Maggie Shayne.

Return of the Light

Return of the Light
Maggie Shayne



Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten


The candles were the only light in the room. They glowed from every quarter, painting the faces of the men and women in a golden light. Incense smoke hung in the air; sandalwood and myrrh, mingling with the seasonal aromas of pine boughs, holly and ivy.

In the center, she stood with her arms upward and outward, head tipped back as the High Priest knelt before her, completing the fivefold kiss by pressing his lips briefly to her feet.

She opened her eyes and spoke to the gathered assembly, spoke the words of the Goddess according to Leland, who said they were given to him by an Italian Witch named Maddalena more than a hundred years ago; and to Gardner, who adapted them from Leland, adding his own touches; and to Valiente, who made them beautiful and must have been truly inspired; and according to Dori, Lady Starfire, who had made them her own.

Hear my words and know me! I shall be called by myriad names. I am the Maiden of the Moon, I am Mother Earth. And I am the Crone, who holds the keys of life and rest. I am an unknowable mystery and yet known to every soul!

She lowered her arms to her sides, moving her most penetrating gaze from one face to the next, meeting their eyes so they would feel touched by the Goddess.

Hear my words and know me! Whenever the full moon rises, come to me. Gather in some secret place, such as this

Not much of a secret place, though. Not really. Her penthouse apartment in Manhattan. Still, it served the purpose.

And adore the spirit of your Goddess, who is Queen of all Witches.

Speaking the words of the Goddess felt a little phony tonight. Something was wrong; something was off. Dori wasnt sure what. And yet she felt that spirit wasnt speaking through her, hadnt in quite some time now. The Charge had become rote, recited from memory. And while those standing in a circle around her seemed awestruck and mesmerized when she met their eyes with her own, she didnt feel the magic.

I shall teach you the mysteries of Nature, and the ways of Magick!

Not much nature, here. Not in the apartment, aside from her plants and her cat.

All that is hidden shall be revealed. Even the secluded soul shall be pierced by my light.

She didnt really teach anymore. The priestesses she had trained did that, ran their own covens, taught bright-eyed beginners, organized social functions and rituals and performed weddings and funerals. But in this particular branch of the Pagan community, she was queen. The ranking elder, the most honored Witch in town, and a coveted special guest at many a Pagan function.

She was even respected and a bit famous in non-Pagan circles, having successfully worked with the police on several missing persons cases. The press loved that kind of crap. It was a damn good thing she saw no reason to be secretive about her beliefs. They wouldnt have stayed secret long.

I do not demand sacrifice, for I am the mother of all living!

She moved around the circle now, speaking to each individual.

Create and heal! she told one. Be strong yet gentle, she said, touching the cheek of another. Be noble yet reverent, she instructed a third. Bring forth and replenish.

She returned to the center. And just as the moon moves through her cycles, waxing and waning and beginning again, and just as seasons flow from birth in the spring to life in the summer, to aging in the fall and apparent death in the winter, so shall youin both worlds.

And you will say these wordsI will love all, and harm none. For the free will of all, and with harm to none, as I will, it now is done. So mote it be!

And with that, she moved to the seat of honor that had been placed in the North quarter of the circle and sat down to enjoy the rest of the Winter Solstice Ritual the priestesses had planned. Shed done her part, ensuring those gathered that the Goddess was indeed present to join in their rites. She sat and watched the elaborate procedure unfold. There were songs to celebrate the return of the light. There was a dance performed in its honor. The freestanding silver candelabras she had bought for ritual use really made it special, she thought. Each held seven candlesshed spent a fortune on them, but it was well worth it. Some of the less-experienced priestesses still had to read their parts, and the light was extremely helpful.

The entire group began the circle dance, which usually generated such a rush of energy that Dori tingled from head to toe. Tonight it felt off.

Something was up this Winter Solstice. All week long, shed been thinking that once again, shed come through the darkest season without experiencing any real darkness at all. Her life was perfect. Tonight, though, she felt the sword of Damocles dangling overhead. Every nerve in her body was tensed as if expecting a blow.

She broke her train of thought long enough to wince when one enthusiastic dancer bumped into the altar. That was a Tiffany chalice, for Goddesss sake!

Luckily it didnt fall off, just wobbled dangerously.

