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But he would make up for it this time, she thought desperately. Please, don’t let anything go wrong. Make him be here.
When Bobby had gone away, Jimmy murmured, ‘That has to be the sweetest-tempered kid in the world.’
‘Yes, and it scares me. He’s wide open to be badly hurt by Alex.’
‘But that won’t happen, will it? Alex gave his word that he’d arrive on Christmas Eve.’
Corinne made a face. ‘Yes, but a promise to us was always conditional on business.’
‘But not at Christmas?’ Jimmy said, shocked.
‘Especially at Christmas, because that was when he could steal a march on all those wimps who spent it with their families.’
‘But he promised to spend this Christmas with you and the kids.’
‘No, what he promised was to arrive on Christmas Eve and leave on Christmas Day.’
‘So little time? Then surely you don’t have to worry about him cancelling that?’
‘I wish I could believe it. Do you know? I’m not sure the children even realise that our marriage is over. They hardly see less of him now than they did then. Apart from the fact that we’ve moved house, not much has changed.
‘I don’t mind for myself, but if he disappoints Bobby and Mitzi again I’ll never forgive him.’
‘And you’ve put up with that all these years?’
‘Yes,’ she said, almost in a tone of surprise. ‘Until the day came when I wouldn’t put up with it any more. And now we’re separated, soon to be divorced.’
Put like that it sounded so simple, and that was how she wanted to leave it. This wasn’t the time to speak of the pain, misery and disillusionment she’d endured as she had finally given up the fight to save her marriage.
It had been twelve years, starting in unbelievable happiness. And perhaps unbelievable was the right word, because she had believed the impossible.
At eighteen you convinced yourself of whatever suited you. You thought you could marry a tough, ambitious man and not suffer for it. You told yourself that love would soften him, that he would put you first, not every time, but often enough to count.
When that didn’t work you told yourself that the babies would make a difference. He was so proud of his children. Surely at least he would put them first?
‘He can’t have missed everything, surely?’ Jimmy asked now.
‘No, he was there for some birthdays, even some Christmases. But I always knew that if the phone rang he’d be off somewhere.’
Jimmy looked into her face, trying to see past the wry resignation to whatever she really felt. He doubted that she would let him catch a glimpse. She’d perfected that cheerful, unrevealing mask by now. That was what marriage to Alex Mead had done for her.
To Jimmy’s loving eyes there was little change from the dazzling bride of twelve years ago, gloriously blonde and blue-eyed in white satin and lace, unwittingly tormenting him with the opportunity he’d missed. But opportunities sometimes came again to a man who was patient.
‘By the way,’ he said, ‘is there somewhere I can hide my costume so that the kids don’t find it?’
He was playing Santa at Hawksmere Hospital that evening, roped in by Corinne, a member of the ‘Friends of Hawksmere Hospital.’
‘It means going round the wards, ho-ho-ho-ing,’ she’d said. ‘And then you settle down in the grotto for the children who can walk out of the ward, or who happen to be in the hospital visiting someone.’
And Jimmy, good-natured as always, had agreed, just to please her.
‘You can put it in the boot of my car,’ she said now. ‘I’ll be leaving at five to take Bobby and Mitzi to a kids’ party. When I’ve dropped them off I’ll come back for you at six, and deliver you to the hospital by seven.’
‘Yes, sir!’ He saluted.
‘Idiot!’ She laughed.
‘I’m paying you a compliment. You’ve got this organisation thing down to a fine art,’ he said admiringly.
It was true; she was good at arrangements. Years of last-minute changes of plan, because Alex had been called away, had made her an expert.
‘At eight o’clock,’ she resumed, ‘I collect the kids and take them to the hospital, where they’ll find Santa already in place. They’ll never dream it’s you.’
‘What about coming home?’
‘Easy. When Bobby and Mitzi have finished I’ll take them to the “Friends” office on some errand that I’ll suddenly remember, while you get changed. When we leave the office we bump into you. We’ll say you’ve been visiting a friend.’
‘By the way, Alex won’t mind my staying here, will he?’
‘It doesn’t matter if he does,’ she said firmly. ‘Our marriage is over in all but name, and he has no say. Besides, you and I are related.’
Which wasn’t quite fair because she knew how Jimmy had always felt about her. But that was something she wasn’t ready to confront just yet.
‘It could be such a happy time,’ she said, ‘if only that phone doesn’t ring. But I’ll bet you anything you like that in the next few minutes Alex will call and say, “Corinne, there’s been a change of plan.” And I’ll be expected to be “reasonable” and not “make a fuss”.’
Her voice rose sharply on the last words, making her bite it back with an alarmed look at the door in case Bobby or Mitzi could hear.
‘Hey, steady.’ Jimmy gently took hold of her shoulders. ‘That’s all over, remember?’
‘It’s not really over.’ She sighed. ‘Not while Alex and I share children who can be hurt by him.’
‘In the end they’ll see him for what he is.’
‘But that’s just it. I don’t want them to see him for what he is. I want them to go on believing in him as the most wonderful, glorious father there ever was, because that’s what they need.’
‘Just don’t let yourself be hurt by him.’
‘No, that can’t happen any more.’
‘I wish I believed that.’
‘Believe it. I’m completely immune. Whatever was between Alex and me was over a long time ago.’ She gave him a bright smile. ‘Honestly.’
‘Mummy!’ came a shriek from the garden. ‘Uncle Jimmy! Come and look. It’s going to be a white Christmas.’
