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Second Chance With The Surgeon
Second Chance With The Surgeon
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Second Chance With The Surgeon

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Because the feel of her body in his arms felt better than anything had in a long time, even as the ache of his failures burned in his chest.

He eased her down on to the sofa. “You feel like sitting for a while? Or do you want to lie down in bed?”

“I feel okay. Just groggy. But I want to wake up, not go to sleep. Once I’m feeling more alert you can head on home. Or back to work, probably.”

“I don’t have any surgeries or patients to see this afternoon. And I canceled a meeting I had scheduled, so I’m all yours.”

Or he had been once.

But for today, at least, he had this chance to be there for Jillian in a way he hadn’t during their marriage, although at the same time he somehow needed to keep a cool head and an emotional distance. Except looking at her now, with her arm in its huge cast, her hair all messy and her expression a little vulnerable, he wanted to scoop her into his arms, sit on that sofa and hold her close. Kiss her face and stroke her hair until she relaxed against him.

Bad idea for both of them.

He cleared his throat. “You hungry? How about a little soup and toast, or something like that?”

“Maybe in a little bit. I’ll just sit here for now. Why don’t you take the dogs out? Their leashes are in that basket by the front door.”

“Okay. Come on, you goofs.”

Wagging tails and little leaps from Yorkie had him smiling despite the weight he felt in his chest at being here. At the memories of him and Jill during happy times together. He’d never expected to be a dog person, but he had loved spending time with them. Loved seeing how much Jill enjoyed them. In some ways that seemed like a long time ago, and in other ways it seemed like yesterday that they’d lived together and loved one another until it had all imploded.

Heaving a sigh, he took the dogs outside. They were better behaved on their walk than he remembered them being as puppies, and he had time to ponder how it was going to work out, him helping Jill. He was pretty confident that she’d be okay on her own most of the time, so long as he saw her every morning and evening and took care of the dogs until her sister showed up.

Problem was her apartment was a long way from work, while his was just a couple blocks away from the surgery center. Somehow he’d have to find extra hours in the day, or look for someone to walk the dogs.

The animals were panting by the time they got back to Jill’s door, and he pulled her key from his pocket and tried to open the door quietly, in case she was sleeping—then wondered why he’d bothered when both dogs leaped into the room, making all kinds of racket on the wood floor.

Her eyes were closed when he looked across the room at her, but her lids lifted and she sent him a surprisingly sweet smile. Probably because the drugs hadn’t worn off enough for her to remember that she didn’t like him much anymore.

“Seems like you just left. Were the dogs good?”

“Really good. You’ve done a nice job training them.”

“Don’t think I can take a lot of credit. They just needed to mature a little bit. But they still have their moments, believe me.”

“Moments like when they get upset at other dogs and get tangled up and make you fall and break your wrist?”

“Yeah. Like that.”

Her lips curved even more, into the kind of laughing smile he’d fallen for like a ton of bricks when they’d first met, and it felt good to smile back.

He stepped closer and crouched down in front of her. “How you feeling?”

“Arm feels like someone attached a log to me. Can’t feel it at all yet. Sometimes I forget and lean down, then it swings out and I have to grab it back. I know you always tell patients that’s what it’ll feel like, but I’ve gotta tell you... Much as it makes me want to laugh when I lose control of it, it feels super-weird.”

“It’ll be numb like that for at least another eight or nine hours. Then it’ll feel tingly, like you’ve laid on it funny and it’s gone to sleep. Then it’ll finally feel normal.”

“I think you mean my new normal—for now. Painful and immobile.”

“Yeah.” He stood and shoved his hands into his pockets so he wouldn’t reach out and tuck those wisps of hair behind her ears, as he would have before. “You feel like eating something now? I can get some soup from the deli? Or does something else sound good?”

“Something light, like soup and crackers, sounds perfect.”

“You got it.”

It would be good to have something to do besides talk with her and look at her. From the first moment he’d seen her in the occupational therapy room two years ago, he felt like he’d been smacked in the head by some unexplainable force. She’d stood up from the table, her athletic runner’s body in a slim-fitting dress, and her laughter at something her patient had said slipped into his chest. When her beautiful gray-green eyes had lifted to meet his he could have sworn his heart completely stopped.

