Discover unknown, make it sanctuary
It’s just you and me who could make it three
***
Though you didn’t have my heart broken
I’m pissed «bout how we’re still talkin’
There’s really nothing left for me to say
Go have a motherfucking life and day
***
I like the way some people
cloth their thoughts
in words
of languages that for me foreign.
This job is not a simple one,
but, hopefully,
I will learn how to do it
by myself, I promise.
***
Our parting ways doesn’t feel like a heartbreak
As we were extraordinary, no matter what we did make
As if we knew we could still be friends
If a break-up ever occurs
Cause you never were truly mine
And I wasn’t wholeheartedly yours
How terrifyingly thin is the line between
Crippling loneliness and its twin
Which is freedom
Labeling things is so hard
So much that it hurts
I wish people could read minds
What good are ambiguous words
A smiling freckled face
has finally realised
it’s time we ended that race
Just being will suffice
***
I remember the time I was loved
I remember the time I did love
Such a pity it was never at the same time
I stand and wait for stars to fall
Since here I am anticipating awe.
Though you’ve been searching for them all,
In vain you tried, my friend, I stole the show.
In vain you tried, my friend, I stole the show.
I’ve learned to push your buttons that’s for sure
The grass is greener if you say so
With empty hands you’re left unless you ask for more
***
I feel so lonely, but I’m not alone
There always be the people who
I love and who I’m loved by. You know
