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Dudley gave his irrepressible grin. ‘Better tell them to hurry up then,’ he recommended cheerfully.
‘I am drawing up a plan.’
‘Well, while you are doing that we will walk in the garden,’ Dudley offered, deliberately misunderstanding.
‘I can’t draw it up now!’ Cecil exclaimed. ‘It will take weeks to plan properly.’
But already the queen was on her feet; Dudley had offered his arm, the two of them fled from the presence chamber with the speed of scholars escaping a class. Cecil turned to her ladies in waiting who were scrambling to curtsey.
‘Go with the queen,’ he said.
‘Did she ask for us?’ one of the ladies queried.
Cecil nodded. ‘Walk with them, and take her shawl, it is cold out today.’
In the garden Dudley retained the queen’s hand, and tucked it under his elbow.
‘I can walk on my own, you know,’ she said pertly.
‘I know,’ he said. ‘But I like to hold your hand, I like to walk at your side. May I?’
She said neither yes nor no, but she left her hand on his arm. As always with Elizabeth, it was one step forward and then one step back. As soon as she allowed him to keep her little hand warm on his arm she chose to raise the question of his wife.
‘You do not ask me if you may bring Lady Dudley to court,’ she began provocatively. ‘Do you not wish her to attend? Do you not ask for her to have a place in my service? I am surprised that you have not mentioned her to me for one of my ladies in waiting. You were quick enough to recommend your sister.’
‘She prefers to live in the country,’ Robert said smoothly.
‘You have a country house now?’
He shook his head. ‘She has a house that she inherited from her father in Norfolk but it is too small and too inconvenient. She lives with her stepmother at Stanfield Hall, nearby; but she is going to stay with my cousins at Bury St Edmunds this week.’
‘Shall you buy a house now? Or build a new one?’
He shrugged. ‘I shall find some good land and build a good house, but I am going to spend most of my time at court.’
‘Oh, are you, indeed?’ she asked flirtatiously.
‘Does a man walk away from sunlight to shadow? Does he leave gold for gilt? Does he taste good wine and then want bad?’ His voice was deliberately seductive. ‘I shall stay at court for ever, if I am allowed, basking in the sunshine, enriched by the gold, drunk on the perfume of the headiest wine I could imagine. What were we saying: that we would not let the base drive out the best? That we should have, both of us, the very best?’
She absorbed the compliment for a long, delicious moment. ‘And your wife must surely be very old now?’
Dudley smiled down at her, knowing that she was teasing him. ‘She is thirty, just five years older than me,’ he said. ‘As I think you know. You were at my wedding.’
Elizabeth made a little face. ‘It was years and years ago, I had quite forgotten it.’
‘Nearly ten years,’ he said quietly.
‘And I thought even then that she was a very great age.’
‘She was only twenty-one.’
‘Well, a great age to me, I was only sixteen.’ She gave an affected little start of surprise. ‘Oh! As were you. Were you not surprised to be marrying a woman so much older than you?’
‘I was not surprised,’ he said levelly. ‘I knew her age and her position.’
‘And still no children?’
‘God has not blessed us as yet.’
‘I think that I heard a little whisper that you had married her for love, for a passionate love, and against the wishes of your father,’ she prompted him.
He shook his head. ‘He was opposed only because I was so young, I was not yet seventeen and she just twenty-one. And I imagine he would have picked a better match for me if I had given him the chance. But he did not refuse his permission once I asked, and Amy brought a good dowry. They had good lands in Norfolk laid down to sheep, and in those days, my father needed to increase our friends and influence in the east of the country. She was her father’s only heir, and he was happy enough with the match.’
‘I should think he was!’ she exclaimed. ‘The Duke of Northumberland’s son for a girl who had never been to court, who could barely write her own name and who did nothing but stay home and weep the moment that her husband encountered trouble?’
‘It must have been a fairly detailed little whisper that came to your ears,’ Robert remarked. ‘You seem to know my entire marital history.’
