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‘Well, er, I’d imagine that’s not necessary,’ Gloria says curtly.
‘He’d be scared witless,’ Ollie adds.
‘Thanks, everyone,’ Will cuts in, pushing back his dark hair with an oven-gloved hand. ‘I do appreciate all your career advice but don’t worry, I actually have everything under control …’ Really? I’d love to believe it’s true. He brightens as Liza arrives, greeting us with a bottle of wine and hugs all round – even Gloria, as if she’s an old friend – and having the miraculous effect of instantly lightening the atmosphere. Fair and pretty with a slim, boyish body, Liza looks a decade younger than her fifty-two years. She never bothers with make-up beyond a lick of mascara. Her lilac embroidered top and skinny jeans were probably thrown on, but she looks radiant and lovely. Liza calls herself a ‘slasher’; i.e., Spanish-teacher-slash-yoga-instructor-slash-wholefood-store-employee. Her life is full and varied and she seems to thrive on it. I start to relax as we catch up on each other’s news; unlike Gloria, Liza knows to avoid quizzing Will directly about his job hunt.
‘So, how are you, Rosie?’ she asks as Will and I bring a myriad of dishes to the table.
Rosie grins, taking the seat next to her. ‘I got scouted today. A woman from an agency thought I could be a model.’
‘Wow!’ Liza looks impressed. ‘Are you going to do it?’
‘Yeah, of course,’ she exclaims.
‘Well, um, we still need to talk about that,’ I say quickly.
‘I was the same,’ Liza remarks, smiling her thanks as Will fills her wine glass. ‘Freaked out when Scarlett first mentioned it. Remember she entered that competition without telling me? And then only went and won?’
I laugh. ‘But you knew she could look after herself …’
‘… And so can Rosie.’ She turns to my daughter. ‘You’ll be fine, honey. You’ll be an amazing model …’
‘It’s not a fait accompli, Liza,’ Will remarks.
‘Oh, Dad.’ Rosie rolls her eyes. ‘You did some modelling, didn’t you, Grandma? Weren’t you in pageants or something when you were young?’
Gloria purses her lips. ‘That’s the American term. We called them beauty contests and yes, I did take part in a few …’
‘You’re beautiful, Gloria,’ Liza says truthfully. ‘I can imagine you all glammed up.’
‘Wasn’t it fun?’ Rosie asks. Gloria pauses to tip the rest of her wine down her throat, seemingly without making any swallowing motion at all.
‘No,’ she says finally, ‘it certainly wasn’t.’
We all stare at her. ‘Why not?’ Ollie asks.
‘Was it horribly pressurised?’ Will enquires gently. ‘I can imagine it was a very competitive world.’
She emits a little cough, as if preparing to make an important announcement. ‘No, it wasn’t that. I was very successful actually. I was Miss Foil Wrap in 1972 …’ To avoid an attack of the giggles, I focus hard on the deliciousness of Will’s glazed carrots.
‘What’s foil wrap?’ Ollie wants to know.
‘You know, foil,’ I explain, ‘like you wrap a chicken in.’
Confused, Ollie peers at her. ‘Why did they have a “Miss Foil Wrap”?’
‘I was a brand ambassador,’ Gloria says grandly. ‘For the sashing ceremony I wore a dress entirely made of foil.’
‘Wow,’ Rosie breathes. ‘Bet that was amazing.’
‘Very futuristic,’ Will says with a grin, but Gloria’s face has clouded. Maybe she thinks he’s taking the piss. She has that effect: of making those around her feel intensely uncomfortable, without actually doing very much. I note that, while the rest of us have been tucking into Will’s delicious roast dinner, she has consumed a sliver of chicken roughly the size of a fingernail clipping.
‘Actually,’ she says, ‘it wasn’t. An unfortunate incident happened, but I don’t want to talk about it in front of the children.’ Now, of course, we’re all agog.
‘We’re not children,’ Rosie points out gently. ‘I’m sixteen, Grandma. I’m not shockable, honest …’
Gloria shakes her head and pushes away her plate.
