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I hadn’t printed my message because I knew they could trace printers. Instead I’d written it left-handed. It had taken a few efforts before I was happy that my block capitals were legible. It would have been embarrassing to be asked to read out particular words and also against the whole point of the note.
The queue moved forward again. I folded the note in half as a woman pushed a toddler through. A rush of air and the doorbell sounded, but nobody joined the queue. Remember: I was doing this for all the right reasons. In a funny way it was actually the right thing to do. My heart beat double fast as I reopened the note. The paper was damp, but the ink hadn’t run.
PUT ALL YOUR MONEY INTO THIS BAG. DO NOT TAKE BANKNOTES FROM THE BOTTOM OF THE DRAWER. DO NOT SOUND THE ALARM. THE PERSON BEHIND ME IS READY TO SHOOT YOUR ASSISTANT IF I GIVE THE SIGNAL. IF YOU TALK TO THEM, THEY WILL SHOOT YOU.
I refolded the note and shoved it back into my pocket, tight between my backside and my wallet. I’d forgotten my loot bag. Another customer left and the queue moved forward. There were now three people in front and still nobody behind. What could I do for a bag? I looked from the aisle of magazines to the greeting cards. On the bottom shelf was a bag. It was A4 size, pink, and had an image of a Frozen princess. It wouldn’t hold much money, but it was better than nothing. I leant across to grab it.
‘Watch yourself,’ said a departing man.
There were now two people until the front desk. I couldn’t believe for such a busy post office no one else had entered. The plan was a non-starter if nobody stood behind me. The note would make no sense. Would that be the end of the world?
Think of Beth. Think of all her stuff. Destroyed. By you.
I pulled down my baseball cap even further. The brim squelched wet between thumb and forefinger. If I pulled it any lower, I wouldn’t be able to see.
The voices from the TV began to sing. A Bollywood tune – all strings and sitar. It was probably a love song but all it did for me was to excite the bumblebees of anxiety that buzzed against my ribs.
Look, if nobody joined the queue, I’d take it as clear evidence that stealing money was a bad idea. There had been enough clues already.
The next customer left. There was now only one person between me and destiny. As he asked how much it would cost to send a first-class letter to New York, America, I peered round his shoulder at the person behind the Perspex screen. Up until this point, I’d not looked because I didn’t want a heart attack.
It was an extremely old woman, possibly the mother or grandmother of the bored sari-wearing TV-watching woman. Her hands shook as she turned over books of stamps. Her hair fell in cotton wisps across a deeply lined forehead. I stopped looking, instead focusing on the void of the old man’s back. Even though a grandmother had been my ideal target, now I was faced with one the nerves gripping my heart were joined by a tremendous churning of my stomach – guilt (and hunger).
Because, essentially, I’m a nice guy.
The door opened. I didn’t turn at its sound, but remained facing forward. Footsteps sounded across the tight space. A presence. Someone had joined the queue. I daren’t turn round. I didn’t want to jinx it. Instead I ignored all the strange insect feelings coming from my body, and I pulled out the note.
George Clooney, Al Pacino, Clint Eastwood.
Dylan Thomas.
Maybe I should just go home?
I remembered the rain. I remembered the fire.
I gritted my teeth and jutted my jaw. I was no longer a south-east London loser teenager. I was a Hollywood hero. All I needed to do was hand over a note and the next thing you know I’d be walking out with a Disney bag full of cash. The old woman wouldn’t care. She’d seen enough in this world to no longer be surprised by anything. Come on. It wasn’t her money.
And then … a hand on my shoulder. Before I turned I understood what I’d see: the police! Because the game was up. They’d known all along. What had I been thinking?
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Be Prepared to Use Your Imagination (#ulink_01076f6d-8a7d-5818-a7ed-f5f0d80900a9)
‘Dylan Thomas! Writing any poetry?’
It wasn’t the police. It was worse. It was Miss Riley, my old Year Six teacher. Gulp. Her hair was as mad as the last day at primary. She was grinning full beam and holding a Sainsbury’s bag for life. Her perfume, smelling like dying flowers, made me remember spelling tests, circle time and pleas to stop chatting.