Elizabeth’s gurgle of guilty laughter was checked when the lady in waiting appeared behind them. ‘Your Grace, I have brought your shawl.’
‘I didn’t ask for one,’ Elizabeth said, surprised. She turned back to Robert. ‘Yes, of course, I heard talk of your marriage. And what sort of woman your wife was. But I forgot it until now.’
He bowed, his smile lurking around his mouth. ‘Can I assist your memory any further?’
‘Well,’ she said engagingly. ‘What I still don’t know for sure is why you married her in the first place, and, if it was love, as I heard, whether you still love her.’
‘I married her because I was sixteen, a young man with hot blood and she had a pretty face and she was willing,’ he said, careful not to let it sound too romantic to this most critical audience, though he remembered well enough how it had been, and that he had been mad for Amy, defying his father and insisting on having her as his wife. ‘I was eager to be a married man and grown up, as I thought. We had a few years when we were contented together but she was her father’s favourite child and in the habit of being spoiled. In fairness, I suppose I was a favoured son and I had been richly blessed. A pair of spoilt brats together, in fact. We did not deal very well together after the newness had worn off. I was at court in my father’s train, as you know, and she stayed in the country. She had no desire for court life and – God bless her – she has no airs and graces. She has no courtly skills and no wish to learn them.
‘Then, if I must tell the truth, when I was in the Tower and in terror for my life, I fell out of the way of thinking of her at all. She visited me once or twice when my brothers’ wives visited them; but she brought no comfort to me. It was like hearing of another world: her telling me of the hay crop and the sheep, and arguments with the housemaids. I just felt, wrongly, I am sure, as if she was taunting me with the world going on without me. She sounded to me as if she was happier without me. She had returned to her father’s house, she was free of the stain of my family’s disgrace, she had taken up her childhood life again and I almost felt that she preferred me to be locked up, safely out of the way of trouble. She would rather I was a prisoner, than a great man at court and son of the greatest.’
He paused for a moment. ‘You know what it’s like,’ he said. ‘When you are a prisoner, after a while your world shrinks to the stone walls of your chamber, your walk is to the window and back again. Your life is only memories. And then you start longing for your dinner. You know then that you are a prisoner indeed. You are thinking of nothing but what is inside. You have forgotten to desire the outside world.’
Instantly Elizabeth squeezed her hand on his arm. ‘Yes,’ she said, for once without coquetry. ‘God knows that I know what it is like. And it spoils your love for anything on the outside.’
He nodded. ‘Aye. We two know.
‘Then, when I was released I came out of the Tower a ruined man. All our family’s wealth and property had been forfeited. I was a pauper.’
‘A sturdy beggar?’ she suggested with a little smile.
‘Not even very sturdy,’ he said. ‘I was broken down low, Elizabeth; I was as low as a man could go. My mother had died begging for our freedom. My father had recanted before us all, had said that our faith had been a plague upon the realm. It bit into my soul; I was so ashamed. Then, even though he had knelt before them to make his peace, they still executed him for a traitor, and, God keep him, he made a bad death that shamed us all.
‘My dearest brother John took sick in the Tower with me and I could not save him, I could not even nurse him, I didn’t know what to do. They let him go to my sister Mary but he died of his sickness. He was only twenty-four, but I couldn’t save him. I had been a poor son and a poor brother and I followed a poor father. There was not much to be proud of, when I came out of the Tower.’
She waited.
‘There was nowhere for me to go but to her stepmother’s house at Stanfield Hall, Norfolk,’ he said, the bitterness in his voice still sharp. ‘Everything we owned: the London house, the great estates, the house at Syon, were all gone. Poor Amy had even lost her own inheritance, her father’s farm at Syderstone.’ He gave a short laugh. ‘Queen Mary had put the nuns back into Syon. Imagine it! My home was a nunnery once more and they were singing the Te Deum in our great hall.’
