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She felt a glimmer of hope. “You aren’t just B.S.-ing me? You mean that?”
“To use the words of Commander Parkinson, pilots and RIOs are in a marriage of sorts.” He looked her over nice and slow, deliberately testing her reaction. She frowned. “I wouldn’t mind being ‘married’ to you. And I’m not such a bad catch, either.”
Maggie stared hard at Wes. The woman in her entertained the fleeting thought of him as a husband. No, he wasn’t a bad catch. And then Maggie bridled at her foolish thoughts. Where were they coming from, anyway? “Where’d you get your sense of humor?”
“The same place you got yours, Ms. Donovan. My mother’s an Italian woman of fire and passion. My father’s half Cherokee and half Irish.” His grin widened. “I got my mother’s skin color and hair. My father gave me the high cheekbones, blue eyes, his nose and mouth, not to mention my wonderful personality.”
“Passion, huh?” She had to tear her gaze from the lazy smile that pulled at his mouth—a mouth that any woman would be crazy not to want to kiss.
“Nothing wrong with a little passion, is there?”
Maggie’s eyes narrowed. Wes had her way off-balance. Normally she held her own with any arrogant jet jock. “Depends upon where the passion is emphasized, Bishop.” Yes, he was a man of passion, there was no doubt, and Maggie went hot and shaky inside. Was she going crazy? Was the stress finally getting to her? Never had she reacted so strongly and immediately to a man. It had to be her imagination, the stress of her job.
“Oh.” He gave her an innocent look. “Well, of course it would be a passion to be the best damn RIO you ever had while we work together in the cockpit to win Red Flag.”
Maggie sat back and her laugh came out full and rolling. With a shake of her head, she rested her elbows on the table again. “You always say the right thing, Bishop?”
His eyes danced with merriment. He liked her full-throated laughter. He liked a woman who could laugh at herself, as well as at the world around her. “I can’t blame my diplomacy on my Italian side because my mother has absolutely none.”
“And the Irish have no capacity for diplomacy.”
“That’s true. I guess the Cherokee blood from my father gave me the saving grace of knowing when to say something and when to keep my mouth shut.”
“I have a hard time believing any jet jock can keep his mouth shut.”
“You’re afraid I’ll try to override your decisions in the cockpit?”
Serious now, Maggie said, “Yes, to be honest about it. Hall tried it, and I wouldn’t stand for it.”
“I like a woman who values truth above everything else.”
Rolling her eyes, Maggie heard him chuckle at her reaction. It was a low, rumbling chuckle. There was absolutely nothing about Wes that rubbed her the wrong way. She was curious about him. No man had ever kept up with her lightning tongue the way he did.
“That wasn’t a line.”
“Sounded like one. I’ve heard that so many times in the bar over there, it’s not even funny.”
“Can’t blame those boys for trying to hit on you,” Wes told her congenially, sipping the coffee.
“‘Boys’?” Maggie blurted, because she wondered if Wes really was drawn to her as much as she was to him on strictly a personal level. No, he couldn’t be. Not ever. “And I suppose you’re a man compared to them? Oh, brother.”
“I’m twenty-nine—older than most of those youngsters in there hanging out at the bar with their arms around groupies. How old are you?”
His sudden seriousness rattled Maggie. “Twenty-five.”
“At least you’re out of diapers.”
“I was walking at nine months. What about you?”
“A year.”
“A little slow, aren’t you, Bishop?”
“Slow start, strong finish. I’m very good at crunch time, Ms. Donovan.”
In the cockpit, when they were searching for the “enemy” on radar, things could get very tense. Some RIOs got too excited and started yelling. That would upset a pilot who preferred a more laid-back, composed RIO. “I’m glad to hear that.”
“So, this is supposed to be an interview of sorts,” Wes said congenially, leaning forward, his elbows also on the table. “I have to size you up and vice versa. Parkinson feels we can work well together. He laid out the facts about this Red Flag assignment. It’s only for three months, and after that, I’ll be able to go back to my squadron out on the carrier. I consider this a three-month vacation.”
“Of what? Working with a woman combat-pilot? Or Red Flag?”
“Both.”
She probed him mercilessly. Somehow, Maggie had to get out of her emotional response to him and keep it strictly business. “Okay, I’m taking off the kid gloves with you, Bishop, because I don’t have any time left to waste. I’ve got to find a damn good RIO who can train fast, take orders without a lot of back talk, and help us win Red Flag for the Navy. I don’t like, nor do I tolerate, male chauvinist pigs. I believe a woman can do anything a man can—with some physical limitations, of course. When we’re in the air working together, my sex doesn’t enter into the equation, and yours doesn’t, either. We’re a team—not a man and woman working together. I’ve worked my butt off getting this far, and I carry more responsibility than I care to admit—for all women—as a result. I know I’m a symbol in this test Congress has seen fit to try out. If I screw up, I screw up for all women. A lot of combat pilots don’t like me and think that when the chips are down I can’t fly or fight just as well as they can.”
