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He left the room, and after a disconsolate stare at all of us so meekly occupied, our monitor followed him. We heard him say, ‘But, Corporal, they were—’
‘Shut up!’ Dent rebuked him crisply, and then, several stairs down, we heard a flood of angry whispering, interspersed with our monitor’s whiny protests. When he returned to us a few moments later, his freckles were lost in his angry flush. He stared around at us and then said, ‘Wait a moment! Where did the fat one go?’
We exchanged baffled looks. Rory attempted to rescue us. ‘The fat one, Corporal? You mean the dictionary? I have it here.’ Rory helpfully lifted the hefty volume for him to see.
‘No, you idiot! That fat cadet, that Gord. Where is he?’
No one volunteered an answer. No one had an answer. He glared round at us. ‘He’s going to be in big trouble. Big, big trouble.’ The proctor stood, working his mouth, perhaps trying to come up with a more specific threat or a reason why Gord would be in trouble simply for not being there. When he could not come up with anything and we continued to stare at him like worried sheep, he slapped the table. Then, without another word, he packed up the rest of his books and papers and stamped out of the room. Silence held amongst us. I don’t know about the others, but that was the moment when I realized what we had done. By collusion, we had deceived those in command of us. We’d witnessed fellow cadets breaking an Academy rule and had not reported it. I think our collective guilt was seeping into the awareness of my fellows, for without speaking, the others were closing their books and carefully putting their work away for the evening. Trist was humming to himself, a small smile on his face, as if he were enjoying Spink’s attempt to salvage his book. Spink looked grave.
‘You fought like a plainsman, grabbing and strangling and rolling around on the floor. You’re no gentleman!’ This belated accusation came, unsurprisingly, from Oron. He looked both disgusted and triumphant, as if he had finally discovered a legitimate reason for disliking Spink. I glanced at the small cadet. He didn’t look up from blotting ink from his book. It was ruined, I thought to myself, the print obliterated by the soaking ink and well I knew he had no money for a new one. What was a minor mishap to Trist, little more than an impulsive prank, was a financial tragedy for Spink. Yet he didn’t speak of it. He only said, ‘Yes. My family had no money to bring in Varnian tutors and weapons instructors. So I learned what I could from whom I could. I learned wrestling and fighting alongside the plainsboys of the Herdo tribe. They lived at the edge of our holding, and Lieutenant Geeverman arranged for me to be taught.’
Caleb made a sound of disgust. ‘Learning to fight from savages! Why didn’t the lieutenant teach you to fight like a man? Didn’t he know how?’
Spink folded his lips and his face got that mottled look it did when he was angry. But he spoke calmly when he replied. ‘Lieutenant Geeverman was a noble’s son. He knew how to box and yes, he taught me. But he also said I would be wise to learn the wrestling of the Herdo. He had seen it useful in many circumstances, and as I did not look to grow to be a large man, he judged it would work especially well for me. He also counselled me that it was a good form to know, for when I only wanted to immobilize someone and not to injure them.’
And that was a sting to Trist’s pride and he was happy to seize on it as an insult. He slapped his last book shut. ‘If you’d fought me as a gentleman instead of as a savage, the outcome would have been different.’
Spink stared incredulously at him for a moment. Then a stiff smile spread over his face. ‘Doubtless. Which was why, free to choose my tactics, I chose one which allowed me to win.’ He tapped a textbook that had escaped the spill of ink. ‘Chapter twenty-two. Selecting Strategy in Uneven Terrain. It pays to read ahead.’
‘You’ve no concept of fair play!’ Trist insulted him ineffectually.
‘No. But I’ve a good one of what it takes to win,’ Spink shot back unrepentantly.
‘Let’s go. You’d be better off talking to the wall. He can’t even grasp what you’re trying to tell him,’ Oron huffed. He took Trist’s arm and tugged at it. Trist shrugged him off and walked away from the table, his neck flushed. I think Oron’s words had only embarrassed him more.
When Trist slammed the door of his room behind him, the flush of victory left Spink’s face. He looked down at the table and his ruined book in dismay. He put his intact books away and then came back to the table with a cleaning rag to scrub at the ink stain on it. I realized that I was the only one still sitting there. I shut my books and gathered my papers to be out of his way. I closed Gord’s books and set them aside. I couldn’t think of anything to say to him. Then he spoke, a very soft question.