Looking down at her now, he felt waves of tenderness mingle with memories of that day. He wished that he could take away the pain he knew she’d be in as soon as the brachial plexus block wore off. Felt the desire to pull her close, to take care of her, to make all that pain go away.

“I’ll be right back.”

He made himself turn away before he reached for her, and then left for the deli. He chose two kinds of the soup he knew she liked, and a bagful of crackers. When he came back and opened the door to her apartment he stopped abruptly when he saw she wasn’t on the sofa, and neither one of the dogs were in sight, either.

No way would she have decided to venture out while still half drugged up. Would she?

A panicked sensation rose in his chest and he strode to the galley kitchen, shoved the food onto the counter, then moved to her bedroom. “Jill? Jilly?”

One of the dogs whined before she answered. “In here. The bathroom. I... Go ahead and come in.”

He pushed open the door. Was stunned to see both dogs and Jillian sitting on the floor of the tiny room. Her sweatpants were twisted around her thighs and her good hand was held to her forehead.

He dropped to his knees. “What the hell happened? Did you hurt yourself?”

“Kind of. I’m so stupid. I had to go to the bathroom, and while I was sitting here I dropped the new roll of toilet paper. I leaned over to get it. Forgot all about my arm. It flung forward and dragged me off the toilet. I landed right on my cast and hit my head on the wall. Kind of funny, really.”

She sent him an adorable crooked smile and his heart squeezed even tighter. He grasped her wrist to lift her palm from her forehead. “Let me see.”

“Just a bump. Not a big deal.”

“Maybe not compared to your broken wrist, but it still hurts, I bet.” He wanted to lean down and kiss the offending red lump, and drew in a deep breath to quell the urge. “Let’s get some ice on it.”

He wrapped his arm around her back to help her up, and realized she was having trouble standing.

“You hurt your leg, too?”

“No. I just... I couldn’t get my stupid pants pulled up using only one hand while sitting on the floor.”

He lifted her to her feet. “Hang on to the sink while I finish pulling them up so you can walk.”

“This is ridiculously embarrassing,” she said, her face now stained pink and no longer smiling. “My ex-husband having to pull up my pants.”

“Just think of me as your doctor. Not a big deal.”

Logically, it shouldn’t be. But the truth...? The sight of the smooth skin of her thighs, of her round rear peeking out from beneath her panties and all the memories it conjured, made him want to tug those pants down, not up, and touch her and kiss her until neither of them could breathe.

He gritted his teeth and pulled up the sweatpants as fast as possible, before lifting her into his arms to move them toward the sofa. The scent of her wafted to his nose and he breathed her in. Who’d have thought the woman could smell so good after being in surgery and then Recovery half the day? But it wasn’t perfume, it was simply her, and he remembered it so well it seemed they’d been holding one another just yesterday.

Damn it.

“I can walk,” she protested.

“Yes, but this is easier and faster, and there’s no risk of additional injury.” He sat her on the sofa again. “I’ll get some ice for your head, then you can have some soup.”

“I don’t need ice. It’s just a little lump.”

“Trust the doctor. You need to ice it.”

“I see Dr. Bossy is alive and well.”

Her pretty lips tipped into a smile as she rolled her eyes and the tightness in his chest loosened. He had to grin, remembering all the times she’d given him that look.

“I consider the nickname Dr. Bossy to be a compliment. Where are your plastic bags?”

“In the second drawer, next to the refrigerator.”

Once a bag was filled with ice and wrapped in a towel he sat close beside her. Slipped strands of hair away from the bruise before he placed the bag on it. Their eyes met and he nearly forgot to place the bag on her injury, wanting so much to kiss her instead.

“That’s cold!”

Thank God for that distraction.

“Ice generally is cold. It’ll help with the swelling and make it feel better.”

“Yeah, well, right now my forehead hurts way more from the ice than the bruise.”

“Once your skin is numb it won’t hurt anymore.”