‘Did her family treat you kindly?’ she asked, guessing the answer.
‘As anyone would treat a son-in-law who had presented himself as the greatest man in the kingdom, and then came home as a penniless prisoner with a touch of gaol fever,’ he said wryly. ‘Her stepmother never forgave me for the seduction of John Robsart’s daughter and the collapse of his hopes. She swore that he had died of heartbreak because of what I had done to his daughter, and she never forgave me for that either. She never gave me more than a few pence to have in my pocket. And when they learned I had been in London to a meeting, they threatened to throw me out of the house in my boots.’
‘What meeting?’ she asked, a conspirator from long habit.
He shrugged. ‘Oh, to put you on the throne,’ he said, his voice very low. ‘I never stopped plotting. My great terror was that your sister would have a son and we would be undone. But God was good to us.’
‘You risked your life in plotting for me?’ she asked, her dark eyes wide. ‘Even then? When you had just been released?’
He smiled at her. ‘Of course,’ he said easily. ‘Who else for me, but England’s Elizabeth?’
She took a little breath. ‘And after that you were forced to stay quiet at home?’
‘Not I. When the war came my brother Henry and I volunteered to serve under Philip against the French in the Low Countries.’ He smiled. ‘I saw you before I sailed. D’you remember?’
Her look was warm. ‘Of course. I was there to bid farewell to Philip and to taunt poor Mary, and there were you, as handsome an adventurer who ever went away to war, smiling down at me from the royal ship.’
‘I had to find a way to raise myself up again,’ he said. ‘I had to get away from Amy’s family.’ He paused. ‘And from Amy,’ he confessed.
‘You had fallen out of love with her?’ she asked, finally getting to the part of the story that she had wanted all along.
Robert smiled. ‘What pleases a young man who knows nothing at sixteen cannot hold a man who has been forced to look at his life, to study what he holds dear, and to start from the bottom once again. My marriage was over by the time I came out of the Tower. Her stepmother’s humiliation of me as she stood by and watched only completed the end. Lady Robsart brought me as low as I could go. I could not forgive Amy for witnessing it. I could not forgive her for not taking my side. I would have loved her better if we had walked out of that house together into disaster. But she sat by the fireside on her little stool and reminded me from time to time, when she looked up from hemming shirts, that God orders us to honour our father and our mother, and that we were utterly dependent on the Robsarts.’
He broke off, his face darkened with remembered anger. Elizabeth listened, hiding her relish.
‘So … I went to fight in the Low Countries, and thought I would make my name and my fortune in that war.’ He gave a short laugh. ‘That was my last moment of vanity,’ he said. ‘I lost my brother and I lost most of my troop and I lost Calais. I came home a very humbled man.’
‘And did she care for you?’
‘That was when she thought I should be a teamster,’ he said bitterly. ‘Lady Robsart ordered me to labour in the fields.’
‘She never did!’
‘She would have had me on my knees. I walked out of the house that night and stayed at court or with what friends would have me. My marriage was over. In my heart, I was a free man.’
‘A free man?’ she asked in a very quiet voice. ‘You would call yourself a free man?’
‘Yes,’ he said firmly. ‘I am free to love once more, and this time I will have nothing but the best. I will not allow base coin to drive out gold.’
‘Indeed,’ said Elizabeth, suddenly cool, withdrawing rapidly from dangerous intimacy. She turned and beckoned forward the lady in waiting. ‘I will have that shawl now,’ she said. ‘You may walk with us.’
They walked in silence, Elizabeth taking in what he had told her, sifting the evidenced truth from the gloss. She was not such a fool as to believe the word of a married man. At her side Dudley reviewed what he had said, determinedly ignoring an uncomfortable feeling of disloyalty to Amy whose love, he knew, had been more faithful, and continued more strongly than he chose to portray. Of course his remaining love for her he had completely denied.
