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Not Danny, but rather the stranger, Daniel, lounged in the doorway, rumpled flight suit making her long to swipe her hands over the wrinkles.
The muscles.
Silently he stared back at her. No doubt churning the whole mess around in his analytical brain, searching for a way to make sense of it all. Then opting to cover his confusion with a joke.
She didn’t want that joke. She wanted a piece of the past to replace the awkwardness. “Remember the time you painted your face and decked out in cammo to see if you could break into the Savannah River Site plant?”
The C-17 droned for what seemed like an hour, probably closer to seconds, before a slow smile dimpled Danny’s cheeks. He canted closer to be heard over the plane’s roar, the privacy curtain swaying closed behind him. “Well, hell, Mary Elise, I was doing a public service. Anyplace constructing and testing the parts for nukes needed to have stronger security if a twelve-year-old could bust inside.”
“No respect for danger, ever.” Her eyes fell to rest on the children, checking the steady rise and fall of their chests, any snuffling breaths masked by the rumble of engines vibrating the plane. With each exhalation she thanked God for their sturdy little bodies, so resilient.
Five miscarriages had taught her well how fragile young life could be.
Although, Danny had seemed to possess a godlike invincibility in his youth. Or perhaps that had more to do with how he’d never groused over a tagalong tired of tiptoeing so as not to disrupt her bed-bound mother. “You wouldn’t have been caught if I hadn’t snuck along.”
“You always did worry too much.” His shoulders filled the portal and her eyes.
Mary Elise welcomed the escape into happier times with smaller childhood worries. “You could have left me behind when the alarm went off. I wouldn’t have ratted you out.”
“Which is why I couldn’t leave you.”
But he had. Eventually. After her miscarriage, she’d seen the caged look in his eyes, the need to run once he was free of obligations. She hadn’t expected they would still get married—right away. She understood his need to finish school. But she had expected something more from him after all the times they’d made love following her pregnancy test. They’d moved past being friends, she’d thought. His need to escape her had hurt.
She’d hurt him right back. God, had she ever let her temper have its way with her as she’d sent him away.
Life had since taught her to contain more volatile emotions. “You always did have a soft spot for causes.”
One hint of what waited for her back in Savannah and he would grease up in cammo to take on her ex in some commando raid. All the more reason to park her butt back in Rubistan. She’d quickly discovered how little help the police could be against Kent with his wealth and power. Even her parents hadn’t believed her, instead buying into Kent’s less messy explanation of postpartum depression.
The icy press of an assassin’s gun to her temple had not been a delusion. Only quick reflexes and an escape to Rubistan had saved her life.
Danny sank into the seat beside her. “I assume you were the one who nudged the economic attaché to call me.”
His firm thigh molded to hers. She nodded, swallowed. “Uh-huh.”
“Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.” She pushed the words free from her cotton mouth.
He stretched his leg in front of him, rubbing a too long caress against her. “How the hell did you end up in that box in place of the nanny? Or are you their new nanny?”
She suppressed the urge to inch away. Not that she could go anywhere without slamming the wall. “I work at the embassy school, teaching English. I’m just close to the boys since they attend the school.”
“How did you go from being editor of a newspaper in Savannah to teaching in Rubistan?”
“Excuse me?” she bristled. “I don’t consider it a step down, thank you very much.”
He elbowed her gently. “Cool your jets, ’Lise. I was talking basic geography.”
She measured her words. “I wanted a change of scenery. Your father helped.”
“My father.” Muscles bunched visibly under the creased flight suit.
He’d never allowed himself to vent or rant, always taking on everyone else’s battles and ignoring his own. Who would be there to help him through the grief over his father’s death?
The Kathleen person he’d called for?
She couldn’t begrudge him that. Especially when the boys would need a woman’s influence more than ever. They also needed their brother steady. Daniel’s hero worship for his father had died in a rift they’d never bridged, which would only make the coming weeks tougher for him.
Mary Elise let herself touch him. Just his arm. Lightly. “I’m so sorry.”
