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“Mommy, look!”
The little girl’s voice was excited, happy. She appeared in the doorway, a large piece of paper in her hand. It appeared to be a drawing of some kind.
“The nice lady gave me markers. An’ a big piece of paper. So I could draw a picture.”
“Bless her for putting a smile back on your face,” Jolie said softly.
“It was a dog,” the child said, pointing. “But it got too big. So it’s a horse.”
“I can see that.”
T.C. watched this exchange with every effort at detachment. He failed miserably. Memories of the baby he’d held—rather inexpertly—who had smiled up at him and cooed, reached out and touched his cheek with seeming fascination, threatened to swamp him. And then he again noticed the Band-Aid on her neck, finally connected it with the story Jolie had told him, and nausea roiled his gut.
“Can I show your friend?” the little girl asked.
“Emma, no, I—”
It was too late; the child was already running toward him, confident, happy, the nightmares behind her for the moment. His first thought was what a good job Jolie had done with her daughter. His second was utter panic.
“See?” Emma plopped her slightly crooked drawing down on his desk. He saw the bits of red, black and green on her hands, which he guessed corresponded to a couple of smudged spots he noticed on the drawing.
“I...yes.”
“He’s eating grass. ’Cuz that’s what horses do.”
“Yes, they do,” he said, wondering if he sounded as awkward as he felt. The girl was busy explaining all the features of her drawing, and he caught himself just watching her rather than the paper she was pointing to. He could see traces of the baby he’d known, in the round cheeks, the sunny blond hair, the gray eyes. Her mother’s eyes...
“And he’s got big spots.”
T.C. focused suddenly on the drawing. His first thought was that it wasn’t actually too bad, even if it consisted mostly of squares and circles cobbled together over four stick legs, the animal was recognizable as a horse, although crooked and out of proportion. But she’d caught details that surprised him, like the slope of the pasterns and the presence of hooves. Wasn’t that a bit advanced for a kid not yet five years old? Maybe Hannah had helped her a bit, he thought. She’d been quite the horsewoman in her day, and still rode regularly.
He looked back at Emma. The child’s brow was furrowed in concentration. “I saw a horse like that.”
He smiled despite himself, and looked back at the drawing. And belatedly it hit him.
Flash.
He stared. Coincidence, surely? The green highlighter grass and the lopsided red pen square he guessed was a barn, that could have come from anywhere, but a piebald paint horse? She’d only had markers to use, so a black-and-white horse wasn’t unexpected, was it? He doubted Hannah’s collection ran to shades of brown.
But that didn’t change the fact that his own personal mount, the horse he rode most often at the ranch—and had ridden when Jolie and Emma had lived there—was a black-and-white pinto.
“It does look like Flash, doesn’t it?” He hadn’t even realized Jolie had returned until she spoke, from barely two feet away. “I don’t think she could really remember, she was so young, but who knows? She’s a very bright girl.”
Could she really still read him so easily? With an effort he managed to say evenly, “And not a half-bad artist. I was expecting stick figures.”
“The lady helped a little,” Emma said honestly. “How their feet go.”
Oddly T.C. felt relieved at this confirmation of his guess. “Not quite a child prodigy, then.”
“Thank goodness,” Jolie said, echoing his relief, rattling him yet again. “Bright I can handle. Genius would be something else altogether.”
“She’s...” He didn’t know what to say. Polite? Charming? Enchanting?
“Yes,” Jolie said, proudly. “She is.”
Emma picked up her drawing and looked at it with childlike satisfaction. “I was gonna draw the mean lady. Like the policeman wanted. But I don’t want to.”
And just like that the elephant in the room trumpeted, and T.C.’s stomach knotted at the thought of this child in danger. He’d been able to dodge this when the child wasn’t right here in front of him, had been able to focus instead on her mother, and how much pain she’d caused. But now, with that sweet, innocent face right here, with those wide eyes, still trusting despite what had happened, the thought of something happening to her was more than he could take. Helplessness was not a feeling he was used to or tolerated well, and he’d had more than enough of it in the last few months.
He might have lost his father and been unable to do anything about it, but he could do something about this.
Telling himself he simply couldn’t leave a child—any child—in danger when he could help, he made a rare, snap decision.