‘Do you think Gord went to report us?’
His voice was full of dread and pain. I had been so busy with my own thoughts, I hadn’t even worried about where Gord had gone. I considered what must have been going through Spink’s mind: that alone of all his fellows, Gord had betrayed him, by upholding the honour code that we were all sworn to. And if Gord had done so, Spink might very well be sent home from the Academy, for he had, indisputably, struck first. And then the cowardly thought followed: if we all stuck up for Spink and Trist and said there had been no fight, Gord would appear to be the liar. Only he would have to leave.
And there we all were, stretched tight between loyalty to our patrol and the honour of the Academy. Which side would I stay with? Spink? Gord? I suddenly saw that all of us could be expelled over this. I felt weak and sick. There was no possible way to be completely honourable, to keep my oath to the Academy and to keep faith with my friends. I dropped back into my seat at the table. ‘I don’t know,’ I said. And added, ‘But if he had, surely they would have come up here by now. So perhaps not.’
‘Then where did he go? And why?’
‘I don’t know. I don’t even have any ideas.’ Worry crept through me. Where could he have gone? The rule for first-years was clear: evenings should be spent in study and housekeeping tasks followed by an early bed. Outside, the barracks the weather was intemperate and walking about the grounds that we traversed several times each day on our way to classes offered little attraction. The physical rigours of the day sapped our interest in visiting the gymnasium in the evenings. Occasionally we had guest lecturers or poets or musicians who performed for us in the evening, but attendance at those events was mandatory and not regarded by any of us as recreational. Nothing like that was scheduled tonight. Surely Gord would not have attempted to venture past the guards at the gates of the Academy? I could only picture him walking by himself about the grounds in the evening drizzle. It was a sad image, and yet I felt little sympathy for him. More than half the evening’s disaster was his fault. If, from the beginning, he had stood up to Trist’s taunting, it would never have come to blows between Trist and Spink. For that matter, I seethed to myself, if he could simply control his appetite at table, he would lose the girth that made him such a target for mockery.
Such were my thoughts as I prepared for my evening’s rest. My bookwork was not complete, and I felt out of sorts about that. I’d probably be punished with extra assignments tomorrow, to be completed over the days off. The others were expecting a fine holiday away from the Academy. I’d looked forward to at least having plenty of idleness. Now even that was taken from me. I sighed as I entered our bunkroom. Natred and Kort were already in their bunks, asleep or pretending to be so. Spink was at the washstand, holding a cold cloth against his bruised face. The night quiet was uncharacteristic of our room, the uneasy silence that followed a fight. It set me on edge.
As I shelved my books, I nudged my Dewara rock off the shelf. I caught it one-handed before it hit the floor and stood there, hefting its roughness and thinking. Some part of me was aware that I was being unfair to Gord as I fumed at him. It was still easier than being angry with Spink or even Trist. Gord, I thought to myself, was a much easier target for blame. I looked down at the rock in my hand, and for some reason I found myself thinking of all the stones I had left at home in my collection. How many times had I been a potential target for Sergeant Duril? What had he really been trying to teach me with all those stones? Or was I investing meaning into something that the sergeant had intended only as a simple exercise in wariness?
I was still holding the stone in my hand when the door to our room was flung unceremoniously open. We all jumped at the intrusion. Nate opened his eyes and Kort leaned up on one elbow. Spink was caught half-bent, his fingers dripping a double handful of water halfway to his face. I turned, expecting Gord. It took a moment for me to realize that it was not a cadet officer, but only Caulder standing in our doorway. Rain had beaded on his hat and dripped onto our clean floor from his cloak. His nose was red with cold. He had a grinning sneer on his face as he said pompously, ‘I’m to bring Cadets Kester and Burvelle to the Infirmary. Right away.’
‘What for?’ Spink demanded.
‘We aren’t sick,’ I added rather stupidly.
‘I know that!’ Caulder was properly disdainful of our ignorance. ‘You’re to come and fetch that fat cadet back to Carneston House. The doctor has certified that he’s fit to return for duty.’
‘What? What happened to him?’
‘What I said!’ Caulder said disgustedly. ‘Come on. I’ll take you to him.’ Then, as I obediently placed my rock on my bookshelf and prepared to follow him, he demanded suddenly, ‘What’s that?’
