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‘That can’t be right,’ Alice murmured before she could stop herself.
‘It is,’ insisted Sara. ‘He’s been seen there.’
‘Why on earth would Razeby do that?’ Alice asked, her pace subconsciously slowing.
Sara raised her brows, widened her eyes and gave her that look that brought a blush of embarrassment to Alice’s cheeks.
It was Tilly who finally told her. ‘The rumour is it ain’t just a bride he’s looking for, Alice, but a new mistress. We thought you knew.’
Alice felt the words hit her hard. She glanced away to hide her shock. ‘Rumours aren’t always true.’
They all looked at her in a way that made her regret saying the words aloud.
‘Going in there late at night. Leaving early in the morning. A girl doesn’t have to be a bluestocking to work it out,’ said Sara.
‘You know what men are like.’ Tilly patted her arm as if to console her.
‘I do.’ And yet she thought Razeby different. Even now. Even after all that had happened. It could not be true. She knew Razeby. And what he was doing was about duty, no matter how much she disliked the way he had gone about doing it.
‘It’s always about what’s in their breeches,’ said Ellen.
‘It is,’ agreed Alice with a smile to mask how much she was still reeling from the revelation.
‘But you didn’t leave anything behind, did you?’ Sara persisted.
Alice’s smile broadened. ‘I didn’t leave one thing.’ But, in truth, she had left a lot more than a diamond bracelet and some expensive dresses.
‘You don’t want some other woman getting her hands on anything that’s rightfully yours.’
Tilly and Ellen nodded in agreement with Sara’s words.
Alice laughed. ‘I don’t think there’s any danger of that.’
‘Glad to hear it, girl.’ Tilly slipped her arm through hers.
‘Come on—’ Ellen gave a smile ‘—I need some new stockings and Benjamin Preece has been advertising ladies’ white silk hose made of real China silk for only 7s 6d a pair.’
‘I could do with some stockings myself,’ said Alice, denying the disquiet she was feeling. ‘And then we’ll go and have tea.’
‘Like ladies.’ Ellen raised her eyebrows and affected a posh accent.
They giggled like girls.
‘Preece’s it is,’ said Alice and, with her arm still linked in Tilly’s, the group made their way towards Preece’s warehouse.
In all of the days that followed the shopping trip Alice could not stop thinking about Razeby keeping on the house in Hart Street. It worried at her, like a dog at a bone. She tried to push the thought out of her head, throwing herself all the more into her parts on the stage over those next few nights, and afterwards, in the Green Room, working the room with a charm and a control that would have done all of Venetia’s best teachings proud. But none of it stopped her thinking. At night, in bed, the thought was there just the same.
She looked at herself in the peering glass. There were much prettier women out there. Women who put her ordinary looks in the shade. She sucked in her tummy, examined her teeth and scrubbed a finger against the faint freckles that marred the bridge of her nose. Maybe he really had just grown tired of her. Maybe he had lied and misled her because he did not have the courage to tell her the truth.
She shook her head, unable to believe it. Razeby had more integrity in his little finger than the whole of any other man she had known. And rumours were just that, she told herself. A fire of gossip over nothing.
But all rumours started with a grain of truth, the little sharp thought countered.
And then pricked away at her relentlessly. Even if it was true, what difference did it make? she demanded.
But it did make a difference. Alice knew that, no matter how hard she tried to pretend otherwise. And because of that she knew she was going to have to discover the truth for herself.
She rose much earlier than normal the next day.
‘Shall I fetch you a hackney carriage, Miss Sweetly?’ the youngest maid, Rosie, asked.
Alice shook her head. ‘It’s a fine morning. I’ve a mind to walk and take the air.’
‘I’ll just fetch my cloak, ma’am. At this hour of the day it’s still a bit chilly out there.’
‘Don’t bother yourself, Rosie. I’ve some lines to think through, it’s best if I walk alone.’
‘Very good, ma’am.’ The maid bobbed a curtsy and opened the door for her.
The hour was still early enough that the streets were quiet. The ground was damp with rain that no longer fell, and, as the maid had warned, the morning was still cool with the night’s chill. But the sun was out and the air was bright and clear, just the way she liked.