The dancing grew faster and faster, until the High Priestess shouted, Release! Then all the dancers in the room went still, relaxing their bodies to let go of the energy they had raised, while the woman in the center lifted her hands to send the magic off to its goal. Its goal tonight was to bring back the light, to help it grow within every one of them and help them through their own dark times, whatever they might be.

The ritual was finished and the circle taken up as Dori rose again, lifting her arms in silence to bid farewell to the Goddess, then lowering them and crossing them over her chest, bowing her head.

As those gathered rushed into the next room, where snacks were piled high and wine was chilling, she quickly cleared her altar, lovingly wrapping each tool in silk cloth and tucking each back into the trunk in the corner. The Tiffany chalice. The crystal-tipped wand shed had custom-made by an artisan in Greenwich Village. The statues of Pan and Diana, replicas of ancient artifacts. Shed bought them in the gift shop at the Met. The dagger, with its double-edged silver blade and onyx handle, slid neatly into its sheath. It was worth a small fortune. She was especially careful with the giant quartz crystal ball on its elaborate pewter stand. She rarely had time to use the thing, but it looked great on the altar.

She didnt relax until every item was safely tucked in the trunk and she had turned the key.

Thanks so much for letting us use your flat, Lady Starfire. The voice was Sarascould be no one elses, with that beautiful accent. She was new in town, but very highly regarded in the community. Had come straight from England with the equivalent of a Witchs pedigreea long and distinguished lineage.

When Dori turned to face her, it was to see her dropping into a curtsy, her head bent low.

Were not so formal, here, Sara. Rituals over. Its okay to call me Dori. And Ive never been all that comfortable with the genuflecting. She glanced into the next room, where there had to be at least forty people eating, talking, laughing. Someone had put John Denver and the Muppets on the stereowhich was sure to start an earnest debate about playing Christmas music at a Solstice party among those not yet far enough along their path to realize they were all celebrating the same thing.

Dori almost cried when she thought of the potential crumbs and spills on her carpet.

I simply couldnt believe we had so many who wished to attend! Sara went on. Our open circles have only brought in eighteen to twenty people, up to now.

I know.

There just wasnt room in the back room of my shop, she went on. And I couldnt bear to turn anyone away.

I know, Dori said again, fixing the beautiful blond Witch with a serious look. Its okay. Really, Sara.

The other woman sighed in relief. A little too much relief. So Dori quickly added, And next time, youll know in advance that you need a bigger place, so youll have time to make other arrangements.

Right. She nodded hard. Absolutely. And well leave the place spotless, I swear.

The cleaning service will take care of that.

Sara smiled. Will you join us for the refreshments?

Dori glanced into the dining room, at the smiling faces, young and old, dark and light, round and narrow. She didnt want to join them. They tended to fawn and fuss and treat her like a celebrity and she wasnt up to it tonight. Something was terribly wrong. But if she didnt take part, theyd be disappointed, so she lifted her chin and walked into the dining room.

Several of those present bowed in her direction when she did. One quickly vacated a chair and another brought her a glass of wine.

Dori sighed, sipped her wine, smiled a little. Every High Priestess in this room had been taught by her. Every coven had sprung from the little one that had begun around her coffee table when shed first come to Manhattan from tiny Crescent Cove, Vermont, ten years ago. Shed really done a good thing here, she thought. Her Witches were busy, politically active, constantly working to educate the public about the Craft and debunk the widespread misconceptions that caused so many Wiccans so many problems. They provided services for the Pagan community, raised money for the homeless, organized Pagan Pride events and voter-registration drives.

Yes. Shed done a good thing. And the Goddess had rewarded her. Her life was perfect. And she was sitting here in her penthouse apartment, petrified, waiting for the ax to fall.

In the morning, it did.

She showered and dressed for success in a burgundy Pierre Atonia suitslender skirt, a little on the short side, tailored jacket that accentuated her narrow waist, matching designer pumps. She left a brief note for the cleaning service, asking them to spend extra time on the dining room carpet, and she took a taxi to work just as she always did.

But when she stepped out of the elevator into the reception area of Mason-Walcott Publishing, a grim-faced man was waiting for her.

Ms. Stewart? he asked. He didnt smile.

He was tall and dressed all in black. His face was pale and bony, his eyes deep set. He could have been the pop-culture version of the Grim Reaper, she thought. And a shiver went up her spine. Everything in her told her this was it, the thing shed been feeling in the air.


Im Martin Black, VP in charge of personnel.