She halted and watched him. Wes sat relaxed, with all his attention on her. If what she’d said didn’t faze him, there was hope. Maggie saw no defensiveness or anger in his eyes. “I’ve been training Top Gun pilots here for almost two years. Out there over the desert in the restricted area where we fly, I’m the ‘aggressor.’ My whole reason for flying is to outwit, outfox and outmaneuver these hotshots and make them realize where they’re weak in their flying skills so they can improve and become better combat pilots.
“On the ground at debrief, we go over every dogfight sequence. Nine times out of ten, I win my confrontations in the air with these guys. They don’t like it because they’re getting beaten by a woman, and women aren’t supposed to be able to fly half as well as they can. My stats can’t be argued with, Bishop. That’s why Commander Parkinson chose me to head up the Navy Red Flag team. I need an RIO who wants to win just as badly as I do. I’m competitive, but not with anyone but myself. I don’t expect anything more of you than I do of myself. I’m not a screamer in the cockpit. I’d hope we can work smoothly in an adult way. I can’t stand childish pouting or games being played when everything’s on the line.”
Wes sat there for a long moment, digesting Maggie’s impassioned words. The waitress came and delivered her salad and his hamburger. He thanked her and worked at putting mustard and catsup on the burger. Maggie glanced up at him from time to time, running her fork disinterestedly around in the shrimp salad.
“I don’t have a problem with what you said.” Wes took a huge bite of his hamburger, watching Maggie’s instantaneous reaction. Her eyes widened enormously, and he tucked his smile away. He knew she’d thought he would challenge her brass-knuckled delivery of her expectations. “Matter of fact,” he added, picking up a french fry, “I totally agree with you.”
Her nostrils flared and she pushed the salad aside, zeroing in on him. “Okay, what do you expect out of this?”
Her intensity pleased him. A damn good combat pilot had the ability to focus sharply on what was ahead of him—or her, in this case—blocking out everything else. “I kinda like the idea of working with a woman. Never have before, and that intrigues me.”
Her heart banged violently against her ribs. Was he honestly drawn to her? No. Every other male she’d worked with over the years had been all business, regarding her not as a woman, but as a pilot—a genderless person who sat in the front seat flying the plane. Wes’s hooded look in her direction unstrung Maggie. “Look, if you’re talking—”
“Whoa, let me finish.” He held up his hand. Then, teasingly, he asked, “Do you always interrupt people?”
Chastised, Maggie nodded. “Yeah, one of my bad habits. Go ahead.”
“I like that: you can admit your faults.”
“I didn’t apologize, Bishop.”
“I didn’t expect you to. But most male pilots wouldn’t have admitted anything, either.”
“So?” Maggie challenged.
“So, I like your ability to be a human being, not a tin god in the cockpit like those boys think they are.”
Her smile was rueful. Most fighter pilots were in their early or middle twenties. With Wes being an “old man” at twenty-nine, she imagined they did look like boys to him. “I like your maturity already.”
“Good.” He pushed the plate of french fries toward her. “Here, have some.”
Wrinkling her nose, Maggie said, “No, thanks. They’re pure grease.”
“Wouldn’t hurt you to put on a little weight, you know.”
His personal comment shook her. Bishop had the unnerving ability to get her trust, and when she gave it to him, even something as innocent and caring as his observation about her lack of weight made her defensive. Maggie didn’t have time to ask herself why she reacted so strongly.
“Let’s stick to the conversation at hand,” she told him. “What do you expect from me?”
“What I’m getting right now—your honesty and how you see things going down. I don’t sit in the back seat with a jerk for a pilot, either. My life’s in your hands. I don’t have a second set of controls in case you screw up. All I can do is sit back there and pray you can get us out of trouble flight-wise.”
“I’ve never lost a plane.”
“Not even close?”
“No.”
“You been in any flat spins?”
“Yeah.”
“How many?”
Maggie knew flat spins were the most dangerous flight situation a plane could find itself in. Fifty percent of the time, the aircraft was lost because the pilot was unable to pull it out of the flat spin. She held Bishop’s unrelenting gaze, liking his clear, crystalline blue eyes. “In training, six times. In combat practice, three times because jet-wash compression stalled my engines. I was lucky to be at high enough altitudes to pull it out and not have to eject.”
Bishop nodded. “Truthful to a fault, aren’t you? Not many pilots would tell me about those last three.”