She walked slowly, breathing in the damp freshness of the air, while all around her London stirred. Carts with animals and vegetables come up from the country for the market rolled by. Milk maids leading cows by a rope, a gaggle of geese still wearing the little shoes to save their feet from all the miles they had walked. Alice walked, too, down Mercer Street and along Long Acre, crossing over to walk down Banbury Court. And, finally, onto Hart Street.
She strolled as if it were just a street like any other. Pretended not to even look at the house in which she had lived with Razeby. She deliberately stayed on the other side of the road. But her feet trod slower and her heart beat faster, and as she came closer her eyes fixed upon the building that had been her home for half a year.
It looked just the same as when she had left it. As if she could walk back in there right now and turn back time to be what it had been not so long ago. But then the fittings and furniture came with the house when Razeby had rented it, just as hers had come with the new rooms in Mercer Street. It did not mean that the house was not in other hands. It was just a damn rumour and she was a fool for even being here.
But at the very moment she chided herself with that thought, the black glossy front door opened. And Alice’s heart jumped at the prospect of being caught here spying. She ducked out of sight behind a tree. Her fingers held hard on to the wide gnarled trunk as she watched while a tall, dark-haired handsome man she recognised too well emerged.
The breath caught in her throat. Her stomach gave a somersault before her heart stampeded off at full tilt.
The expression on his face was serious. He was not smiling. Indeed, there was nothing of his usual good-natured manner with which she always thought of him. He walked off at a brisk pace in the opposite direction, not glancing back at the house once.
Her heart was thundering and she felt shocked, and all she could hear in her head were Tilly’s words: The rumour is it ain’t just a bride he’s looking for, Alice, but a new mistress.
And he must have himself a new girl, or why else would he have spent the night there? She stared at the windows. All the blinds and curtains were opened, but there was no movement, no hint of a woman’s face watching him leave.
She waited until he was almost out of sight before stepping out from behind the tree and making her way back to Mercer Street.
Chapter Eleven (#ue4f0f10f-a38d-5358-aa6e-4787ba8a1f26)
Razeby was at Almack’s again. So many times, going through the same motions. All with one purpose that was contrary to that which he desired. It was bad enough being here without his friends turning up to witness it. Linwood was different, because, despite all of Razeby’s denials, Linwood knew something of the truth and he understood, in part.
‘Came to give you a bit of support, old chap, in the old bride hunt.’ Bullford beamed.
‘How considerate of you all,’ said Razeby with an irony that sailed right over Bullford’s head.
‘Well, we couldn’t abandon a brother in need. You seem to be struggling, so we thought we’d better step in and help.’ Fallingham sipped at his champagne.
‘Struggling?’ Razeby raised an eyebrow.
‘Dragging it out,’ Devlin explained.
Razeby smiled because the barb was dangerously close to the truth. ‘I am merely being selective in my choice.’
‘Selective? That’s a good one,’ quipped Monteith. ‘I must remember “selective” when it comes to deferring putting my head in parson’s trap.’
‘What’s to select?’ asked Fallingham. ‘There’s only three criteria to be considered: how well connected they are, how much money they bring to the deal, and how far they can open their legs.’
The men laughed at Fallingham’s crudity. All except Razeby and Linwood.
Razeby glanced round at his friends—the group of society’s most disreputable gentlemen. ‘One glance at the company I’m keeping and the duennas won’t let me near their charges.’
‘We could always take care of the duennas for you, Razeby,’ Monteith said. ‘There’s much to be said for the older, more experienced lady.’
‘There’s a truth in that and no mistake,’ agreed Devlin. ‘I heard a story about the widowed Mrs Alcock—’
‘We’ve all heard the story of Mrs Alcock and if you repeat it in here you’ll have us all thrown out, and then where will Razeby be?’ said Bullford.
‘Push off, the lot of you,’ said Razeby as if in jest, but meaning it. ‘Before Lady Jersey sees you.’
‘There’s gratitude for you,’ drawled Monteith.
Razeby gave an ironic smile.
