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‘Mostly. Why?’
‘I’ll still spend time with Grandma and Granddad, won’t I?’
Rosie is sitting opposite me at the kitchen table, her little face crinkled up into a frown.
‘Of course you will. You can still have sleepovers whenever you want and we can pop over after school at any time for a visit.’
I can see she’s putting this together and I know there’s a question coming.
‘When someone dies, where do they go?’
Ah. I suspect someone at school has lost a grandparent and the kids have been talking.
‘Well, your soul goes to another place. Some people call that heaven. But usually people only die after they have had a long and happy life and they leave behind lots of wonderful memories.’
Now she’s toying with the chips on the plate in front of her, aimlessly pushing them around.
‘But what if you don’t want them to go?’
I walk around the table and kneel down next to her, easing the fork out of her hand.
‘When we truly love someone, they remain in here.’ I place my hand over my heart. Rosie’s eyes follow my every move. ‘They are always with us. Grandma and Granddad are fine, darling. There’s nothing at all to worry about.’
She hangs her head.
‘I don’t want anyone to die, Mum. I like things the way they are.’
I wrap my arms around her, planting a kiss on the top of her head and then smoothing back her long, dark brown hair away from her face.
‘Life is all about change, Rosie, and mostly that’s a good thing. The only thing that’s changing for us right now is that we’re going to have a new routine. Life won’t feel quite so rushed and I’ll be here whenever you need me. That’s a good thing, isn’t it?’
At last, the smile is back on that pretty little face of hers.
‘Yes, Mum. I like it when we can have dinner together and watch TV before bed.’
It’s always the small things that children miss when life gets hectic. There have been too many nights when I’ve missed dinner entirely, barely arriving back in time to put her to bed. It hasn’t been fair on Mum and Dad, and it hasn’t been fair on Rosie.
‘Well, I like that too and if you’ve finished here let’s quickly clear this away and curl up on the sofa, together.’
Her smile broadens enthusiastically and I find myself taking in every little detail. My little girl is growing up so very quickly and I wonder, fleetingly, how different life would have been for her if Antonio hadn’t left us. But he did, and I’ll never forgive him for that.
I’m in the News (#ulink_5962c167-e24a-5753-a3ec-c8723cd127a0)
It’s the start of week two of the new regime and I’ve made two new discoveries, already. Firstly, that living in PJs isn’t quite me and the postman was beginning to wonder what was going on. One morning when I also happened to be having a particularly bad hair day, he asked me if I was feeling any better! The other discovery is that sitting in the same position for hours on end isn’t good for you. Even if you can avoid the snacks and sugary drinks, your body starts to rebel. I’ve invested in some track suits and after being caught lusting over a fitness tracker, Mum and Dad turned up at the weekend with two neatly wrapped little parcels. Mine was a Vivofit with a gorgeous red strap and Rosie’s present was a watch.
‘Just a little congratulatory gift,’ Dad said, as we opened the boxes.
I couldn’t protest, but it did bring a tear to my eye as we had a group hug.
Suddenly, my mobile kicks into life and I see that it’s Sally.
‘Morning. I’ve just retweeted you and shared your latest post,’ I inform her.
‘Thanks, I’m running behind this morning. I’ll be online shortly to reciprocate. I’ve only just had time to glance at the free paper. Did you know there’s an article about you?’
I gulp. ‘No. What, in Saturday’s paper?’
‘Yes. It’s a nice little article, actually. Well done, you! Anyway, must make a start but I have that Monday morning feeling. Maybe I need a little sugar fix.’
‘Well, I’ve just done my first walk of the day and am about to make a chamomile tea.’
Sally groans. ‘Okay. Point taken. It’s mind over matter and I’ll have a cup of tea instead. You’re beginning to sound like a health nut, but I do hope some of it rubs off on me. I need to get back to the gym, that’s for sure. Catch you later.’
I rummage around in the sitting room for the paper and when I can’t find it, I ring Mum.
‘Only me. Do you have a copy of the local paper? I can’t find ours and Sally says there’s something in there about the award.’ I can’t keep the incredulity out of my voice.
‘Oh, that will be Keith. Dad said he bumped into him in the supermarket. He’s one of their reporters and Dad told him all about your success. Roger?’ Mum calls out to Dad and I wince, as she hasn’t pulled the phone away from her mouth. ‘Leah’s on the phone. She says Roger did an article on her – what fun!’
Fun?
‘Um … Mum, can you find it for me? What exactly did Dad say?’
‘Only how proud we were that you’d won an award. He’s found the paper. Oh, my!’
It’s a positive exclamation but a chill runs down my back.
‘Gosh, there’s even a photo of you. How wonderful! Roger, ask next door if they’ll let us have their copy. I’m going to frame this one and we need a copy for Leah to show Rosie.’
I feel like a bystander.
‘Don’t worry, Mum, I’ll go online to read it. Must go.’
‘Don’t forget you’re both here for dinner on Wednesday night. I’m making spaghetti bolognaise.’
‘Wouldn’t miss it for anything.’
My phone is already nestled between my shoulder and my chin, as I Google the paper’s website.
It’s probably a quarter of a page in total judging by the length of it and the headline is Leah Castelli Brings Home a Top Travel Award. I breathe out a small sigh of relief. Clearly this is based on the press release circulated by the Traveller Abroad publicity people and not merely the gushy words of a proud father. It’s all good publicity, just rather unexpected.
It’s time to head out for my second walk of the day and when I leave the house my head is buzzing. I up the pace a little, gradually calming down, and my thoughts return to the latest changes I’m making to the website. Then inspiration strikes and I come up with a way of cramming in more sponsored ads by including them in posts. I want the website itself to look informative, rather than to be covered with adverts and this solution would solve that problem.
