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Kate
Lizzie
Kate
Lizzie
Kate
Lizzie
Kate
Ruth
Lizzie
Olly
Lizzie
Kate
Lizzie
Kate
Lizzie
Kate
Lizzie
Kate
Lizzie
Lizzie
Kate
Lizzie
Olly
Kate
Olly
Acknowledgements
About the Publisher
Prologue (#ulink_65eb7eea-d4ca-5f43-a522-ff055ceca455)
We’re running. Along wide, tree-lined pavements, over the zebra crossing and into the park.
‘Quick, Tom.’
Tom struggles to keep up, tired little legs bobbing up and down on trimmed grass. He gasps for breath.
My ribs throb, lighting up in pain.
A Victorian bandstand and a rainbow of flowerbeds flash past. Dimly, I notice wicker picnic hampers, Prosecco, Pimm’s in plastic glasses.
No one notices us. The frightened mother with straight, brown hair, wearing her husband’s choice of clothes. The little boy in tears.
That’s the thing about the city. Nobody notices.
There’s a giant privet hedge by the railings, big enough to hide in.
Tom cries harder. I cuddle him in my arms. ‘Don’t make a sound,’ I whisper, heart racing. ‘Don’t make a sound.’
Tom nods rapidly.
We both clutch each other, terrified. I shiver, even though it’s a warm summer’s day.
Tom gives a choked sob. ‘Will he find us, Mum?’
‘Shush,’ I say, crouching in my flat leather sandals, summer dress flowing over my knees. ‘Please, Tom. We have to be quiet.’
‘I’m scared.’ Tom clasps my bare arm.
‘I know, sweetheart,’ I whisper, holding his head against my shoulder. ‘We’re going away. Far away from him.’
‘What if he gets me at school?’
‘We’ll find a new school. One he doesn’t know about. Okay?’
Tom’s chest is against mine, his breathing fast.
He understands that we can’t be found.
Olly is capable of anything.
Lizzie (#ulink_c66bad2a-4983-56c9-82c9-677aec6261ed)
Monday. School starts. It won’t be like the last place, Tom knows that. It will be hard, being the new kid.
‘Come on, Tommo,’ I call up the stairs. ‘Let’s go go go. We don’t want to be late on our first day.’
I pack Tom’s school bag, then give my hair a few quick brushes, checking my reflection in the hallway mirror.
A pale, worried face stares back at me. Pointy little features, a heart-shaped chin, brown hair, long and ruler-straight.
The invisible woman.
Olly’s broken ex-wife.
I want to change that. I want to be someone different here.
No one needs to know how things were before.
Tom clatters down the polished, wooden staircase in his new Steelfield school uniform. I throw my arms around him.
‘A hug to make you grow big and strong,’ I say. ‘You get taller with every cuddle. Did you know that?’
‘I know, Mum. You tell me every morning.’
I hand him his blue wool coat. I’ve always liked this colour against Tom’s bright blond hair and pale skin. The coat is from last winter, but he still hasn’t grown out of it. Tom is small for his age; at nearly nine he looks more like seven.
We head out and onto the muddy track, stopping at a blackberry bush to pick berries.
Tom counts as he eats and sings.
‘One, two, three, four, five – to stay alive.’
‘It’s going to be exciting,’ I coax as Tom and I pass the school playing field. ‘Look at all that grass. You didn’t have that in London. And they’ve got a little woodland bit.’ I point to the trees edging the field. ‘And full-sized goalposts.’
‘What if Dad finds us?’ Tom watches the stony ground.
‘He won’t. Don’t worry. We’re safe here.’
‘I like our new house,’ says Tom. ‘It’s a family house. Like in Peter Pan.’
We walk on in silence and birds skitter across the path.
Tom says, ‘Hello, birds. Do you live here? Oh – did you hurt your leg, little birdy? I hope you feel better soon.’
They really are beautiful school grounds – huge and tree-lined, with bright green grass. Up ahead there is a silver, glimmering spider’s web tangled through the fence wire: an old bike chain bent around to repair a hole.
I wonder, briefly, why there is a hole in the fence. I’m sure there’s some logical explanation. This is an excellent school … But I’ve never seen a fence this tall around a school. It’s like a zoo enclosure.
I feel uneasy, thinking of children caged like animals.
A cage is safe. Think of it that way.
The school building sits at the front of the field, a large Victorian structure with a tarmac playground. There are no lively murals, like at Tom’s last school. Just spikey grey railings and towering, arched gates.
A shiny sign says:
STEELFIELD SCHOOL: AN OUTSTANDING EDUCATIONAL ESTABLISHMENT
HEADMASTER: ALAN COCKRUN, BA HONS SEMPER FORTIS – ALWAYS STRONG
The downstairs windows have bars on them, which feel a little sinister and an odd paradox to the holes in the fence. And one window – a small one by the main door – has blacked-out glass, a sleeping eye twinkling in the sun.
The playground is a spotless black lake. No scooter marks or trodden-in chewing gum. I’ve never seen a school so clean.
We approach the main road, joining a swarm of kids battling for pavement position.
Most of the kids are orderly and well-behaved. No chatting or playing. However, three boys stand out with their neon, scruffy shoes, angry faces and thick, shaggy black hair.
Brothers, I decide.
They are pushing and shoving each other, fighting over a football. The tallest of the boys notices Tom and me coming up the lane. ‘Who are you?’ He bounces his football hard on the concrete, glaring.
I put a hand on Tom’s shoulder. ‘Come on, Tommo. Nearly there.’
The shortest of the three boys shouts, ‘Oo, oo. London town-ies’.
I call after them, ‘Hey. Hey! Excuse me—’
But they’re running now, laughing and careering through the school gates.
How do they know we’re from London?
‘It’s okay, Mum,’ says Tom.
My hand tenses on his shoulder. ‘I should say something.’
‘They don’t know me yet,’ Tom whispers. ‘That’s all. When they get to know me, it’ll be okay.’
My wise little eight-year-old. Tom has always been that way. Very in tune with people. But I am worried about bullying. Vulnerable children are easy targets. Social services told me that.
It will be hard for him …
As the three black-haired brothers head into the school yard, a remarkable change takes place. They stop jostling and pushing each other and walk sensibly, arms by their sides, mouths closed in angry lines.
Tom and I walk alongside the railings, approaching the open gates.
It’s funny – I’d expected this new academy school to be shiny and modern. Not to have grey brick walls, a bell tower, slate turrets and bars.
I sweep away thoughts of prisons and haunted houses and tell Tom, ‘Well, this is exciting. Look – there’s hopscotch.’
Tom doesn’t reply, his eyes wide at the shadowy brickwork.
‘This is my school?’ he asks, bewildered. ‘It looks like an old castle.’