‘What?’
‘That rock. What’s it for? What is it?’
I was sick of this youngster, for his lack of manners and the way he flung about his father’s authority without any regard for his elders. ‘The only thing you need to know about it is that it isn’t yours,’ I responded tartly. ‘Let’s go.’
If I’d had younger brothers rather than younger sisters, perhaps I would not have been so shocked by what happened next. Caulder shot out his hand and snatched the rock off the shelf.
‘Give me that!’ I exclaimed, outraged that he had taken what was mine.
‘I want to look at it,’ he replied, turning away from me with the rock in his hands. He reminded me of a little animal trying to hide a piece of food while he devoured it. He seemed to have completely forgotten his mission.
‘What happened to Gord?’ Spink demanded again.
‘Someone beat him.’ A note of satisfaction was in this announcement. I could not see Caulder’s face but I was certain he was smiling. A flash of anger went through me. I reached over his shoulder, seized his wrist and squeezed it. He released the rock and I caught it and restored it to my shelf in one motion.
‘Let’s go,’ I told him as he looked up at me, caught between incredulity and anger. He cradled his arm to his chest, rubbing his wrist and glaring. His voice was venomous as he said, ‘Don’t ever put your filthy hands on me again, you peasant bastard. This adds another strike to my tally against you. Don’t think others don’t know about how you poisoned me with that “tobacco” and then laughed at me. Don’t think I don’t have friends who can help me take revenge on you.’
I was shocked. ‘I had nothing to do with that!’ I blurted out angrily before I could realize that keeping silent would have been better. I’d all but admitted that his tobacco experience had been a cruel prank, not an accident.
‘It happened here,’ he said coldly, turning away. ‘It was your patrol. All of you were in on it. Don’t think I don’t know that. Don’t think my father doesn’t know how you misused me. It’s as the Writ says, Cadet: “Evil befalls the evildoer in its time, for the good god is just.” Now why don’t you follow me and get a good look at justice?’
Still cradling his bruised wrist, he stalked away. I paused only to put on my winter cloak. Spink had dressed hastily for the weather and was waiting for us. He glanced back at me as we went down the stairs and his face was pale. ‘Were you told to fetch us specifically?’ he asked Caulder in a neutral voice.
Caulder spoke disdainfully. ‘Fat Gord seemed to think you were the only ones who’d turn out to help him back to the dormitories. Not a surprise, really.’
We did not speak after that. Sergeant Rufet lifted his eyes to watch us leave but said nothing. I wondered if he already knew our mission or was giving us enough rope to hang ourselves.
We stepped out into a cold, persistent rain. My cloak had not dried completely from its earlier use. The wool kept the warmth in but grew heavier with every step I took in the downpour. Caulder turned up his collar and hastened ahead of us.
I had not been to the infirmary before, having had no occasion to go there. It was a wood-framed building, set well away from the classroom structures and busy pathways of the Academy campus, tall and narrow and tainted a garish yellow by the oil lamps that burned in front of it. We followed Caulder up onto a porch that creaked beneath our steps. He opened the door without knocking and without pausing to put off his hat or cloak, took us through an antechamber where a bored old man dozed at his desk. ‘We’re here for the fat one,’ he said. He did not wait for a response from the orderly but crossed the room briskly to open a second door. It led to a corridor, unevenly lit by badly spaced lamps. He marched down it, entered the second doorway and even before we reached the threshold, we heard him say, ‘I’ve brought his friends to take him back to Carneston House.’
Spink and I crowded through the door and into the small room. Gord sat on the edge of a narrow bed. He was dressed, but his buttons were not fastened, and he sat with his upper body tilted forward and his head drooping. The knees of his uniform trousers were wet and muddy. He did not look up at us as we came in but the man attending him did. ‘Thank you, Caulder. You should probably go home now. Doubtless your mother will be wondering where you are, out so late.’ The man’s words fell somewhere between a polite suggestion and a steel command. I judged that he was not fond of Caulder and anticipated an argument from him.
He got it. ‘My mother has not ruled my hours since I was ten, Dr Amicas. And my father—’
‘Will, I am sure, be very glad to see you and to hear how helpful you were in letting us know that you had found an injured cadet. Thank you, Caulder. Please give your father my regards.’