‘You know where we’ll be.’ Fallingham finished the contents of his glass in one gulp and waved a farewell.
His friends moved off, all except Devlin and Linwood.
Razeby met Devlin’s eye. ‘I really have heard the story of Mrs Alcock, Devlin.’
‘Wanted to speak to you,’ said Devlin. ‘Slightly sensitive subject.’
Razeby felt a sudden uncomfortable premonition of just what that ‘slightly sensitive subject’ might be.
‘Not like you to be bashful,’ he said and waited to see what Devlin would say.
‘I just wanted to ascertain the situation. Regarding you and Miss Sweetly.’
Razeby’s heart beat harder. ‘I am looking for a bride, Devlin. Does not that say it all?’ He forced his muscles to stay relaxed.
‘I thought perhaps you and Miss Sweetly might still have something going.’
‘We do not.’ The words were curt. He kept control.
‘I am glad to hear it.’
Razeby’s gaze sharpened on Devlin. But Devlin did not seem to notice.
‘The thing is, Razeby…’ Devlin cleared his throat. ‘There’s something I’ve been meaning to ask you. Now that you and Alice are no longer together I thought I might ask her out. You wouldn’t have any objection to that, would you?’
‘Why would I possibly object?’ he said drily. But inside he could feel the thud of his heart too loud and hard in his chest and the cold prickle of his skin, and something primitive and menacing snake through his blood.
‘Thank you, Razeby.’ Devlin gave him a nod. ‘I had better catch up with the others.’
‘You had better,’ said Razeby in a voice that barely concealed the warning. He stood there and watched Devlin leave with a jaw clenched so tight it was painful, only shifting his gaze to Linwood once Devlin had disappeared through the door.
The two friends exchanged a glance. ‘You are over her, remember,’ Linwood said quietly.
‘I remember,’ Razeby replied grimly. ‘Remembering is all I do.’
Alice slipped the cloak hood from her head as the Linwood butler ushered her into the hallway of Venetia’s rooms.
‘Alice.’ Venetia came hurrying out of the drawing room to see her.
‘You don’t have anyone in, do you?’ Alice asked, darting a cautious look over at the drawing room.
‘No one. I am just writing some letters while Linwood is out this evening.’ She made no mention of exactly where Linwood had gone. She did not need to. Both women knew that there was a matchmaking ball at Almack’s tonight and that Linwood would be there with Razeby.
‘Is something wrong?’ There was a look of concern on Venetia’s face that made Alice feel guilty.
‘Nothing,’ Alice lied. ‘I just fancied a chat, that’s all.’
‘Come on through. A chat sounds much more inviting than dealing with a pile of business letters.’ Venetia ordered a tray of tea with crumpets and jam.
The drawing room was cosy, the curtains drawn against the darkness outside. They drank the tea and ate the crumpets, even though Alice was not one bit hungry. The scene reminded her too much of the dark winter nights when she and Razeby had toasted crumpets by the fire and spread thick butter on them to melt and drip down their chins and all over their fingers as they snuggled together beneath a blanket. She pushed the memory away.
They talked of the theatre, of how much Venetia missed it, of the current plays, of Kemble and people they knew in common—indulging in a little gossip and laughing together.
‘Talking of gossip,’ Alice said and it sounded a little contrived even to her own ears, ‘I was wondering…’ She hesitated, then, taking a breath, asked the question that she had come here to ask. ‘Have you heard any rumours concerning Razeby?’
‘What kind of rumours?’
‘About Hart Street.’ Alice swallowed. ‘It seems he’s kept the house on.’
‘I had not heard.’
Alice looked at her friend, wondering if she was telling the truth, or just sparing her feelings.
‘I am sure if it is true there is a perfectly good explanation behind it.’
‘It’s true all right,’ Alice muttered and then blushed when she realised just how much that reply revealed.
Venetia did not question her on it. ‘Whatever Razeby’s reasons, I doubt very much they stretch to what the gossipmongers are saying.’
‘I thought you hadn’t heard the gossipmongers saying anything about him.’
‘And neither I have, Alice. But I can well imagine.’ Venetia raised an eyebrow. ‘I know what you are thinking.’