She lifted her eyebrows. Of Mason-Walcott?

Of Beckenridge.

Beckenridge. One of the largest publishers in the bizand notoriously right-wing conservative.

And youre here because?

Because Beckenridge just took over Mason-Walcott.

She looked past him to see if co-workers were lurking, ready to laugh at her falling for such a lame joke. But her stomach had clenched into a knot that told her this was for real.

Im afraid werenot going to be needing you.

She blinked twice, and for the first time she noticed the big cardboard box on the counter that separated the receptionists desk from the rest of the area. It held her belongings.

She shifted her gaze back to Mr. Blacks. Youre firing me?

Technically, were laying you off. We took the liberty of clearing out your office. Everythings right here.

She nearly gaped. May I ask the reason?

He shrugged. Does it matter?

Of course it matters. Im not even convinced its legal!

Oh, its legal. The position of editorial executive director is being eliminated, to be sure its legal.

But thats not the real reason, is it?

He shrugged. Would you really want to stay, Ms. Stewart? Our titles fly in the face of everything you so openly believe in and practice. He handed her an envelope. A months severance. Its more than generous. Good luck, Ms. Stewart.

He scooped her box of belongings off the counter and shoved it into her chest, leaving her no choice but to take it or let it fall to the floor. Then he clasped her elbow, turning her toward the elevator, and reached past her to push the button.

You cant do this, she said. Useless, but all she could come up with.

I just did. The doors opened. He nudged her inside and stood there until they closed again. Goodbye, Ms. Stewart. Have a nice life.

Chapter One

A few days before Winter Solstice, one year later

Hey, Dori, hon, you gonna get over here and fill this coffee cup, or do I have to climb over the counter and get it myself?

Keep your pants on, Bill. Dori set down the tray full of dirty plates, grabbed the coffeepot and hurried to fill the mans cup. Morts Diner, in Crescent Cove, Vermont, was decorated to the max for the holiday season: wreath on the door, fake green garland looped everywhere, cinnamon-and candy-cane-scented candles burned and holiday music played constantly.

Jason was there, sitting in a corner booth, enjoying a sandwich and a cup of cocoa. Watching her. He was there a lot, more often than seemed reasonable. Then again, she didnt suppose there was much work for the police chief of a small, quiet town like this. Hell, maybe it was vain of her to think he came around just to watch her waiting tables. It had been more than a decade, after all, since hed held her. Since hed kissed her.

There was nothing between them anymore.

Dori sighed in relief when she heard the jingle bells over the door and saw Sally walk in. After setting the coffeepot back on the burner, she reached behind her to tug her apron loose as Sally came behind the counter.

Youre an hour late. Again, Dori said.

Im sorry, Doreen. Little Amy had a doctors appointment and I only just got her back home. She pulled her apron around her and tied it in place.

There was always a reason. Always. And it usually had to do with the womans small army of children. Whatever. Im out of here. Dori tossed the apron down, snatched her coat off the rack and went into the back room to collect her sorry excuse for a paycheck from the owner.

But she paused near the door as she heard Bill say, Damn. Youd think shed have come down off that high horse by now, wouldnt you?

Dori stood still, listening.

It was a hard fall, Sally said. Going from a penthouse in Manhattan to her uncles log cabin on the lakeshore. From a high-powered job to slinging hash for lousy tippers like you. Hell, she probably used to earn more in a month than shes made here inhow long has it been now since Dori came running back here with her tail between her legs?

Bill didnt answer. The grown-up version of the boy whod been her summer fling as a teenagerfor several consecutive summersanswered, instead. Eleven months, three weeks and two days.

Think shes gonna stay for good this time? Bill asked.

Wish to hell I knew, Jason said. And there was something in his voicesomething kind of pained.

Dori moved to the swinging door, peered through its porthole-shaped glass. He was still at his table in the corner, staring at the sheet of pink notebook paper he held in one hand. It was old, had been folded so long the creases were darker colored. It looked worn thin. As she stared at it, wondering, he lifted his gaze, and Dori backed away from the door.

She belongs here, Sally was saying. Dont you worry, Jason. Shes gonna realize that by-and-by.

Now, why was she saying that? As if Jason had any stake in what Dori decided to do with her life. Shed broken things off with Jason ten years agoin a Dear John letter.

Written on pink notebook paper.

Something knotted in her belly. She told herself she was being ridiculous, snatched her paycheck from the slotted mail holder on the wall and decided to go out the back door rather than walking through the front of the diner again.