“Honesty is something I live my life by.”
“Good,” Wes praised. He was starting to really like Maggie Donovan.
“Look, I’ve had my trial by fire. I’ve had instructors who wanted to wash me out from the time I stepped foot into naval aviation. Not only did I learn how to fly, but I had to outfly them just to pass the course. I had to fly twenty times better than any male candidate.” She held up her long, slim hands. “I’ve got ‘hands,’ Bishop. Flying’s in my blood. I breathe, eat and sleep it. It’s my life. I don’t ever want anything other than what I’ve got now. I like where I’m at, and I like myself. I respect what I’ve got, and yes, I’m always pushing the envelope on myself.”
“Nothing else interests you?” Wes asked suddenly, changing tactics.
“What else is there except flying?” Maggie asked in surprise, a defensive tone in her voice.
“I don’t know,” Wes murmured, chewing on another french fry. “How about a homelife? A husband? Maybe some kids down the line?’
She scowled.
“That wasn’t a chauvinistic comment.”
“Sounded like it.”
“That’s negative. So, what else interests you in life, Maggie Donovan?” Had she deliberately sidestepped her marital status? There was no wedding ring on her left hand, but pilots weren’t allowed to wear jewelry when they flew, anyway. He smiled slightly when he saw her cheeks flush a bright pink. Despite her focus and assuredness about what she wanted out of life, Maggie still was very much a human being with obvious weaknesses and strengths. That made her endearing. His heart squeezed in his chest as he thought about reaching over and caressing that fiery cheek with his hand.
Shifting uncomfortably in her chair, Maggie shrugged. “I don’t know.” Part of her was pleased that he showed personal interest in her—at the same time, it was unsettling as hell.
“Come on, you can do better than that.”
She crossed her arms over her breasts and studied her feet, which she shoved out beside the table. Her flight boots were like polished ebony mirrors. No, Wes was just good with people, Maggie decided. If she thought for a second that he was genuinely interested in her as a woman, she might have opened up on a more personal level.
With a sigh, Wes wiped his mouth with the white napkin. Maggie wasn’t going to cooperate. Obviously she felt he was overstepping his bounds, putting them on a personal basis. Well, wasn’t he? He ignored the question and the answer. “Tell me where you live.”
“It’s an apartment,” Maggie said finally, and then added when he probed her with those blue eyes, “In a large complex.”
“Large? Small?”
Petulantly, she shot him a glance. “I live over in Poway near my two friends, Molly and Dana. They’re officers stationed here at Miramar with me. My apartment has two bedrooms and I transit from there, using it to sleep after flying.”
“Any pets?”
“Of course not. How could I? I get over to Miramar at 0600 and usually don’t leave until 2100.”
“Whew! Those are long hours.”
“When you’re a woman, you’ve got to put that kind of time into your career.”
“Why?”
“Because a woman can’t make it in the military just being good. I have to stand out.”
Wes couldn’t disagree. “Bingo. So, you don’t really have any life except flying.”
“That’s right. How about yourself?” Maggie jerked in a breath. What was she doing? Now she was getting personal and treading on thin ice. Still, he interested her as no other man ever had.
“I live over in Poway, too. Right now I’m renting an apartment at Flamingo Corners.”
“Yeah, that’s about two miles away from our apartment facility. I’m at Casa de la Madre Tierra.”
“I’ve driven by it. Nice place.”
“So, does your life revolve around flying?”
“Yes and no. When I’m home, I like it. When I’m stationed on a carrier or an air station, I like to fly. I don’t know whether Commander Parkinson told you or not, but I’m recently divorced. My wife’s remarried to a guy in Ohio. We have a little girl, Annie. She’s five years old and the cutest thing you’ve ever seen.” His voice grew soft with feeling. “I love Annie with my life.” And then he looked over at her. “What about you?” He wanted to know if she was married or not. “Any family?”
A huge part of Maggie sagged in relief to find out Wes wasn’t married. “I’m single, but my family lives in Sacramento, and we’re close. I’m a first-generation American. My father and mother came over from Dublin, Ireland, forty-five years ago with very little money and a desire to live in America. Dad got a job as an Amtrak engineer, and he’s still doing it to this day. My mom raised four Irish-hellion girls.”
“You the oldest?”
“No, the youngest.”
“Ah, the baby of the family.”
She laughed. “It doesn’t mean a thing, Bishop, so forget the psychological ramifications.”
“I was firstborn and look at me: a natural leader, goal oriented and highly successful at what I do.”
“Are you happy, though?”
Wes gave her a strange look. There was more than just flash to Maggie. “I like a balance to my life between job and home. No apologies that I like to sit down with a beer and watch a football game on TV while my wife makes me a great meal.”
