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The sea cook spoke with a Liverpool accent and it made Keth think of Daisy.
‘Whatever is going, thanks.’ It would all taste the same.
‘Mustard on your beef?’ The cook was buttering large slices of bread.
‘Please.’ The man was trying to be kind, Keth thought; sorry for the poor stupid sod they would soon put ashore. Rather him than me, mate!
Keth carried the plate to his bunk. He would never forget this bunk nor the fuggy, blankety smell of it. It had been his womb and soon now they would cut the umbilical cord.
‘They’re looking after you, then?’ Selene’s skipper, wearing canvas pumps, creased trousers and a navy-blue sweater, appeared. ‘You’re okay?’
‘Fine.’ He was not fine.
‘We’ll go further inshore about midnight when the tide turns. A leading seaman will be in charge of the dinghy. You’ll take your orders from him. He’s all right – done it before.’
‘Good,’ Keth shrugged.
‘Sparks has just had a signal from your lot. Everything’s okay at this end. No problems.’
Keth thought about Castle McLeish and the stone house. Of course there would be no problems. How could there be? Slab Face did not tolerate problems.
‘You’ve got your stuff handy, Captain?’
‘Ready and waiting.’ One suitcase; one brown paper carrier bag.
‘And you’ll go through your pockets beforehand? No duty-free cigarettes …?’
‘I don’t smoke.’
‘Nor submarine lollies?’ The lemon-flavoured sweets a submariner sucked when cigarettes were forbidden.
‘Nothing at all like that, but I’ll check.’
‘I’ll leave you then. You’ll want to get your head down for a couple of hours.’
‘Might be an idea. Thanks a lot.’ Sleep? Oh, no!
Think of Daisy, then? No, no, no!
Think instead of dit-da-dit, and hibou and hirondelle; think of Gaston Martin and the leading seaman who had done it before.
He chewed on his sandwiches. They were tasteless and hard to swallow.
All at once, Keth wanted it to be midnight.
‘I thought you’d be alone.’ Julia offered a spoonful of tea in a twist of paper. ‘Tom home-guarding again? Put the kettle on, there’s a love.’
‘You on your own too? Is Nathan out then?’
‘About the Lord’s business. I suppose you’ve got to accept that when you marry a parish priest.’
‘Tell me,’ Alice arranged cups on a tray, ‘I’ve often wondered: what’s going to happen when the war is over – to you and Nathan, I mean? When he took holy orders he couldn’t have known he’d inherit Pendenys.’
‘No. Nor half of his mother’s money either. But when it’s all over and the Army give back Pendenys, I’ll worry about it. I couldn’t live there, not for anything!’
‘Drew’s going to want Rowangarth,’ Alice persisted.
‘I know. He and Kitty living there will make me feel better about leaving it. I suppose Nathan and I could live in the bothy – when the land girls go home,’ she said absently.
‘Had you thought –’ Alice filled the small earthenware pot, ‘there’ll be a second-generation Clan for you. Drew’s children, I mean, and Daisy’s.’
‘And Bas and his brood.’ Julia’s eyes took on a yearning look. ‘Coming over every summer and Christmas …’
‘Bas isn’t married yet. Give the lad a chance!’
‘He will be,’ Julia smiled smugly. ‘And talking about courting – Tilda’s got a follower!’
‘What? Our Tilda?’
‘Oh my word, yes! Name of Sydney. She met him in Catchpole’s garden. He’s with the Green Howards, guarding Pendenys – and he’s single, would you believe! His father was killed in the last war and he looked after his mother till she died two years ago.’
‘Then here’s to Tilda and Sydney.’ Alice raised her teacup. ‘She was always a romantic; always had her nose in a love-book, as Mrs Shaw called them. I’m glad for her – even if nothing comes of it. Tilda was very kind to me when I came home from France – till Miss Clitherow put her foot down, that was.’
‘But wasn’t everyone kind?’
