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“Trail riding,” he said, “was my wife’s business.”
In other words, apart from the ranch.
“She decorated this building, did the booking.” He looked around. “No one’s stayed here in fifty-five months.”
Since she died. Rachel would be the first. A woman he didn’t want on his ranch, a woman he certainly didn’t want sleeping in his wife’s dollhouse.
Rachel wanted to say “I’m sorry” but in light of why she was here, the words felt phony. Story be damned, this cottage was exactly what her son needed. “Charlie,” she said, “wait for me at the main house, okay?”
“Why?”
“Because I need to speak with Mr. Ash a moment.”
Her son darted a look at the man, worry in his blue eyes. “You gonna be long?”
“No.” She fiddled with his wool hat, tucked the tiny ’Vette into his pocket. “A minute. Now go on. I’ll be right behind you.”
She waited until her son slipped out the door, then turned to the man with his hands on his hips. “I don’t know what happened in the accident that took your wife’s life and I can only imagine the loss you suffered. But I assure you I won’t change or damage anything in this building or on your ranch. And I will continue looking in town for a more permanent place. As soon as I find one, we’ll be gone.”
“Don’t you mean once you’ve finished interviewing Tom?”
For a moment, silence. “Why didn’t you warn him?”
“That you’re here because of a Vietnam kick?”
“I’m here because my son needs a decent place to live.”
One brow rose slowly. “You going maternal on me, Ms. Brant?”
“It’s the truth.”
He laughed softly. “Now there’s an interesting word coming from a reporter.”
She wouldn’t back down. “You haven’t answered my question.”
“Tom handles his own battles.”
In other words, handicaps did not make a man less a man.
She sighed. “I’m unsure why you dislike me so much. Is it because I work for a newspaper, or is it me personally?”
“Who said I dislike you?”
His hot tea eyes speared her heart, ran a current down her thighs. She saw his desire, saw him fight the emotion.
Her nerves smoothed. Whether he liked it or not, his attraction to her was as true as the air they breathed.
Linear brows lowering, he moved closer. “Cat got your tongue?”
She stepped back. “I think I should go.”
Remaining alone with him hadn’t been a good idea. Rough Montana terrain, fifteen-hundred-pound horses and thousand-pound cows had crafted his body.
But she had observed his expression with his daughter, when he thought of his wife.
Something in her eyes had him suddenly turning for the door. “Inez, our housekeeper, will clean the place over the next few days. I’ll call you when it’s ready.”
“Ash…”
Head down, back to her, he waited. In that second, she wanted to touch him. Just a touch. A palm to his spine, easing the stress she sensed churning under his skin.
“You’re a kind man. I’m very—Thank you. For everything.”
His shoulders heaved a sigh. “Best get back to your boy.” Opening the door, he strode into a thick, lazy snowfall.
Tom was at the kitchen table with Daisy and Charlie, drinking hot cocoa, when Ash returned from the cottage, Rachel in tow. Seeing his stepfather in that chair, so mangled…and then for her to head back to town without a hint, without honesty…. Ash frowned. It wasn’t right.
He shot Rachel a look. Honesty is best up front.
Clever woman read his thoughts. Directly to Tom, she said, “Mr. McKee, as I mentioned on the phone the other day, renting the guesthouse isn’t the only reason I’m here.”
On her forehead sweat poked from her skin as if she’d sat for an hour in a sauna. “I’m freelancing for a magazine on the East Coast, as well as working at the town paper.”
“A magazine?”
“Yes, American Pie. It’s like The New Yorker. I’m doing a series. It’s about…”
She was nervous, Ash realized. A journalist nervous about a story. Interesting.
“It’s about survivors. From Hells Field.”
Tom scrutinized the woman for a long moment, eyes and face rigid as stone. Deep in the house, the cuckoo clock chimed the half hour. “What for?”
She leveled her shoulders. “Because it was one of the most controversial battles in that war. And you—you were the leader of a platoon of nineteen Marines of which only seven survived.”
A hush fell. Ash imagined angsty commotion in her mind as she waited: Tom would tell her to leave. He’d sic those cattle dogs on her the minute she and Charlie stepped outside. And Ash, family defender, would chase her car on his horse all the way down the road.
Tom’s lips pulled tight. “Old news. Fact is, the more years between, the more people forget. Better that way.”
She glanced at Ash, looking, he suspected, for support. For a split second his heart skipped and he almost stepped beside her. Then he saw Daisy, transfixed at the table, and he moved, instead, within reach of his daughter. Damn straight he was the defender of his family.
His positioning wasn’t lost on Rachel. Her gaze wove from one to the next, finally settling on Tom. “Wouldn’t you like something good to come out of all you’ve lost, Mr. McKee?”
The old man snorted. “You’re barking up the wrong tree, Missy. Ain’t got nothing to say about Nam.” The chair hummed backward before he spun around and headed toward the hallway that led to his private rooms.
“Grandpa, wait!” Daisy jumped up from the table. “I want to know about Hells Field.”
Ash moved around Rachel, blocking her view with his back. “Daisy, let it be.”
“No,” she cried. “God. You’d think that war was garbage we should throw out. People died, Dad. Over fifty thousand of them. Grandpa was there and he was wounded, and I don’t even know why or how. This isn’t just our country’s history, it’s our history. Mine!” Her tiny nostrils flared. “Just like Mom is.”