Caulder stood stubbornly a moment longer, but as we all kept silent and avoided looking at him, he soon realized that he would witness nothing interesting by staying. ‘Good evening, Doctor. I shall convey your regards to Colonel Stiet.’ He added his last words pointedly, as if we could somehow have forgotten that his father was the commander of the Academy. Then he about-faced smartly and left the small room. We listened to the clacking of his boots as the sound receded, and then heard the door shut behind him. Only then did the doctor look at us.
He was a spare old man with a fringe of trimmed grey hair around a bald pate. He wore rimless spectacles and a white smock over his uniform shirt. A spattering of faded brown on the smock showed that it was well used. The hand he held out to each of us in turn was veiny but strong. ‘Dr Amicas,’ he introduced himself gravely. He smelled strongly of pipe tobacco. He nodded his head almost continuously. He looked at us more over than through his spectacles when he spoke. ‘Young Caulder came racing in here close to an hour ago, abrim with the news that he’d found a New Noble cadet trying to crawl back to Carneston House.’ The doctor worked his mouth for an instant as if wishing for a pipe that wasn’t there. He seemed to choose his words carefully. ‘He seemed to know a mite too much about this cadet for someone who’d just chanced upon him. Of course your friend there hasn’t said anything different from Caulder’s tale, so I’ll have to take it at face value.’ He gestured at Gord as he spoke, but Gord still didn’t look up at us. He hadn’t made a sound since we entered the room.
‘What happened to him, sir?’ Spink asked the doctor, almost as if Gord weren’t sitting there.
‘He says he slipped on the steps of the library and fell all the way to the bottom, and then tried to crawl back to his dormitory.’ The doctor gave in to himself. He took a pipe from one trouser pocket and a pouch of tobacco from the other. He loaded his pipe carefully and lit it before he spoke again, and his tone was clinical. ‘However, it looks to me as if he was attacked by several men and restrained while someone hit him. Repeatedly, but not in the face.’ The doctor took off his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose wearily. ‘I’m afraid that in my years here, I’ve become an expert in the bruises that a bushwhacking leaves. I’m so tired of this sort of thing,’ he added.
‘Caulder told us that Gord was beaten,’ I said. At my words, Gord lifted his head and gave me a look that I could not interpret.
‘I suspect he witnessed it,’ the doctor said. ‘Caulder is often the first one to run and tell me of injuries to first-year cadets. Lately he has reported several “accidents” befalling new nobility cadets, accidents he claims to have witnessed. The first-years from Skeltzin Hall seem to be remarkably unlucky about falling down stairs and walking into doors. I’m distressed to see that clumsiness spreading to Carneston House.’ The doctor set his glasses firmly back on his nose and clasped his hands in front of himself. ‘But no one ever contradicts what that little gossip-monger lad says. Thus I have no basis on which to attempt to put a stop to it.’ He looked pointedly at Gord, but the fat cadet was working at his buttons and didn’t meet the doctor’s gaze. Gord’s knuckles were scuffed and grazed. I folded my lips, guessing that he’d got in a few licks of his own before he went down.
‘New Noble first-years are being beaten?’ Spink sounded far more shocked than I was.
Dr Amicas gave a brief snort of bitter laughter. ‘Well, that is what I would say, based solely on my examinations. But it’s not just first-years experiencing this plague of “accidents”. My written reports speak of everything from falling tree branches to tumbling down a rain-soaked riverbank.’ He looked at us severely. ‘That second-year cadet nearly drowned. I don’t know what makes all of you keep silent as you do; will you wait until one of you is killed before you make complaint? Because until you speak up on your own behalf, there is nothing I can do for any of you. Nothing.’
‘Sir, respectfully, this is the first we have heard of this. I hadn’t heard of any cadets having such accidents.’ Spink was appalled. I held my silence. I had the most peculiar feeling of hearing something that I’d already known. Had I truly suspected such things were going on at the Academy?
‘No? Well, I’ve had to send two lads home this year already. One for a badly shattered leg and the fellow who ended up in the river with a punctured lung came down with pneumonia. And now this young man, with fist-sized bruises all over his chest and belly from “falling down the steps”.’ He snatched his glasses off again, and this time polished them furiously with the edge of his smock. ‘What do you think? That the bullies who do this will respect you for not reporting them? That there is some sort of honour or courage to enduring this sort of abuse?’