He stood up. “Come with me.”
Jolie blinked, probably at the edge in his voice. “What?”
“You asked for help.”
“Yes, but—”
“Don’t quibble now.”
“Mommy?” Emma asked, very clearly uncertain.
T.C. moderated his tone as he looked down at the girl, who was clutching the drawing in one hand, the other firmly in her mother’s grasp.
“It’s all right, Emma,” he said gently; whatever his feelings about her mother were, no reason to frighten the child any more than she already was. “Would you like to see a real horse that looks like that?”
He heard Jolie’s quick intake of breath but kept his eyes on the little girl, who suddenly smiled at him, a wide, dimpled smile that made him a different kind of helpless. And there she was for an instant, that tiny being who had once giggled at him with delight, filling him with emotions he hadn’t even had names for. The memories, the hopes, the plans for a future that included this child flooded his brain, and even the pain and anger of Jolie’s desertion couldn’t overwhelm it.
Emma nodded enthusiastically, then looked at her mother. “Can we, Mommy? Please?”
He lifted his gaze to Jolie. Found her staring at him.
“It’s what you came for, isn’t it?” he asked.
Slowly she nodded. “But I thought you...”
Her voice trailed away, but not before he heard the doubt, and an echo of the fear he’d heard before. She’d known that five minutes ago his answer was no, that he would have let her go without a second thought, after what she’d done.
All that had changed the moment a sunny, innocent little girl had plopped a childish drawing on the desk where he did work that helped shape this city.
And he gave Jolie the one answer that trumped all the others.
“For her,” he said softly.
Chapter 7 (#ulink_dd2d296e-5bfa-5789-8f3b-28338a968189)
It was amazing how different, how much better it felt, just to be doing something. Although to be honest, it was T.C. who was doing it, she felt as if she were simply riding along in his wake. And right now she was willing to do that, because she knew better than anyone what he was capable of accomplishing. How many hours had she spent while Emma was in the children’s section at the library, doing internet searches on him, reading about his progress up the Colton ladder? How many voices she knew and respected—including the governor, who had complimented her—had said they’d much rather deal with the tough but honest and straightforward Colton than his brother Fowler?
She’d finally weaned herself off the compulsive research—it hurt too much. Telling herself she’d had no choice only carried her so far. And no amount of rationalizing changed the bottom line: she’d abandoned what they had for money. And T. C. Colton was a bottom-line kind of guy.
“Did you drive here?” he asked as he led them toward the elevator after stopping for a brief conversation with the apparently unflappable Mrs. Alcott. Telling the woman to cancel appointments, rearrange his day?
“No. My car’s at home. The CBD officer dropped us off here when I asked him to.”
He gave her a sideways look. “You’ve been with the police all night?”
“Since it happened.”
“I took a nap in the big man’s office,” Emma said happily.
Jolie laid a hand on her daughter’s head. “Yes, you did. The lieutenant was very nice, wasn’t he?”
“And Mom,” T.C. said, eying her, “got no sleep at all, I’m guessing.”
“I slept before.”
“Mommy slept in the big chair, so she could see me,” Emma confided. Rather inanely, Jolie was glad she’d never spoken to the child about him, the way she was now burbling about everything.
“I’ll bet she did,” he said. He gave the child his full attention when he spoke to her. She liked that. Most adults talked over her, not realizing Emma was exceedingly bright and understood more than they expected. “She wanted to be right there if you needed her.”
“Mommy’s always there when I need her.”
He shifted his gaze back to Jolie. He spoke quietly. “All anyone needs to know.”
They were in the elevator and headed down before Jolie’s weary brain got around to wondering where they were going.
“What...?” she began, then faltered, unsure of what to say. She’d asked for his help, after all, and he’d miraculously agreed; she shouldn’t be questioning him.
“We’ll pick up what you need from home, for both of you, for a few days,” he said. “Leave your car there, so it’s not obvious you’re gone. Then we’ll head to the ranch.”
“Oh.”