‘Did the foil rip?’ Ollie asks. ‘Did everyone see your—’
‘Ollie,’ I say sharply, although I’m as keen as he is to hear the story. ‘Just leave it, love. I don’t think Grandma wants to—’
‘I mean,’ he goes on, mouth crammed with roast potato, ‘foil’s just thin aluminium. We did the properties of metals at school. I s’pose it’s good for a dress, though, ’cause it doesn’t rust …’
Will clears his throat. ‘I think we can move on from the foil now, Ollie.’
‘No,’ Gloria says tersely, ‘it’s quite all right. I will tell you what happened, but only because I hope it’ll serve as a warning to Rosie.’
A rapt silence descends, interrupted only by the rustle of Guinness shuffling about in his box. ‘Grandma …?’ Rosie prompts her.
Gloria twiddles her empty glass. ‘I was accosted.’
‘You mean during a contest?’ I gasp, wishing now that we’d never brought this up.
‘No, at a photo call,’ Gloria explains. ‘All the local papers were there. Everyone. It was a major event. All the reporters wanted to talk to me. And there was a nasty little man from the Sorrington Bugle …’
I glance at Will in alarm. Poor Gloria. She’s clearly harboured an unspeakable secret all these years. Maybe that’s what’s caused her to develop a rather critical edge.
‘Mum,’ Will says, ‘you needn’t talk about it. We don’t want to stir up horrible memories for you.’
She peers down at her lap. ‘It’s okay. If Rosie’s even considering modelling, then I think she should know about this …’
‘What did the man do?’ Ollie asks eagerly, tilting his head.
‘He … poked me.’
Oh, Christ. Does that mean what I think it means? Now I’m slugging my wine, Gloria-style.
‘Where?’ Rosie asks, aghast.
‘In the car park in front of everybody.’
‘With his Sorrington Bugle?’ Ollie blurts out, crumpling with laughter.
‘Ollie!’ I bark at him. ‘It’s not funny, you know, being poked—’
‘I mean where in the body, Grandma,’ Rosie explains as I top up the adults’ glasses with wine, except for Will’s, as he’s driving his mother home to East Finchley later. I catch him eyeing the wine bottle greedily.
‘In the bottom, darling,’ Gloria replies, mouthing the word bottom in the way that people say tumour.
‘Were you still wearing the aluminium dress?’ Ollie asks.
‘Yes, that’s right—’
‘Did he make a hole in it with his finger?’
‘Ollie, that’s enough, thank you,’ Will says firmly. ‘I think we’ve heard all we need to about the dress.’
‘So, um … is that why you gave up, Grandma?’ Rosie asks, clearly having difficulty keeping a straight face.
‘Well, no,’ Gloria replies. ‘I became a Mum. Will was my priority and of course, my figure was never the same after that …’
Will catches my eye. Sorry, he mouths, making me smile.
‘So now you know what can happen in the modelling world,’ Gloria adds. ‘It’s not safe, Rosie. There are people out there who’ll want to take advantage of a beautiful young girl like you.’
Rosie turns to me with a stricken face.
‘Of course, Gloria,’ Liza starts, ‘no one should think it’s acceptable to behave in that way …’
‘I agree,’ Will cuts in, ‘so, obviously, Rosie shouldn’t get involved.’
‘What?’ she gasps. ‘You mean we can’t even go to the agency?’
‘Well,’ he starts, ‘I don’t think it’s—’
‘Dad, that’s not fair! Please!’
He frowns, catching my eye in a silent plea for me to back him up.
‘Horrible little man,’ Gloria mutters. ‘I always remember he wore a banana yellow tie—’
‘I can’t believe this,’ Rosie cries. ‘No one cares what I think. You’re all discussing this as if it was nothing to do with me at all!’
‘Rosie,’ I say quickly, ‘we’ll talk about this later, okay?’
‘Dad’s saying no,’ she wails, ‘because of something that happened, like, fifty years ago!’
‘Forty-three actually,’ Gloria murmurs, placing her cutlery neatly on her plate.
Rosie doesn’t appear to have heard her. ‘For God’s sake, Dad. Things are different now …’
‘Yeah,’ Ollie cuts in. ‘Everyone was a perv in the seventies. It was on the news, they’ve got this thing called Operation Yew Tree where they’re rounding them all up—’
‘Good God,’ Will mutters as we clear the table together and he sets down the chocolate cake he made earlier. While it’s normally one of my favourite things, right now I’m not sure I can stomach a crumb. What on earth made me think it would be helpful to chat to Gloria about modelling?