‘Not exactly. I’d been a servant at Rowangarth, like themselves. You couldn’t blame them for being a bit wary – Miss Clitherow, especially. She put me very firmly in my place. I was no longer Alice Hawthorn; I was the future mistress of Rowangarth. But how is Miss C? Haven’t seen her lately.’
‘Her rheumatism is bad – and it’ll get worse when winter comes. When she came back from Scotland I thought she’d be just fine in one of the almshouses, but now I think she’ll be better staying at Rowangarth – after all, she’s got every right. She’s lived there longer than I have. But what news of Daisy?’
‘She’s fine. Had a letter this morning. Drew rang her. You’ll know Kitty has gone to London?’
‘Mm. Another for Sparrow to fuss over.’
‘Daisy was a bit puzzled. Said Keth’s letters are arriving all higgledy-piggledy; completely out of date order. But maybe some of them were posted in Kentucky, she thought.’
‘Probably. Amelia is always glad to see Keth. And I still think he’ll get home sooner than anyone expects.’
‘Doing a Jinny Dobb, are you?’ Alice laughed. ‘By the way, Daisy has written her first cheque! Made her go all over queer, she said.’
‘What did she buy?’
‘Nothing, it seems. She thought about all that money in the bank and nothing in the shops to buy, so she drew out five pounds; just about as much as the Wrens pay her in a month! She’s taking Lyn out when she gets back from leave, she says.’
‘I liked Lyndis,’ Julia murmured, ‘what bit I saw of her, I mean.’
‘But you like Kitty better?’
‘Kitty is adorable! I shall hand Rowangarth over to her with never a qualm.’ She jumped to her feet as the dogs outside set up a barking. ‘There’s Tom back, and just look at the time! Eleven o’clock.’
‘Watch the blackout, love,’ Alice called as Tom stomped into the kitchen in his army-issue boots. ‘And see Julia home, will you?’
‘No! I’ll be fine, thanks all the same. There’s an almost full moon tonight.’
‘Aye. It’s grounded the bombers. Bright as daylight, out there. But I’ll walk you as far as the wild garden, Julia.’ Tom didn’t hold with a woman walking alone in Brattocks Wood; not even when moonlight made a mockery of the blackout.
‘Mind the leaves.’ Tom offered his arm. ‘They’re falling thick and fast, now. It’s slippy underfoot, tonight.’
‘I wonder if that man in the moon knows there’s a war on.’ Julia looked upwards.
‘Not if he’s got any sense he won’t,’ Tom laughed, offering a hand as she climbed the stile. ‘Good night, lass.’
‘’Night, Tom.’ She reached on tiptoe to kiss his cheek then ran swiftly across the lawn, turning to wave as she reached the side door because she knew he would stand there until he saw her safely in. Briefly she closed her eyes.
‘Thank you, God,’ she whispered, ‘for Tom and Alice.’
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‘Ten past ten,’ Daisy said as they stood outside Hellas House. ‘Shall I go in now, or shall we hang on till half-past?’
‘Not in any hurry, are you? I’d like a chat.’
‘We’ve been chatting all evening, Drew!’
‘Yes, but not about –’
‘Not about Lyndis? She’s on leave – but you know that.’
‘I know she’s on leave, Daiz. You wouldn’t be out with me otherwise.’
‘No. Not like the old days.’ Not when once he always took them both out, Daisy brooded, and Lyn had fallen badly for him. ‘Seems awful that you and I can’t meet as much as we’d like to, but I’ve got to think about Lyn’s feelings.’
‘I know. And I liked her a lot. If Kitty hadn’t happened along, I should think the three of us would still be going out together every time we dock.’
‘You’re missing Kitty, aren’t you? Poor love – I do know how it is. But London isn’t Washington. You’ll see her soon.’
‘On my next long leave, I suppose. Hope she can get time off. I’ll go to London if she can’t, though I’d rather go home to Rowangarth. I miss it, Daiz.’
‘Well, you can’t have it all ways! And surely ENSA will give Kitty leave? After all, you’ve got a wedding to arrange. But it’s Lyn you want to talk about, isn’t it? And you’d best be sharp; I’ll have to be in, soon.’
