The Midwife's New-found Family

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He had to tell her to go. That he’d be fine. That it would be better for her if she left. He opened his eyes and turned to face her.

She wasn’t there. The room was empty and the juice stood unopened on the sea chest.

He walked through to the veranda. She wasn’t there either, and he glanced down the stairs. The unmistakable sound of her vehicle door as it closed echoed the emptiness he hadn’t realised she’d leave behind. He’d always had that emptiness but it hadn’t mattered before. Could he be alone again?

Suddenly he didn’t think he could.

The diesel engine came to life and he had no control over his feet as they turned to the stairs. The next thing he knew he was beside her Jeep window.

‘Be with me,’ he said, and he saw the moment she began to think about accepting and he swore to himself he wouldn’t let her down. Please, don’t let me hurt her, he prayed, and he couldn’t believe that he’d dared to dream again.

His fingers reached through the window of their own accord and turned the key. The engine died.

Silence surrounded them, except for the waves on the shore and the gulls overhead…and the pounding in his heart.

She looked at him with those glorious witch’s eyes of hers and he could feel himself drowning, which was ironic considering what the day had held.

He held out his hand. ‘Come with me. Please.’

She saw there in his eyes the quiet hope that made her wish to be as daring as he was, as positive as he was, that this wouldn’t end in futile regrets.

Misty raised her hand towards his and then stopped.

What was she doing? She knew what would happen if she went back into the house with him. She wanted it to happen but she needed to think sensibly about this. Safely and non-emotionally after one of the most emotional days she’d ever had. And realized she was terrified. This interlude would end. She longed to burn boats, jump off the cliff to uncertainty and yet they had barely talked. Just felt…and kissed.

It was an impossible dream. They both had lives, and commitments, and uncertainties, and they’d met this once by the merest chance. She needed to leave before he imprinted himself further on her soul.

She lifted her fingers to the ignition and the metal felt cold and hard as she turned the key. ‘I don’t think so. Take care, Ben.’ She glanced once more at his face and the expression suddenly stripped from his features as if someone had turned off a light.

Right decision, she thought, and forced herself to drive away.

Right decision, Ben thought. Sensible girl.

She was gone and Ben lay alone in his big bed with just the scent of her skin on the pillow beside him and emptiness in his heart as he said goodbye. Sensible, sensible girl.

The sound of a ringtone filled the room.

His phone.

His breath shuddered in his throat as he sat up, and he shook his head at the person on the other end. ‘I’ll come,’ he said into his phone.

He looked out the window at the rolling ocean and his chin lifted. Impossible dream, he thought, uncannily echoing Misty as he shut his phone and reached for his shirt.

CHAPTER FOUR

MISTY didn’t remember much about the drive to Lyrebird Lake. The memory of Ben in her rear-view mirror watching her go just seemed to get bigger the further away from Ben that she drove. Had she missed the opportunity to experience life and love with someone who could have been the one man for her?

She’d never be sure and he didn’t even know her last name.

She stayed the night at a motel, she couldn’t even remember which town, and it had been hard to get up that morning and drive further west. But now, as she drove through the wide and tree-lined streets of Lyrebird Lake, her spirits lifted.

It was time for her to start her new life. Just like Ben needed to. She hoped he would find happiness.

The car turned into the driveway of her brother’s house and she sighed and reached over to turn off the engine. She’d done the right thing. She had.

‘Welcome to Lyrebird Lake.’ Misty heard the words and accepted the hug Montana offered. She ignored the feeling that her heart would probably never speak to her again.

It was wonderful to see her best friend again but there was no doubt the excitement of her new home had dimmed and she hoped Montana didn’t notice the effort it took to smile.

‘I bet you didn’t see this in our future.’ Andy laughed as he also hugged her.

Her big brother’s arms were just what she needed to make her feel strong again. ‘There were a lot of things I didn’t see,’ she said, and tried to smile.

Andy put her away from him and frowned at her searchingly. ‘What’s happened to you?’

‘Shh, love,’ Montana said, and Misty watched with wry amusement as her friend rested her hand on Andy’s arm. ‘Let your sister get her breath. We have plenty of time.’

‘Assuming the phone doesn’t ring and I don’t get called out,’ Andy muttered, as he carried Misty’s bags into their house and she followed with her arm hooked in Montana’s.

They shared a glance and smiled. Men, the look said, but they both loved his care. ‘He’s still looking for a locum to share the workload because he won’t let me out of his sight until I have this baby,’ Montana whispered.