Cecil, Sir Francis Knollys, and the queen’s young uncle, the twenty-three-year-old Thomas Howard, Duke of Norfolk, were head to head in the private window bay of the presence chamber; behind them, the queen’s court stood around, chatting, plotting, flirting. The queen on her throne was talking with the Spanish ambassador in fluent Spanish. Cecil, one ear cocked for any danger from that quarter, was nonetheless very intent upon Sir Francis.
‘We have to find a means to search everyone before they come to the queen, even the gentlemen of the court.’
‘We would give much offence,’ the duke demurred. ‘And surely the threat comes from the common people?’
‘It comes from every convinced Papist,’ Cecil said bluntly. ‘The Pope’s declaration, when it is published, will make her a lamb for the slaughter as she has never been before.’
‘She cannot dine in public any more,’ Sir Francis said thoughtfully. ‘We will have to refuse permission for people to come in and see her at her dinner.’
Cecil hesitated. Access to the monarch, or even to the great lords in their halls, was part of the natural order, the way things had always been done. If that were to be changed, then the court would have signalled very clearly to the people that they trusted them no more, and that they were retreating behind locked doors.
‘It will look odd,’ he said begrudgingly.
‘And she can hardly make any more public processions,’ Sir Francis said. ‘How can it be done?’
Before Cecil could stop him, Sir Francis beckoned Robert Dudley, who excused himself from the group around him and started to come towards them.
‘If you add him to our councils I’m away,’ the duke said abruptly, and turned aside.
‘Why?’ Sir Francis asked. ‘He knows how this can be done better than any of us.’
‘He knows nothing but his own ambition, and you will rue the day you ever include him in anything,’ Thomas Howard said rudely and turned his back as Dudley joined the others.
‘Good day, Sir William, Sir Francis.’
‘What ails young Howard?’ Sir Francis asked as the duke pushed past another man and strode away.
‘I think he mourns the rising of my little star,’ Dudley said, amused.
‘Why?’
‘His father hated mine,’ Dudley said. ‘Actually, Thomas Howard arrested my father and my brothers and me and marched us into the Tower. I don’t think he expected me to come marching out again.’
Sir Francis nodded, taking it in. ‘You must be afraid that he will influence the queen against you?’
‘He’d better fear that I will influence her against him,’ Dudley replied. He smiled at Cecil. ‘She knows who her friends are. She knows who stood as her friends through the years of her troubles.’
‘And the troubles are not over now,’ Sir Francis said, turning to the matter in hand. ‘We are talking of the safety of the queen when she goes abroad. Sir William here has news that the pope has sanctioned the use of force against her by ordinary men and women.’
Dudley turned a stunned face to the older man. ‘It cannot be true? He would never do such a thing? It is ungodly!’
‘It is under consideration,’ Cecil said flatly. ‘And we shall hear the confirmation soon enough. And then the people will learn of it.’
‘I’ve heard nothing of this,’ Robert exclaimed.
— Oh, have you not? — Cecil hid his smile. ‘Nonetheless, I am sure of it.’
Dudley was silent for a moment, shocked by the news, but noting at the same time that Cecil had a spy in the very court of the Bishop of Rome. Cecil’s network of intelligencers and informers was growing to impressive proportions. ‘It is to overthrow the natural order,’ he said. ‘She was anointed by one of his own bishops. He cannot do it. He cannot set the dogs on a sacred person.’
‘He will do it,’ Cecil said, irritated by the young man’s slowness. ‘Indeed, by now, he probably has done it. What we are considering is how to prevent anyone obeying it.’
‘I was saying that she must be kept from the people,’ Sir Francis said.
A bright laugh from the throne made all three of them break off, turn and smile at where the queen was flirting with her fan and laughing at Ambassador Feria, who was coloured up – torn between frustration and laughter. They all three smiled at her, she was irresistible in her joy, in her playfulness, in the brightness of her energy.
‘The people are her greatest safety,’ Dudley said slowly.