‘Not yet,’ I said, somehow managing not to swear, my voice two octaves higher than usual.
‘How’s your mother? What year are you in now? You’ve heard about Beth’s house of course? It was in the News Shopper. She was ever so good at football, bless her.’
I didn’t know which question to answer, so I said, ‘Yes’.
I had the required person behind me, as referenced by my note, but as it was someone I knew, I’d have to chuck it all in.
Wouldn’t I?
Ahead of me, the cream-shirted man asked if he might also send a letter to South Africa.
‘I shouldn’t really be saying this, but they’re lucky to get a flat. Housing is prioritised for people in need, I understand, but why there’s got to be social housing in London, I don’t know, not when house prices are what they are. But you’re too young.’
How would I get Miss Riley to stop talking? She had a weird, faraway look in her eyes. I should just walk away. I’d drop the Frozen bag and jog on. I couldn’t rob the place with her there.
‘How can I help, sir?’ asked the old woman.
She had a warm, caring voice. Her eyes, I noticed, were the colour of chocolate. She’d called me ‘sir’. I don’t think I’d ever been called ‘sir’ before. Silver glasses hung delicately round her neck.
‘Umm,’ I said, stepping up to place the Frozen bag on the counter because my plan in the instant was to pretend to want to buy the bag.
‘You didn’t need to queue for this, sweetheart. You could have paid at the till. This is the postal counter.’ The old woman had pulled on her glasses and was studying the bag through the glass. ‘But that’s £2.99, please,’ she said.
To make my show of having no money all the more convincing, I went to pull my wallet from my jeans. But, would you know it, the note came with the wallet, gliding softly and terribly to the floor. I bent to retrieve it, but thumped my forehead against the counter and knocked my cap to the floor.
‘Aggh,’ I said, staggering backwards into a display of birthday cards.
Miss Riley swept forward to grab the note.
‘No!’ I said, one hand at my head, the other pointing.
‘Mind yourself,’ said Miss Riley, not giving the note to me, but sliding it through the gap between the screen and counter because, obviously, today wasn’t the day for catching any breaks.
‘You want to be sending this, do you?’ asked the old woman. ‘You’ll need an envelope.’
Miss Riley laughed. ‘Get the boy some paracetamol too! Is your head okay?’
It properly hurt, not just because of my bruised skull, but also because of my growing fear; safe behind the security screen, the old woman was slowly unfolding the paper.
‘No,’ I said, bending to retrieve my cap. ‘Don’t read it.’
‘Do you need an envelope, Dylan?’ asked Miss Riley. ‘They won’t be expensive.’
Smiling, the old woman read. She looked up from the note. Her smile faded. She frowned. Her mouth opened but no sound emerged.
‘I can’t make head nor tail of it,’ she said. ‘Is this your writing? How old are you?’
‘Everything okay?’ asked Miss Riley. ‘I used to be this boy’s teacher. Let me help.’
The old woman gestured Miss Riley forward.
A tiny whining sound emerged from my mouth. Was this actually happening?
‘My eyes,’ she said. ‘Can you read any of this?’
Miss Riley craned her neck to make sense of the note the old lady held up.
‘Well, that first line says to put all your money in the bag. Is this from your mum, Dylan?’
‘Are you wanting to make a withdrawal?’
‘No,’ I said. ‘It’s a …’
I didn’t know what it was. Other than an absolute nightmare.
Miss Riley grabbed my arm.
‘Dylan,’ she said, ‘why don’t you just read the thing out?’
I shook my head and broke from her grip.
‘I just want to buy the Frozen bag,’ I said, temporarily forgetting that my worldly riches extended to no more than 8p. ‘The note’s for something else. Not for reading. Thank you.’
Undeterred, the old woman tried reading more. She got so far before beckoning Miss Riley back.
‘Do you have a gun?’ she asked. ‘It says you have a gun. At least, I think that’s what it says.’
‘No. Just a parcel to send recorded delivery, please.’ And then she realised what she’d been asked. ‘A what?’