“Second thoughts” was hardly the description for what she was feeling as he took charge. She was up to at least a dozen reasons why this had been a bad idea by the time the elevator doors slid open in the subterranean parking garage. No one was going to welcome them, the opposite in fact. His mother would probably pitch a fit laced with high drama, Fowler would sneer and that nasty Marceline would be cutting and cruel as always. Another half brother, Zane, was much nicer, and although the big man was intimidating, Jolie had always thought of him as fair. But then, she’d always thought his full brother, Reid, had been a good guy, and he’d left the Dallas Police Department in disgrace over a year ago, after some corruption scandal that had ended up with his partner dead. She’d been too busy at the time to follow the case, had in fact avoided it once she realized it was truly Reid Colton involved; the last thing she needed was more in her head reminding her of T.C.
No, the only Colton sibling she’d really bonded with had been Piper, because Piper, adopted by T.C.’s parents after her mother’s death, knew what it was like to come from nothing and to always be the outsider. But even Piper would probably hate her now, for what she’d done to her brother, adoptive or not.
“Maybe...maybe this isn’t such a good idea,” Jolie began, but stopped as a car pulled up in front of them. A uniformed valet got out of the light blue SUV, a young man who looked fresh out of high school.
“Vacuumed, gassed up and ready, Mr. C,” he said, leaving the driver’s door open.
“Thanks, Jordy. How’s your dad doing?”
The young man smiled. “Lots better, thanks, Mr. C. He said to thank you for the barbecue.”
T.C. grinned at the kid. “When I was in the hospital last year, that was the thing I missed most.”
“Him, too.” Jordy walked around and opened the passenger door. He also opened the back passenger door, and Jolie saw with surprise that there was a child’s booster seat already strapped in. She flicked a glance at T.C., who only shrugged.
“Hannah is very efficient.”
“Obviously,” she said. “But you have these just sitting around, waiting?”
“Mrs. Alcott said to take it out of her car,” Jordy explained. “Her grandkids are off somewhere. Here you go, princess,” he added, smiling at Emma, who smiled back in obvious delight.
“That was kind of her to even think of it.” Jolie smiled at the young valet. “And thank you for getting it in right. I always have trouble.”
The young man grinned. “I’ve got five little brothers and sisters. I know car seats.”
Jolie smiled, but still checked the fastening herself once Emma was inside. Then she got in herself. The valet smiled back, then tapped his forehead in a salute toward T.C. and turned and left, whistling cheerfully.
“Nice guy,” Jolie said as T.C. got into the car.
“Yes. He’s a good kid. Even if he does want to be a rodeo star.”
She gave him a sideways look. “Is there a kid in Texas who hasn’t wanted that at some point?”
“Not that I know of.”
He said it lightly, and as if he didn’t remember at all telling her that being a professional calf roper had once been his highest ambition. That had engendered a lengthy discussion of the various rodeo sports, from bull riding to barrel racing, and the strength and skills required for each, which had morphed into a discussion of his dream to someday breed top-drawer cow horses.
And she realized belatedly that her protest about this perhaps not being the best idea was long past, and here she was going along as if she’d never had those second, third and many more thoughts.
He put the car in gear, and in moments they were at the driveway out onto the busy street. He gave her a questioning glance.
“Where are we going?”
She couldn’t seem to find any words, least of all the ones that would get her out of this situation she was now regretting she’d gotten into.
“We live at Cliff Park,” Emma piped up from the back seat.
Jolie nearly jumped. T.C. said nothing, but she thought his focus had suddenly sharpened. Her first thought was to hush the child, but then she wondered what she had expected. Emma was merely following her mother’s lead, so she had no reason to mistrust this man. And for all the “be wary of strangers” lessons she had given the girl, it had to be clear to even the four-year-old that this man was not a stranger. And before her mind could leap to all the ways in which he was not a stranger, she looked away from him. She didn’t want to see the expression on his face.
“It’s changed,” she said. “There are parts that are still bad, but our neighborhood is much safer.”
She stopped, realizing she was talking about the place where Emma had nearly been kidnapped, or worse.
“It’s what I can afford and still get to work in less than an hour most days.” She sounded surly even to her own ears. She tried for a more even tone. “And my place has been redone. It’s really nice.”
“Jolie.”
It was the first time he’d said her name. She suppressed the little shiver that went through her. “What?”
“I didn’t say anything about where you live.”
“You didn’t have to.”