‘How is she, Daiz? I’m not so big-headed as to think she’ll have gone into purdah over me when she could have any bloke she wanted.’
‘Except Drew Sutton.’ Daisy set her mouth button-round.
‘I’m sorry about that. The Rowangarth Suttons seem good at it – falling heavily and suddenly, I mean.’
‘And what would have happened if Kitty hadn’t come along? Be honest, Drew.’
‘It would have been Lyn, I’m almost sure. There was something holding me back, though.’
‘Someone called Kitty. And Lyn didn’t just like you, Drew. She was mad about you. I think she still is, though she’s getting good at pretending she isn’t.’
‘I wouldn’t have hurt her, Daiz. Not for anything.’
‘You mean you wouldn’t have deliberately hurt her? I know that, but you did, Drew, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it.’
‘You can be quite bossy when you set your mind to it!’
‘Sister’s privilege. And I’m as sad about it as Lyn is because I like Lyn and Kitty – and you, too, you great soft ha’p’orth. I’m piggy-in-the-middle, I suppose. But c’mon, bruv; give me a hug and a kiss.’
‘I’ve enjoyed tonight.’ He circled her in his arms, laying his cheek on hers. ‘Take care of yourself. See you.’
‘You too, Drew Sutton. When are you sailing?’
‘Morning tide. And remember to say hi to Keth for me, next time you write.’
‘I’ll do that. Careful how you go, sailor. Be lucky.’
She stood at the gate of Hellas House until he rounded the corner. He didn’t turn and wave. Sailors never did. They never said goodbye either.
Her eyes filled with tears; not for Drew nor Lyn nor Kitty but for herself, because she loved Keth so much and wanted him so desperately.
Take care of Keth, won’t you – and Drew? she pleaded silently. And God – when is this war going to end?
‘I really must get this lot cut.’ Tatiana wound strands of hair round her finger, pinning them flat to her head. ‘Yours suits you short, Kitty.’
‘Mm. Easy to look after, too. When you’re out on the road there never seems to be a hairdresser around.’
‘That’s because a lot of them have been called up,’ Tatiana laughed. ‘Shampooing hair isn’t regarded as war work exactly!’
‘Guess you’re right.’ Sighing deeply, Kitty lay back on her bed, hands behind head. ‘We’re going to Norfolk tomorrow, doing a show for the Air Force, there. Then after that we’ll be in Scotland. Some godforsaken place called Scapa.’
‘Scapa Flow. We’ve got a lot of ships, there.’
‘But not a minesweeper called HMS Penrose. Oh heck, Tatty! I’m sorry! I shouldn’t have said that. I’ve been trying like mad not to mention Drew. You know I wouldn’t hurt you for all the world, don’t you?’
‘I know. And, Kitty – I want you to talk about Drew. I don’t know how you can not talk about him. I used to talk to Daisy and Gracie all the time about Tim. They’d alibi me so I could meet him, you see.’
‘Y’mean you never took Tim home? Why ever not?’
‘Because Mother was like that. I suppose it’s the Russian in her; overprotective. And as for the Petrovska! Well, only a Romanov would have been good enough for me – if they’d never left St Petersburg, that is, and if that rabble hadn’t murdered the Czar-God-rest-him.’ She crossed herself devoutly, fluttering her eyelids, mimicking her grandmother. ‘But I wanted Tim the minute I saw him.’
‘Guess it was like that for Drew and me too. We’d grown up together – well, twice a year together, kind of – and then, after five years we meet at a crummy dockyard concert and Wham! Both of us! Suppose I realized it first. Drew was mad at me for showing too much. But what the heck – I was wearing a borrowed costume!
‘Guess there was a lot of me oozing out,’ she giggled, ‘but the other sailors just loved it! Drew was real mad at me, though, and said I was common, so I said I was sorry and all at once it came right.’
‘And was it marvellous, like for me and Tim?’
‘We-e-ll, Drew was a bit sniffy, but it was only because he didn’t like those sailors ogling me. In the end we went back to my digs. That was when we decided we’d fallen in love.’