‘I’ve got 8p,’ I said, pulling the change from my pocket and piling it up on the counter.
‘A gun?’ asked Miss Riley.
‘It’s just a story I’m working on. Can I have it back?’
‘Ahh,’ said Miss Riley. ‘You and your stories. Don’t be embarrassed.’
The old woman pointed at the note.
‘I’ve no idea what that last sentence says.’
‘When I started teaching, handwriting was an important part of the curriculum,’ said Miss Riley.
‘Aha!’ said the old woman. ‘Those two words: shoot you. Definitely.’
‘I’ve got to go,’ I said. ‘I’ve made a huge mistake.’
I turned and tripped over Miss Riley’s shopping, slapping to the floor. Two onions broke for it and rolled under the magazine stand. I pulled myself up, brushed myself down, and pushed through to the front door to safety/freedom.
‘You don’t want your bag?’ called the old woman after me.
‘What about your story?’ added Miss Riley.
I ignored them both.
On the bus home, I sat on the bottom deck, even though three pit bulls meant the space stank of wet dog. My plan had been to come home with thousands of pounds. In actual fact, the morning had cost me the 8p I’d left in the post office.
But the day hadn’t been completely wasted because I’d established that notes and post offices were not the way forward. Even if Miss Riley hadn’t magically turned up, I’m not sure I had it in me to take money from the old woman. All thoughts of insurance had flown from my brain when I’d watched her read my note.
Maybe I needed to find a post office, or a bank, operated by Hitler. Someone so evil they deserved to be robbed.
Maybe banks were the way to go, Dad was always on about how they were run by crooks, one rule for them, another for us, that kind of thing. And in the unlikely event that I were caught, I could always play stupid and say I thought Dad was talking literally, which meant I didn’t realise I was breaking the law, officer.
Banks.
Fewer threats of violence.
Yeah.
Back home, Dad was snoring on the sofa as gunshots sounded across the front room. I took to my computer and headed straight for Google Maps, pausing only to check Beth’s Facebook to see she’d actually posted something for once – a sad-faced emoji, which didn’t necessarily have anything to do with me burning down her uninsured home and forcing her family to move into a cramped high-rise flat, but still …
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‘Ever Tried. Ever Failed. No Matter. Try Again. Fail Again. Fail Better.’ Samuel Beckett (#ulink_1117dd5e-d7db-5d38-8b08-9a4ba3c0dc3f)
‘Have you considered offices?’ asked Dad from the sofa. ‘Better an office than a ladder, I’m telling you. Accidents happen on ladders.’
Dad flicked through Sight & Sound as I thumbed the BBC Sport app. Palace hadn’t bought any players and the new season was getting closer. Their problem was the salaries of quality players. How many banks would I need to rob to be able to buy Palace? Even though they’re crap, they’d still cost hundreds of millions.
Football, bloody hell.
‘Did you hear me?’ asked Dad. ‘Even if you don’t get a summer job in an office, you should think about one when you’re my age. You don’t get covered in sewage in offices. Not unless you’re really unlucky.’
I glanced up from my iPhone. He’d not shaved in a couple of days. It made him look homeless. I thought of Beth. I looked back to my phone. What now? Notes obviously weren’t the way forward. How else do people rob banks? Was there a way of making myself invisible? Like when you’re at a popular kid’s birthday party? That’d make the whole robbery thing easier.
Tremors of vibration – a call! I stared open-mouthed at the screen. Beth! it said, as if by magic. (I can’t remember why I’d put an exclamation mark next to her name but it meant every call from her felt dramatic.)
‘A girl?’ Dad smiled.
I ignored him, and shot up the stairs past an eye-rolling sister into my room.
‘Hey,’ I said at the exact moment my back bounced down on to the mattress.
A cat replied. And it mewed. At least, that’s what I thought I heard. Maybe Beth had accidentally cat-called me, meaning a cat had slinked across her phone without her knowing.
But no.
‘Dylan?’ she said and I think the sound was sobbing.
‘Are you with a cat?’