‘I hadn’t heard anything about it, sir,’ Spink repeated doggedly. An edge of anger tinged his voice now.
‘Well. You do now. So think about it. All three of you.’ He had been leaning against the bunk that Gord sat on. He straightened suddenly. ‘I was born to be a healer, not a soldier. Circumstance puts this uniform on my back, but I cover it with the smock of my vocation. Yet sometimes I feel that I’m more of a fighter than you lads born to soldier. Why do you take this? Why?’
None of us attempted to answer. He shook his old head at us, and I suspect he felt disgust for our lack of spark. ‘Well, take your friend back to your dormitory. There’s nothing broken and nothing bleeding, and he should be able to get through the day tomorrow. In two or three days, he’ll feel like himself again.’ He swung his attention more directly to Gord. ‘You drink one of those powders I gave you tonight, and another in the morning. They’ll make you a bit woozy, but you’ll probably manage to get through your classes. And eat less, Cadet! If you weren’t fat as a hog, you’d have been able to put up a better fight, or at least run away. You’re supposed to look like a soldier, not a tavern keeper!’
Gord made no reply, but only lowered his head more. I winced at the harshness of the doctor’s last words, even as I had to agree with them. Gord moved slowly to get off the bed; I could almost feel his pain as he stood. He grunted softly with pain as he shouldered into his jacket. It was caked with mud and pine needles. He hadn’t picked up that dirt from the library steps. He fumbled at his jacket buttons as if to do them up and then let his hands drop to his sides.
‘You didn’t have to send for them. I could have got back by myself. Sir.’ Those were the only words that Gord spoke. When Spink and I tried to help him stand, he waved us away. He came to his feet, lurched slightly, and then walked toward the door. Spink and I followed him. The doctor watched us leave.
Outside the infirmary, the rain had stopped but the leafless trees were still swaying to the storm’s wind.
‘What happened to you? Where did you go, why did you leave?’
When Gord didn’t answer, Spink added, ‘I beat Trist. He apologized to me. He would have apologized to you, too, if you had been there.’
Gord had never been a fast walker. He lagged between us, as ever, and when he spoke in a low voice, I had to turn my head and look back at him to hear his answer in the night wind. ‘Oh. And that solves everything, doesn’t it? I’m sure that has put an end to his mockery and resentment of me forever. Thank you, Spink.’
It was the first time I’d ever heard Gord speak sarcastically or bitterly. I stopped and so did Spink. Gord walked on, both arms crossed protectively over his unbuttoned jacket and gut, and passed between us without pausing.
Spink and I exchanged glances and then hurried after Gord. He caught at Gord’s elbow. ‘I still want to know what really happened,’ Spink demanded. ‘I want to know why you just left the room like that.’
It suddenly occurred to me that perhaps I wouldn’t like the answers to those questions.
Gord shrugged off Spink’s hand. He kept walking as he spoke, but he sounded short of breath. ‘I left because I didn’t want to witness anyone breaking an Academy rule. Because, by the honour code, I would have had to report it.’ His voice was tight, from anger or from speaking past pain. I could not tell which. ‘And what happened to me was that I went to the library. I found it closed. Then, I “fell down the steps”. And afterwards, Caulder ran and reported it, and some orderlies were sent to pick me up and take me to the infirmary. When the doctor asked me for the names of two cadets who might be willing to walk me back to my dormitory, I gave him yours. But only because if I had not, he would not have released me tonight. And I’m very much looking forward to my family carriage coming for me tomorrow evening.’ He did not look at either of us. We matched our pace to his.
‘Why are you angry at me?’ Spink demanded in a low, tight voice. The question I wanted to ask was what had really happened to him, but I bit it back, knowing that until those two sorted things out between them, I was not going to get any response.
‘You don’t know?’ It wasn’t really a question. Gord just wanted to make Spink admit it.
‘No, I don’t! I’d think you’d be grateful to me, for standing up for you when you hadn’t the spine to do it for yourself!’ Spink’s anger flashed from him.
For ten steps, Gord kept silent. When he did speak, I judged he had spent that time mastering his temper and ordering his words. ‘I’m a man grown, Spink. I’m fat, and perhaps that is a fault or perhaps it is just the way the good god made me. But it does not make me a child nor does it make me any less in command of my own life. You think that I should fight those who are cruel. The doctor back there thinks I should change myself so they would have less excuse to be cruel to me. But what I think is that I should not have to do either.’