Walking might be healthy but it’s also uninterrupted thinking and planning time.
~
At gym club, I watch enthralled as Rosie executes a perfect back-flip. She lands with apparent ease and both feet planted firmly on the ground. Throwing up her arms, she arches her back and maintains a dignified pose. Her face is beaming.
‘Good work, Rosie. Nicely done.’ Miriam Peterson’s approval is enough to make Rosie’s cheeks glow.
That was certainly a shining example of a perfect landing but every time I watch her perform my stomach does its own involuntary flip.
Miriam waves out to me and heads across the mats in my direction. Even so, her eyes are everywhere and she doesn’t miss a thing.
‘Liesel, relax those shoulders!’ Her voice booms out across the studio floor.
‘I hear congratulations are in order,’ Miriam says, with a gush. ‘I read the article and that’s quite something.’
I can feel my cheeks reddening, as this has caught me off–guard.
‘Yes, it was a bit of a surprise, though.’
‘Ah, well, it’s nice to have an interesting hobby and all those free holidays. I’m envious!’
I try not to frown.
‘It’s a bit more than a hobby,’ I add, but my voice begins to trail off.
‘A hobby with benefits,’ Miriam laughs, totally missing the point.
‘It is very hard work, actually.’
Why am I feeling so defensive? Miriam doesn’t understand any more about my industry, than I do about hers.
‘Nice, though. Guess you’ll be flying here, there and everywhere, now.’ It’s dismissive and her tone is beginning to irritate me.
‘I only blog about places I’m happy to endorse one hundred per cent. Being a critic isn’t always easy but it’s gratifying when a client invites me back after making improvements.’
Even her smile is now annoying me; it’s patronising.
‘You get a second trip? Amazing. And all those freebies for you and Rosie to test. I bet you never have to buy anything holiday-related.’
I give up.
‘Rarely,’ I concede, deciding it’s simply better to agree and change the subject. ‘That was a perfect back-flip Rosie performed there.’
‘If she worked harder, she’d make the team.’ Miriam’s gaze doesn’t falter and I can see she feels I don’t push Rosie hard enough. But Rosie is happy attending two classes a week and taking part in demonstrations; the fact that she isn’t interested in competing is entirely her own decision.
And that’s where Miriam and I differ so greatly. You can’t force someone into doing something and I’m not going to put pressure on Rosie for simply wanting to take part for the sheer fun of it. Much to the annoyance of the sometimes scary Miriam Peterson.
The Word is Spreading (#ulink_5dfc4848-5a99-53fb-9494-099d808a29d5)
I modelled my approach to evaluating a holiday venue on the iconic hotel inspector, Yolanda Jackson. I figured from the outset that whilst I didn’t have the scathing tone and quick-to-anger attitude I’ve witnessed her dishing out so often on her TV programme, I do admire her integrity. And the way she is simply trying to help owners to raise their standards so that visitors get value for money. That’s essential if they want to stay in business.
Today’s post contains several parcels addressed to Rosie, and I always leave her to open them herself. Aside from that, now I’m back from my walk it’s time to hit the emails.
With Easter only ten days away we already have a day trip to a theme park and a visit to a children’s petting zoo in the diary. It looks like our next trip abroad isn’t until the summer half-term holiday, at the end of May. So even if the UK turns out to be wet and windy, which is often the case for bank holidays, hopefully we’ll be basking in sunshine.
Surely it can’t get any better that that?
~
‘Rosie, can you see who’s at the door please? I’ll be there in a second.’
I press ‘send’ on the email I’ve just finished and a little frisson of excitement makes my stomach do a dip.
‘Mum, it’s Naomi and Callie.’
There’s a lot of laughter coming from the hallway as they all barrel into the kitchen.
‘Well, this is a nice surprise, neighbour. Shall I pop the kettle on?’
Naomi shakes her head, still laughing at whatever the girls found funny, as she walks over to give me a hug.
‘No, sadly we can’t stay. We’re on a mission.’ She looks across at Callie, her eleven-year-old daughter.
‘I’m doing a walk for charity, Leah. Will you sponsor me? It’s five miles and I’ve been training, so I know I can do it.’
‘Ah, that’s great, Callie. When is it?’
‘Saturday morning.’
She hands me the form and I take it, grabbing a pen. It’s for childhood cancer and who wouldn’t want to give to that cause?
‘That’s very kind, Leah. Every little bit helps.’
‘My pleasure and way to go, Callie – that’s awesome. Well done, you!’
‘Can I give some money too?’ Rosie pipes up. We all turn to look at her.
Naomi flashes me a glance and I nod.
‘Of course, Rosie. You can spend your savings on anything you want and I can’t think of a more deserving cause.’
As Callie and Rosie lean over the form on the table, Naomi gives me a look of ‘ahh!’
‘Sorry I’ve been absent lately, I had meant to pop down now I’m around a little more.’ I do feel guilty and I miss our interaction since Callie moved to the senior school last September. Her school is the other side of town and it’s not possible to do both trips and car share anymore.
‘I understand, Leah. Besides, judging from the papers, you’ve been very busy. First the local and now the national papers.’
‘What?’ It comes out like a pistol crack. Why am I always the last to know about these things?
‘I saw it in the Daily News, this morning. It was a big spread about the travel industry and some sort of awards ceremony. I didn’t know your blog was so popular. I mean, I knew you had a website for your photography business, but I had no idea! And is that your award?’
She looks over to the bookshelf and I nod, thinking maybe I should move it somewhere slightly less noticeable. But I work from the kitchen table and it’s the hub of the cottage.
‘Yes. It was unexpected news but very welcome. I’ll be focusing on that in future and the Rosie’s Suitcase feature is a big part of it.’