‘This looks amazing,’ Liza enthuses, darting me a quick look. I glance at Rosie, whose eyes are brimming with tears.
‘Mum,’ she mutters, glaring at Will’s cake as if he’d scraped it up off the pavement, ‘tell Dad how nice Laurie was.’
I look at both of them, trapped in the middle as I so often seem to be these days. They adore each other, but recently, during their frequent spats, I’ve noticed Will stepping carefully around Rosie as if she were made of the finest porcelain. And I’ve begun to suspect that there’s something else she wants to add, but doesn’t quite dare: You’re not my real dad so you can’t tell me what to do.
‘The seventies were well weird,’ Ollie continues cheerfully. ‘Everyone wore massive flares and there was this programme on telly with these little pink creatures on another planet. We saw it at the TV museum. They didn’t even speak …’
‘The Clangers,’ I mutter.
‘All paedos,’ Ollie observes.
‘The Clangers weren’t paedos,’ I retort. ‘They were innocent little knitted mice …’
Liza turns to Gloria. ‘Er, I don’t mean to belittle your experience, and I’m sure it was traumatic …’ Gloria nods. ‘… But my daughter Scarlett did some modelling too, before she went to Bristol. She had a fantastic time and saved all her earnings and she’s paying her own way through university. It’s meant she hasn’t had to take out a loan.’
Rosie’s eyes widen. ‘Wasn’t she in some catalogues?’
Liza nods. ‘Yes. Boden, mostly—’
‘Boden?’ I repeat. ‘I didn’t know that.’ Liza has always played down Scarlett’s foray into modelling. It had been over very quickly, as far as I could gather; now I suspect she just didn’t want to seem boastful.
Liza nods proudly. ‘She still does the occasional job, but only in holiday time and it doesn’t get in the way of her studies at all.’ She smiles at Gloria. ‘She’s studying English and Philosophy …’
‘I’m not saying it’s all bad,’ Gloria says reluctantly.
‘And the beauty of it is,’ Liza continues, ‘all her friends have bar jobs or are waitressing, and Scarlett hasn’t had to do any of that.’
A hush fills our over-heated kitchen. ‘I could pay my own way through vet school,’ Rosie remarks.
‘Well,’ I say carefully, ‘it sounds like Scarlett’s had a really good experience.’
Liza nods. ‘Yes, she has. D’you want to see some of her pictures?’ She laughs. ‘Sorry, I’m such an embarrassing mum. She’d hate me for this …’
‘Go on,’ I urge her, ‘I’d love to see.’ She fetches her phone from her bag and we all cluster round it. The pictures are from a Boden shoot; sunny and smiley with Scarlett’s corn-coloured hair blowing across her freckled face.
‘She looks amazing,’ Rosie exclaims.
‘Well, I think so,’ Liza says with a grin.
She scrolls through pictures of Scarlett scampering through the dunes and balancing, with arms outstretched, on a fallen-down tree. ‘Aren’t they great?’ I enthuse, shooting a quick look at Will.
He nods, seeing as I do that Scarlett is wearing the least provocative items of clothing known to womankind: a polo neck sweater. Jolly spotty wellies. A duffel coat, for goodness’ sake. Could anything be more wholesome? ‘So it’s really been okay?’ Will asks her. ‘I mean, nothing awful’s happened?’
‘Of course not,’ Liza replies. ‘If it had, I’d have put a stop to it. Anyway, it’s not as if she was a timid thirteen-year-old. She was eighteen when she started …’
‘Rosie’s only sixteen,’ I remind her.
‘Yes, Mum,’ Rosie groans, ‘and in Viking times I’d have at least seven children by now.’
‘God forbid,’ Will splutters, and even Gloria emits a wry chuckle.
I catch her eye as she prods at her cake with a fork. ‘Look, I do understand what you’re saying, Gloria, about the foil dress poking. And I know you’re only concerned. But from what Liza’s said about Scarlett’s experience … well, maybe we shouldn’t just dismiss it.’