Gord halted. Then he abruptly left the gravelled pathway and walked across the frozen lawn to an oak tree. He leaned on its wet black trunk, catching his breath. We were silent, and the heavy drops from the branches above us dripped down on us. Looking at him, some memory of a memory teased at the corner of my awareness. He reminded me of something, or someone. Then Gord spoke again, and the half-recalled image fled my mind.
‘I think that the ones who taunt are the ones who should be pressured to change. I have no delusions about myself. In a physical fight, Trist would best me easily. And, having won it, he would then use that superiority to justify however he treated me afterwards. He is saying that my physical condition should determine how he treats me. And you think that because you have bested him in a physical struggle, you have proved something to him. But you haven’t. All you have done is shown that you agree with him, that the man who can physically defeat another is the man who should make the rules. I don’t agree with that. If I attempt to live by those rules, I will be beaten, and I do not intend to be beaten. So I will not be goaded into a physical confrontation with Trist or anyone else. I will win another way.’
A silence fell among us. There was such a sharp contrast between the bravery of Gord’s words, and the fat boy leaning on a tree and puffing. I think Spink saw the same contradiction because he grudgingly pointed out, ‘We are military, Gord. What is a soldier about if not besting another man physically? It’s how we support our king and defend our country.’
Gord pushed away from the tree. We followed him back to the path and resumed his slow pace. The wind was building and the first wild drops warned that another squall was on the way. I wanted to hurry but did not think that Gord could keep up with us. In the dormitory buildings nearby, lights were starting to go out. If we came in after lights-out, Sergeant Rufet would have a few choice questions for us. I didn’t want any more demerits to march off. I gritted my teeth and put it down to the cost of my friendship with Spink.
‘On the lowest, simplest level, the military and the cavalla are about physical might. I’ll concede that. But the King made my father a noble, and when my father made me, he made me a soldier son with the opportunity to serve as an officer. And that isn’t about physical strength, Spink. No officer could prevail if his troops turned on him. An officer leads by example and intelligence. I have the intelligence. I won’t set the example that I can be beaten physically and cowed that way. And I won’t let you set it on my behalf. If you fight Trist again, know that you are not fighting for me, but for yourself. You seek to salve your own bruised pride, that you have to accept help from someone who is fat. Somehow, you think that reflects badly on you, and that is why Trist can goad you to fight. But my battles belong to me, and I’ll fight them my own way. And I shall win.’
A terrible silence fell then, and it seemed to bring on the rain that suddenly drenched us. I longed to sprint for shelter. Gord seemed to share my impulse for he clasped his belly more firmly, lowered his head to the storm and walked faster. I finally felt I could speak. ‘What did happen to you, Gord? Caulder said you were beaten.’
Gord was puffing more heavily now, but he managed an answer. ‘Caulder can say whatever he likes to whoever he likes. I fell down the library steps. That is the truth.’
Spink figured it out before I did. ‘Part of the truth, you mean, and that’s why you can hold to it. You hold the honour code above all else. When did you fall down the steps, Gord? When you ran from them, or after they had beaten you?’
Gord stumped stolidly on. I looked over at Spink, blinking raindrops from my lashes. ‘He’s not going to answer you.’ I felt stupid for only now realizing what should have been obvious to me. By sticking to his story, Gord kept the battle on his territory. Those who had beaten him could not openly boast of it. Doubtless, their friends would know of it. But if Gord refused to admit that he had been beaten, if he refused to acknowledge a defeat from them, he took some of their triumph away.
I walked more slowly, falling somewhat behind them as I pondered. In bemoaning the fact that both Spink and Trist seemed to have a natural leadership that I lacked, I had overlooked something. Trist based his ability to attract followers on his golden charisma. I had already seen its effect on young Caulder, with disastrous results. Spink was tough and stubborn and the son of a war hero. He gave and demanded great loyalty. Those of us who followed him were swayed by those things, but the more I thought about it, the more it seemed to me that he did not always look far enough ahead and reason out where his actions might lead. Tonight, I had admired that he had stood up to Trist, despite the differences in their sizes, and I had been impressed that he used unconventional tactics to bend the larger man to his will. But now I had to consider the far-reaching consequences of those actions. He and Trist, by taking their rivalry to blows, had put all the lads in our patrol into a compromising position. We had all witnessed an Academy rule being broken, and none of us had kept our honour vow to report it. It bothered me, even though I knew that I would have felt more truly disgraced if I had raced off to report the infraction.