Tom wheeled down the hall. Conversation over.
“Argh,” Daisy muttered. “Stubborn old man.”
“Daisy.” Ash gentled his voice, touched her shoulder.
She shrugged him off. “You’re as bad as him. You don’t want to talk about Mom any more than he does about Vietnam. It’s like every time something bad happens, we put a lid on it. Like that’s gonna make it go away. It’s not. And neither is Mom’s death no matter how many pictures you hang.”
“Daisy Anne—” Dammit to hell.
“It’s the truth.” Tears shone in her eyes and his heart broke. “Thanks for trying, Ms. Brant. At least you got them to admit there was a Hells Field.”
Ash glared at Rachel. You hurt my family. For that, he could not forgive her.
But she surprised him again. “Sometimes—” she turned to his daughter “—it’s better to let history and the past fade. It softens the pain.”
Not an hour here and she was peering into places he’d nailed shut for years. He started for the door. “I think you should take your son and go.”
“Why this war?” Tom spoke from the hallway, surprising Ash. Though his stepfather had returned, severity thinned his lips. “Why Vietnam?”
“Because my dad was in it,” Rachel replied, giving the old man her full attention. Tom’s pupils pinpricked.
“My grampa calls it the black hole,” her son piped up.
“Hush, Charlie.”
Tom zeroed in on the kid. “Why’s that, boy?”
“Cuz a bunch of people went in it and never got out.”
“Charlie,” Rachel whispered. Her gaze scooted from Tom to Ash like a creature trapped by wolves. “We’ll be getting back to town. It’s been a pleasure, Tom. Daisy.” She refused to look at Ash.
Feeling’s mutual, lady. He reached for the door but his nose caught her perfume, a wisp of springtime.
Oh, yeah. He wanted her gone.
“Just a minute,” Tom said, halting them all. “I’ll make you a deal, Ms. Brant.” He looked at Daisy. Under grizzled gray brows, his eyes eased. “My granddaughter wants to know about the war for a school project. You help her write that story and I’ll do your interview.”
Ash gaped. “Pops—”
Tom held up a hand. “However, my son and I will read your work when it’s done, and you’ll fax it from this house so there’s no chance of changes.” His jaw was resolute, his eyes strict. “Ash can decide if he wants to rent the cottage.”
“Thank you.” Relief washed over her face.
Before Ash could interject, Tom spun his chair toward the kitchen, Daisy in tow.
God almighty, Ash thought. Was the old man losing it? Less than a week ago, he’d been resolute about his secrets. Now this?
Determined to dig out his father’s motives later, he waited by the door, watched Rachel help her son with his coat. The scene conjured up Susie with Daisy at seven and Daisy batting her mother’s hands, declaring, “I can put my coat on, Mom. I can do it.” Charlie held out his thin arms for his mother’s help.
At the top of the porch steps, she faced Ash. Her brows were dark and sweeping. A swallow’s wings.
He fisted his hands in the pockets of his jeans when the breeze caught a strand of her hair against that lilting mouth.
“I’m sorry,” she said, “for upsetting your family.”
If he pulled her against him, her head would rest against his collarbone. “Apology accepted.”
“Well.” She pulled on her gloves. “Goodbye, Ash.”
He could tell she didn’t expect to hear from him again.
“See ya.”
She walked through the snowfall to her car where Charlie petted Jinx and Pedro. A minute later, her Sunburst drove from the Flying Bar T and the dogs crept back under the porch.
From the office window, Tom watched Ash stride across the snowy yard. The dogs rushed from their hole to tag his heels. He was a good man, his stepson. A devoted father, a dedicated rancher. A proud man.
And upset with Tom’s decision about the interview.
Why? Ash had asked once Rachel had driven back to Sweet Creek. Why, after all these years, would Tom spill his guts to a journalist? Why not simply write it down—if he wanted Daisy to know?
What Ash didn’t understand, Tom mused, was that Rachel Brant held the key. She would unlock the past. Tom’s, Ash’s and, most of all, her own.
Tom could take it all to the grave. But she’d come, she’d come and—God help him—he could not pass up the opportunity.
Thirty-six years was long enough to live in silence. Hell, the five years following Susie was long enough.
Ash hadn’t liked Tom’s saying they needed to move on. Sure, moving on from Susie was his son’s decision to make, like moving on from Hells Field was Tom’s, but sometimes a man had to give his kid a push. Tom didn’t want Ash boarding up the pain for decades, or having it fester the way it could.
He hoped Ash rented the cottage to Rachel. For Daisy’s sake—and the boy’s—he hoped, even though Rachel’s questions would dredge up heartbreak like sludge out of a Texan oil well.
The snow fell harder. Every day Ash cleaned the walkways so Tom could wheel to the barns, see the new calves. And, dammit, that held a pain all its own.
He remembered a past he wanted to forget.
He dreamed a past he wanted to forget.
They had lived long enough in a house of mourning. Susie’s pictures everywhere collecting dust. The cottage sitting empty and cold. The summer trail riding business lying fallow.
A half decade of walking around in silence, fearing that one word, one name would break a heart again and again.
Silence couldn’t mend anguish. It couldn’t sew shattered legs and arms back onto a body. It couldn’t erase memory.
Tom knew.
Rachel Brant would change their lives and in doing so change her own. Ah, but she had her mother’s height, her eyes. And her father’s mouth and hair.