He didn’t answer for an extended moment before he stood to leave, pulling away emotionally as well as physically. As she’d known he would. He had always been more at ease with simple. Uncomplicated.
Daniel paused in the doorway. “I’ll take you up front to patch through a call.”
She struggled to understand his words in the wake of the liquid heat pulsing through her veins. “Patch a call?”
“Home.”
She frowned. “My apartment’s empty right now.”
“I meant Savannah. I don’t have your parents’ number or I’d do it for you. Unless there’s someone else you’d prefer to contact.” His eyes chilled. “Like your husband.”
“My ex-husband.”
“Right.” His emotionless gaze pinned her. “Do you want me to call Kent McRae?”
Hearing her ex-husband’s name sent a tremor through her. Followed by a completely different shiver over realizing Daniel had cared enough to track her transition from Mary Elise Fitzgerald to Mary Elise McRae. From a single college journalism student to the wife of a major newspaper publisher.
And who was she now?
Alive. Just how she damn well intended to stay. “I’m not planning to go home. I’ll turn right around and return to Rubistan and my job.”
“Think again.” Familiar chocolate-brown eyes hardened into the different, darker Danny.
What in the world had he seen and experienced during their years apart? “Excuse me?”
“We may have escaped Rubistan without being searched. But they knew. Once you and the boys come up missing at the same time, it won’t take longer than a puff on that guard’s cigar to link you to this. If you go back, you’ll be jailed—or dead—an hour after you touch down.”
All those thousands of emotional paper cuts flamed to life in full-blown dread. The implications of the past hours swelled into certainty. She hated the helplessness. Most of all hated that she would have to turn to Danny for answers after a year of hoping never to need anyone again. “What happens after we land in Charleston?”
“What kind of ID do you have?”
“I didn’t have time to grab my purse before I got in the crate,” she answered automatically, pushing the words through numb lips. “But I always keep my passport on me.”
“Good, then you’ll be processed through the base. In the meantime, you have to stay somewhere. With your parents or me?” Daniel leaned closer, bay rum obliterating hydraulic fluid in a sensory tidal wave. “It’s your call to make, and quite frankly, I need you more right now.”
Chapter 3
“You need me?” Mary Elise enunciated slowly.
Daniel watched her brows pull together over confused green eyes. He wasn’t feeling much steadier himself.
He braced a hand against the bulkhead and planted both boots for balance. Where the hell had his words come from?
There were probably a hundred different services he could call to help at a moment’s notice. He knew at least a dozen women who would enjoy nothing more than mothering the boys as a way to entice him into being “emotionally available.”
And none of them were Mary Elise.
He tried to tell himself his motives for keeping her close were rooted in protectiveness. That long-ago connection had kicked into overdrive in the past few minutes. Right about the time he’d mentioned calling Savannah.
He didn’t consider himself an intuitive guy, a fact reinforced by his double-digit tally of breakups. But even he could sense something was wrong here. Her edginess should be easing with every mile they put between themselves and Rubistan.
Should be.
But wasn’t.
Eleven years of distance between them didn’t matter. He owed this woman, and until her frown smoothed, he wouldn’t back off.
He was doing this for her. And for the boys. Not because he wanted to find out if the freckles dotting her smooth creamy skin had faded with age. “I need your help with stuff like asthma meds and nut allergies. At this rate, the boys won’t make it through the week with me.”
Mary Elise straightened in her seat. Daniel looked deeper into those lush green eyes that had once been so expressive and wondered when she’d learned to close herself off.
“I’ll make a list.” Her cool efficiency almost covered her underlying edginess. Almost. “Starting with Austin’s EpiPen.”
“Eppie what?”
“Epinephrine injection pen. Medicine in case he accidentally eats something with nuts or peanut oil or—”
“Stop.” He made a giant T with his hands. “Time out. You can compile lists all day long and it won’t change the fact that I have no experience with kids. I need help settling the boys.”