Tugging the hood of her parka up over her head, she trudged through the snow to her car and rolled her eyes when she realized she would have to spend a few minutes brushing snow off it before she could go anywhere.

She missed her Mercedesthe remote starter, the heated leather seats, the warm, snow-free garage where she used to keep it parked. But she pulled her mittens from her pockets and thrust her hands into them. She opened the door to start the engine, grabbed the snow brush and slammed the door hard enough to knock some of the snow off. Then she began brushing. A thin layer of ice lay beneath the two inches of snow, and that required scraping. She hated scraping ice.

An old woman walked past the parking lot, waved at her and called, Cold enough for you?

Plenty, Dori replied.

Ah, but cold means clear. Its done snowing. The stars are going to be beautiful tonight, the old woman said. And she continued on her way.

Fifteen minutes later, Dori had made a hole on the windshield just big enough to see where she was going, and she was heading out of Crescent Cove proper and toward Uncle Geralds cabin on the shore of Lake Champlain.

The lake was moody today, dark and choppy except in the spots where it was beginning to freeze over. She drove into the curving driveway, past the big wooden sign with the image of a green sea serpent and the words Champ Tours: $20.00. She made a mental note to take the sign down. Shed dry-docked the boat and closed up the souvenir shop two months ago. No point leaving the sign up all winter.

ChampLake Champlains answer to the Loch Ness Monsterhad been her uncles bread and butter for as long as she could remember. She used to come out here every summer as a teen and work for him as a tour guide, retelling the Champ legends until she knew them all by heart, taking people around the lake until she knew it by heart, as well. And spending every free moment with local boy-next-door Jason Farrar.

Hed been her first lover. It had been innocent and clumsy and wonderful. She would never forget that night. But at the end of her last summer here, shed left him with nothing except that stupid note, telling him she would never be back, and to look her up in Manhattan if he wanted to. He never had.

Shed meant what shed written in the note. She had never intended to come back here. She wouldnt have believed in a million years that she would be forced to revive the old business long after her uncle had retired to Boca Raton. But shed had no choice. Goddess knew she couldnt survive on the pittance they paid her waiting tables at the diner.

Yeah, Goddess knew all right. She just didnt particularly care.

Sighing, Dori shut the car off and got out, hoping she wouldnt have to scrape the car off again in the morning.

She unlocked the front door and went inside, flipped on the lights, heeled off her boots, shrugged off her coat, tugged off her mittens. She went to the wall to turn up the thermostat, then padded into the living room and sank onto the sofa.

On the opposite wall was a tiny plaque. It depicted a Goddess in silver silhouette against a deep blue background, standing in the curve of an upturned crescent moon. Her arms were raised the way Doris used to be in the midst of a circle when she was drawing down the moon. The plaque was the one ritual item she hadnt been forced to sell.

But she had found that out here in Crescent Cove, there was little use for her elaborate, expensive ritual tools. She was probably the only Wiccan within a hundred miles. She practiced alone.

That wasnt quite true. She didnt really practice at all, unless you counted all the spells shed cast, all the magic shed done to get her old life back. Nothing had worked. Nothing. And for about the millionth time she found herself wondering if any of it had ever been real.

She looked up at the Goddess on the wall opposite her and wondered why she kept the plaque hanging there. Did she even believe anymore?

JASON WALKED around the cabin toward the front door, but he stopped when he caught a glimpse through the side window of the woman hed loved for as long as he could remember. She was standing, staring up at something on the wall. A single tear rolled down her cheek.

He couldnt take his eyes away. Why was she crying?

Hell, he hadnt been able to make much sense of Dori Stewart since shed dumped him and headed off to the big city to make her fortune. Shed barely spoken two words to him since shed been back. And he wasnt altogether sure that was a bad thing.

He still wanted her. Just as badly as he always had. But he wasnt ready to risk his heart again. Shed damn near crippled him when shed walked away. Hed been seeing wedding bells, a house and kids in their future, and shed apparently thought of him as little more than a summer sidekick. He wasnt going to let himself go through that again. So hed stayed away from her, waiting to see what she planned to do, just about as long as he could stand to. For nearly a whole year hed limited himself to a few words of greeting when they met in the diner, told himself to keep his distance for his own sanity, even while torturing himself by sitting in a booth every day, watching her.

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