Only Gord had had the foresight to save himself from that. Even now, battered and facing a hellish day tomorrow, he forced his body to be subject to his intellect. I had considered him weak because of his girth. But in truth, now that I pondered it, he did not seem to indulge his appetite any more than the rest of us did. Perhaps he was simply born to be a portly man and always would be.
And perhaps he was demonstrating a quiet leadership that I had not witnessed before. Even if his only follower was himself, I admired his foresight. Then, my mind suddenly transposed an idea that I’d assumed. I had thought that Gord had attached himself to Spink because of the small cadet’s leadership. But perhaps, in offering his help to Spink, Gord had been, not following him, but offering his leadership. So, then, if Spink followed Gord, and I followed Spink, was it not Gord whom I was actually accepting as my commander?
We had almost reached the walkway to Carneston House when Caulder ran past us, headed back toward the infirmary. He paused, and spun, skipping backwards as he shouted at us, ‘Seems to be an unlucky night for New Nobles’ sons! I’m off to fetch the doctor again.’ Then he turned and ran off into the darkness.
‘I don’t like the sound of that,’ I said to Spink.
‘He came from the direction of the carriageway,’ Gord gasped. ‘We should go see who is hurt.’
I shook my head. ‘You’re done in, Gord. Go up to bed. Spink, make sure he gets there while I go find out what Caulder was talking about.’
I had expected Spink to argue with me, or for Gord to say he could get back to the dormitory alone. Instead, Gord nodded miserably, and Spink said, ‘If you don’t come back soon, I’ll come looking for you. Be careful.’
That was a strange admonition to receive on the campus of the King’s Cavalla Academy. I wished I hadn’t said I’d go, but I couldn’t turn back now. I nodded to Spink and Gord and ran off toward the carriageway. The wind gusted and the rain slapped my face as I ran. I saw no one, and I was beginning to hope that Caulder had lied. I had actually turned back and was hurrying home to Carneston House when I heard someone groan. I stopped and looked back. In the shadows of the trees by the carriageway, something moved. I ran back to find a man lying prone on the wet earth. He was wearing a dark cloak, and the deep shadows of the trees had hidden him from me. I was surprised Caulder had found him.
‘Are you hurt?’ I asked him stupidly as I knelt down by his side. Then the reek of raw spirits hit me. ‘Or just drunk?’ I amended my question. My disapproval must have been in my voice. Cadets were forbidden to drink on campus, and surely no instructor would be falling down drunk on the grounds.
‘Not drunk,’ he said in a faint hoarse whisper. The voice was familiar. I leaned closer, trying to make out his features. Mud and blood caked them, but I recognized Cadet Lieutenant Tiber, who had rescued me from humiliation during initiation. I decided not to argue with him about being drunk.
‘But you’re hurt. Lie still. Caulder’s gone to fetch the doctor.’ It was too dark for me to know what sort of injuries he had, but I knew better than to try to move him. The best I could do for him was to keep vigil by him until Caulder sent help.
Despite my words, he scrabbled faintly at the ground, as if he would get up. ‘Bushwhacked me. Four of them. My papers?’
I looked around. A few feet away, I saw a dark shape on the ground. It proved to be a satchel. Near it I found a muddied book and a handful of trampled papers. I gathered them up by touch and brought them back to him. ‘I have your papers,’ I told him.
He made no response.
‘Lieutenant Tiber?’
‘He’s passed out,’ a voice said. I nearly jumped out of my skin. Sergeant Duril would have done more than hit me with a rock if he’d been there. I’d been completely oblivious to the three figures who had walked up on me in the pouring rain.
‘Drunk as a beggar,’ said the man behind me and to my left. I turned my head to see him but he took a couple of steps back. I couldn’t make out his face, but his voice was almost familiar. I’d caught a glimpse of his jacket under his coat. He was a cadet. ‘We saw him arrive here. Carriage brought him from town. He staggered this far and passed out.’