She pleated her pants between fidgety fingers. “You haven’t made any accommodations for them?”
“Hell, Mary Elise, I was a little busy planning how to smuggle them out of Rubistan without getting our asses shot off.”
“Oh.”
“Apology accepted.”
Her hands flattened on her trim thighs, a smile playing with her lips. “Uh, sorry?”
He winked. “No problem.”
A smile and a wink linked them more than all his earlier speeches.
The deafening din of engines and the closed curtain offered a bubble of privacy and protection from being overheard. Not that he had thoughts of unrolling the past with her. He hadn’t been much for emotional sharefests then, either.
Besides, he didn’t want to trek back to the past. Too many memories waited there of a time he’d been less of a man. Too much his father’s son—seducing an innocent, betraying a friendship. His father’s wedding had marked a time of rotten decisions for everyone.
Halfway into a bottle of champagne, Daniel had found himself watching nineteen-year-old Mary Elise with new eyes. Another shared bottle and some consolation later, Daniel had found himself looking at all of Mary Elise with new eyes.
“What happens now?”
She’d asked him that then as well. What do I do now, Danny?
God help him, he’d shown her.
He’d been so pissed at his old man for going the whole trophy wife route. He didn’t deal well with emotions on a good day, and a bad day had a way of playing hell with a man’s self-control. Today marked another one of his worst days on record, but he wouldn’t screw up this time. No matter how enticing the image of draping that red hair over his chest. Mary Elise over him.
Mary Elise sighing.
“Danny?” She flung her hair over her shoulder in a crimson waterfall. “If you haven’t made arrangements for the boys, what do you propose we do once we land?”
“Hell if I know.” Then or now. “And it doesn’t look as if Trey knows what to do about me any more than I know what to do about him.”
Her brows pulled tighter, deepening her perpetual frown. “You aren’t going to give them up. Are you?”
“No. Absolutely not. I’ll figure it out. Soon.”
“Once you’re through worrying about our asses.”
He did not want to think about her ass. “Right.” Daniel scrubbed a hand over his bristly chin. “I have leave time built up. I’ll take it now until the boys and I can work out a plan. But I sure would appreciate your help for the next few days. Since you’re an American Express card short of being able to check into a Motel 6, I’m thinking we can make a trade.”
She shot him a disapproving look that had likely commanded boardrooms, then later classrooms. “Or you could do the gentlemanly thing and loan me a couple hundred bucks.”
Already he could feel her slipping away. Damn it, the boys needed her. And while he might not be Captain Communication, he wasn’t walking away without finding out what had her forehead trenched deeper than a fresh-plowed field. “Sure, I could loan you the money.”
“But you don’t want to.” Mary Elise willed away the rogue twinge of excitement. She wanted to say her goodbyes. Right? Danny had been a generous friend. An exciting lover.
And a lousy boyfriend.
Once that boyfriend/lover line had been crossed, recapturing the friendship became impossible. She knew keeping her distance now lent more credence to her feelings all those years ago. But her heart bore too many scars to risk opening it again.
All the same, guilt nudged her to say, “The boys do need me.”
“Yes, ma’am, they do,” he continued with a sincerity too reminiscent of past times conning his way out of trouble. “This is about more than asthma and EpiPens. Trey and Austin are alone and scared. They don’t know me from Adam.”
She didn’t buy into the Danny-perfected con tones for even a minute, but his logic had merit. Turning away from Austin crying in the crate hadn’t been an option. Why did she think now would be any different?
Scar tissue also made a person tough. She would hang on to that for the next few days with Danny and the boys. “Okay, okay! I actually agreed two arguments ago. You always were persistent.”
“And you were always too nice.”
Watching the dimples creep into Daniel’s cheeks and past her defenses, Mary Elise decided “nice” didn’t factor anywhere into her swirl of emotions. “Nice? Careful, Danny, or I’ll change my mind.”
“So you’ll help me for a couple of weeks?”
“A couple of days.” Hopefully enough time to formulate a new plan.