It wasn’t merely snowing; it was coming down in drifts, huge, thick snowflakes that settled and piled up. Jimmy immediately bounded out into the garden to join the children in a game. Corinne stood in the window, watching them jumping about and laughing. Dusk was falling and the only light came from the house. Through the driving snow she could only just make out the fast moving figures. They could have been anyone.
They could have been the newly-weds, blissful in their first Christmas, hurrying together through the snow to the shabby little flat that had been their first home.
And the happiest, she recalled now.
The next one had still been happy, but they had already been in their first proper house, with Alex promising her ‘a palace by next year’. She hadn’t wanted a palace. All she had asked was for her joy to last, but the first cracks were already appearing.
Even so, she hadn’t realised yet that she had a rival, a beloved mistress called Mead Consolidated. And, as years had passed, the rival had grown all-consuming. How wearily used she had grown to the phone calls, and Alex’s voice saying, ‘There’s been a change of plan.’
But not this year, she thought desperately. I don’t mind for myself, but don’t let him disappoint the children.
The phone rang.
For a moment she couldn’t move. Then, in a burst of anger, she snatched up the phone, and snapped, ‘Alex, is that you?’
‘Yes, it’s me. Look, Corinne, there’s been a change of plan—’
On the last lap of the journey the snow began to come down even harder. Alex cursed and set his windscreen wipers to go fast.
It had been an awkward sort of day, with people forcing him to change course at the last moment, which he disliked. First Craddock and his mad Caribbean party, then, just as he was reaching out to call Corinne, the phone had rung.
It had been Craddock’s secretary to say that her boss had been rushed to hospital with suspected appendicitis. The whole trip was off. The signing would have to be done later.
The upside was that he could call Corinne and say he would be there a day earlier.
‘Alex, that’s wonderful. The children will be thrilled.’
‘OK, I’ll be there tonight, but I’m not sure when. The traffic’s difficult.’
‘We’re going out, but I’ll leave the key in a little box in the porch. Maybe you’ll be there when we get back.’
‘Fine. I’ll see you.’
The snow was coming down harder, and his car began to slide over the road. He slowed, but then more snow seemed to collect on his windscreen.
Why had she insisted on moving out to the very edge of London instead of staying in the mansion he’d bought her? It was a beautiful house, full of everything a wife could possibly want, but she had fled it without a backward glance.
And where had she chosen instead? A dump. A cottage. He knew he was exaggerating because it was a five-bedroom detached house, far better than where they’d lived when they were first married, but nothing compared to what he’d given her later.
It still hurt when he thought of the home he’d provided for her. The price had been extortionate, but he’d paid it willingly, thinking how thrilled Corinne would be.
It had had everything, including a paddock for the pony he intended to buy as soon as Bobby had learned to ride. Those riding lessons had been a kind of eldorado in his mind. How he would have loved them in his own childhood! And how different the reality had been!
But, for Bobby, everything would be perfect.
As always, he felt something melt inside him when he thought of his children, Mitzi, wide-eyed and appealingly cheeky. Bobby, quiet, self-assured even at nine, rapidly growing up to be a companion to his father.
And then Corinne had blown the whole dream apart. He’d come home one day to find the beautiful house empty and his family gone.
When he’d seen her again she’d talked about divorce, which he didn’t understand. There was nobody else for either of them, so who needed divorce? He’d refused even to consider it.
He had thought his firmness would make her see sense and come home, but she had quietly refused to budge. She would wait out the divorce, if necessary.
She didn’t actually say that the important thing was to be away from him, but the implication hung in the air.
He was nearing his destination now. He had never been there before, and darkness and snow made it hard to find the way. It was this road—no, the next!
Relieved, he swung the car into the turning and immediately saw a man crossing in front of him, moving slowly.
What happened next was too fast to follow, although later his mind replayed it in slow motion. The man saw him and began to run, and at the exact same moment he slammed on the brakes. The sudden sharp movement made the car skid over the ice that lay on the road beneath the snow.
It was the merest bad luck that the car went in the same direction as the man. Whether he, too, slithered on the ice or the car actually touched him nobody could ever be sure. But the next moment he was lying on the ground, groaning.
Alex brought the car to a cautious halt and got out. By now a woman had appeared from a house and hurried over to the victim. She was wrapped up in a thick jacket whose hood concealed everything about her head.
‘Jimmy? Oh, God, Jimmy, what happened?’
‘That idiot was going too fast. Hell, my shoulder!’
He winced and, clutching his neck, gasped with pain.
‘Corinne, can you give me your arm?’
‘Corinne?’
Alex drew back the side of the hood to her indignation.
‘Hey, what are you—? Alex! Did you do this?’
‘He slipped on the ice.’
‘Which I wouldn’t have done,’ Jimmy said, ‘if you hadn’t been going too fast to stop.’
‘I was barely doing—’
‘Shut up both of you,’ she said fiercely. ‘This isn’t the time.’
‘Right. I’ll call an ambulance.’
‘No need,’ Jimmy groaned. ‘We were on our way to the hospital anyway. Corinne, let’s just go. I’m sure it’s only a sprain and they can patch me up before I do my stuff.’
He climbed slowly to his feet, holding on to Corinne and refusing all offers of help from Alex. But when Corinne touched his arm he yelled with pain.
‘Be sensible,’ said Alex, tight-lipped. ‘If you don’t want an ambulance I’ll take you. Wait here!’
He strode off to where he’d parked. Jimmy, clinging to Corinne, gasped, ‘Corinne, please, anybody’s car but Alex’s.’
‘Fine. Mine’s just here.’
In a moment she’d opened the door and eased him into the passenger seat. She was starting the engine when Alex drew up beside her.
‘I said I’d take him,’ he yelled.