“Says the surgeon who lies to his patients about pain every day.”

“Lies to my patients? I never lie. I may downplay what they’re going to experience so they don’t freak out, but I never lie.”

“You forget I’ve heard you talk to patients when they’re in occupational therapy.” Her voice went into a bass tone. “Well, sir, your bones are healing nicely and the ligaments are stretching out well. In no time your fingers are going to be playing the piano again. You don’t play piano? Well, because of my magical surgical skills now you will.”

He had to laugh at her words and her cutely ridiculous expression. “I don’t believe I’ve ever said that to a patient.”

“No? I do sometimes. It’s an occupational therapy joke that most people enjoy.”

“And that’s one of the many reasons why your patients think you’re wonderful.”

He knew they did. Her numerous thank-you notes and high patient satisfaction scores proved that. He’d always thought she was pretty wonderful, too, even though she hadn’t believed it.

“Feeling any less painful?”

“Um...yes, actually.”

He watched her lids slide closed and held himself very still so he wouldn’t stroke her soft cheek or lean in to kiss her, which he suddenly wanted to do more than he wanted to breathe.

“Thank you. I’ll take over holding it now.” Her hand covered his on the ice before he slid his away.

“I’ll warm your soup. Which do you want—chicken noodle or tomato basil?”

“I love both—as you know.” She opened her eyes and turned to him, her expression serious. “I appreciate all this. I do. It’s... awkward me being here with you, and I know it’s awkward for you, too. I’m sorry about that. But I realize you were right. You bringing me home was lots better than trying to have my neighbor do it. She wouldn’t have been able to steady me the way you did. Or pick me up off the floor and bring me food, and walk the dogs and all. So thank you.”

“No thanks necessary. I...we might not be together anymore, but I’ll always care about you.”

And the truth of that made his throat close and sent him to the kitchen to busy himself and get her some food before he showed her exactly how much he still cared.

He helped her move to one of the two chairs at the tiny table placed at one end of the living room. “You comfortable enough to eat here? Or do you want to sit in your armchair and drink the soup from a mug?”

“This is okay. Smells wonderful.”

“I’ll take the dogs out again while you eat. Don’t try to get up until I get back, promise? We won’t be gone long.”

She nodded, and he escaped with an urge to kiss the top of her head before he went, as he often had when he’d left for work or meetings in the past.

The dogs were excited to be outside again, and he wondered how often Jill had to walk them. Did she take them on her runs sometimes? Probably only Hudson would be up for that. Yorkie might have a big attitude, but there was no way his short little legs could handle the miles Jill logged.

Probably he should keep the dogs out longer, but he felt an uncomfortable niggle, worrying about Jill and how she was doing all alone, and hurried back after only about twenty minutes.

Seeing her still sitting at the table when he nudged open the door had him smiling in relief.

“I see you’re being a good patient.”

“Did you doubt me?”

The smile she sent back held a hint of the mischievous Jill he’d adored.

“I’m limiting myself to one event per day of finding myself on the floor.”

“How about trying for zero events? The first one about gave me a heart attack.”

“I’m still sitting here, aren’t I? By the way, Kandie called and she said she can stop by after work tonight to check on me, see if I need anything. How would you feel about taking the dogs to your place until Briana gets here? I mean, I know you’re super-busy, but you can hire a dog walker to take them out while you’re at work. It...it wouldn’t be for long.”

How much he didn’t want to leave her or the dogs shocked him, and his feet seemed rooted to the floor even as he’d been thinking about how difficult it was to be here with her.

“Is Kandie spending the night?”

“No, of course not. She has a young son, and there’s no reason for her to do that.”

“Post-op orders are for you not to be alone tonight.”

“I feel okay. Barely woozy from the pain meds now. I’ll be fine.”

“Is the woman who just fell in the bathroom actually saying this?” He stared at her. “You’ll need to take meds when you go to bed, to help with the pain when the block wears off. And what if you fall again with nobody here?”

“That’s not going to happen.”

“It did happen—and, since you’re a smart woman, you know that’s not something you can assume.”