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"Sorr?"
"Has she had her breakfast?"
"Two, sorr."
"What?"
"Cereal and cream, omelet and toast, three oranges and a pear, and a pint of milk – "
"Good heavens! Do you want to kill the child?"
"Arrah, sorr, she'll never be kilt with feedin'! It's natural to the young, sorr – and she leppin' and skippin' and turnin' over and over like a young kid! – and how I'm to dress her in her clothes God only knows – "
"Janet! Stop your incessant chatter! Go upstairs and tell Miss Stephanie that I want her to dress immediately."
"I will, sorr."
Cleland looked at Meacham and the little faded old man looked back out of wise, tragic eyes which had seen hell – would see it again more than once before he finished with the world.
"What do you think of my little ward, Meacham?"
"It is better not to think, sir; it is better to just believe."
"What do you mean?"
"Just that, sir. If we really think we can't believe. It's pleasanter to hope. The young lady is very pretty, sir."
Cleland Senior always wore a fresh white waistcoat, winter and summer, and a white carnation in his button-hole. He put on and buttoned the one while Meacham adjusted the other.
They had been together many years, these two men. Every two or three months Meacham locked himself in his room and drank himself stupid. Sometimes he remained invisible for a week, sometimes for two weeks. Years ago Cleland had given up hope of helping him. Once, assisted by hirelings, he had taken Meacham by a combination of strategy and force to a famous institute where the periodical dipsomaniac is cured if he chooses to be.
And Meacham emerged, cured to that extent; and immediately proceeded to lock himself in his room and lie there drunk for eighteen days.
Always when he emerged, ashy grey, blinking, neat, and his little, burnt-out eyes tragic with the hell they had looked upon, John Cleland spoke to him as though nothing had happened to interrupt the routine of service. The threads were picked up and knotted where they had been broken; life continued in its accustomed order under the Cleland roof. The master would not abandon the man; the man continued to fight a losing fight until beaten, then locked himself away until the enemy gave his broken body and broken mind a few weeks' respite. Otherwise, the master's faith and trust in this old-time servant was infinite.
"Meacham?"
"Sir."
"I think – Mrs. Cleland – would have approved. Janet thinks so."
"Yes, sir."
"You think so, too?"
"Certainly, sir. Whatever you wished was madame's wish also."
"Master James is so much away these days… I suppose I am getting old, and – "
He suffered Meacham to invest him with his coat, lifted the lapel and sniffed at the blossom there, squared his broad shoulders, twisted his white moustache.
There was no more attractive figure on Fifth Avenue than Cleland Senior with the bright colour in his cheeks, his vigorous stride and his attire, so suitable to his fresh skin, sturdy years and bearing.
Meacham's eyes were lifted to his master, now. They were of the same age.
"Will you wear a black overcoat or a grey, sir?"
"I don't care. I'm going up to the nursery first. The nursery," he repeated, with a secret thrill at the word, which made him tingle all over in sheerest happiness.
"The car, sir?"
"First," said Cleland, "I must find out what Miss Stephanie wishes – or rather, I must decide what I wish her to do. Telephone the garage, anyway."
There was a silence; Cleland had walked a step or two toward the door. Now, he came back.
"Meacham, I hope I have done what was best. On her father's side there was good blood; on her mother's, physical health… I know what the risk is. But character is born in the cradle and lowered into the grave. The world merely develops, modifies, or cripples it. But it is the same character… I've taken the chance – the tremendous responsibility… It isn't a sudden fancy – an idle caprice; – it isn't for the amusement of making a fine lady out of a Cinderella. I want – a – baby, Meacham. I've been in love with an imaginary child for a long, long time. Now, she's become real. That's all."
"I understand, sir."
"Yes, you do understand. So I ask you to tell me; have I been fair to Mr. James?"
"I think so, sir."
"Will he think so? I have not told him of this affair."
"Yes, sir. He will think what madame would have thought of anything that you do." He added under his breath: "As we all think, sir."
There was a pause, broken abruptly by the sudden quavering appeal of Janet at the door once more:
"Mr. Cleland! Th' young lady is all over the house, sor! In her pajaymis and naked feet, running wild-like and ondacent – "
Cleland stepped to the door:
"Where's that child?"
"In the butler's pantry, sor – "
"I'm up here!" came a clear voice from the landing above. Cleland, Janet and Meacham raised their heads.
The child, in her pyjamas, elbows on the landing rail, smiled down upon them through her thick shock of burnished hair. Her lips were applied to an orifice in an orange; her slim fingers slowly squeezed the fruit; her eyes were intently fixed on the three people below.
When Cleland arrived at the third floor landing, he found Stephanie Quest in the nursery, cross-legged on her bed. As he entered, she wriggled off, and, in rose-leaf pyjamas and bare feet, dropped him the curtsey which she had been taught by Mrs. Westlake.
But long since she had taken Cleland's real measure; in her lovely grey eyes a thousand tiny devils danced. He held out his arms and she flung herself into them.
When he seated himself in a big chintz arm-chair, she curled up on his knees, one arm around his neck, the other still clutching her orange.
"Steve, isn't it rather nice to wake up in bed in your own room under your own roof? Or, of course if you prefer Mrs. Westlake's – "
"I don't. I don't – " She kissed him impulsively on his freshly-shaven cheek, tightened her arm around his neck.
"You know I love you," she remarked, applying her lips to the orange and squeezing it vigorously.
"I don't believe you really care much about me, Steve."
Her grey eyes regarded him sideways while she sucked the orange; contented laughter interrupted the process; then, suddenly both arms were around his neck, and her bewitching eyes looked into his, deep, very deeply.
"You know I love you, Dad."
"No, I don't."
"Don't you really know it?"
"Do you, really, Steve?"
There was a passionate second of assurance, a slight sigh; the little head warm on his shoulder, vague-eyed, serious, gazing out at the early April sunshine.
"Tell me about your little boy, Dad," she murmured presently.
"You know he isn't very little, Steve. He's fourteen, nearly fifteen."
"I forgot. Goodness!" she said softly and respectfully.
"He seems little to me," continued Cleland, "but he wouldn't like to be thought so. Little girls don't mind being considered youthful, do they?"
"Yes, they do! You are teasing me, Dad."
"Am I to understand that I have a ready-made, grown-up family, and no little child to comfort me?"
With a charming little sound in her throat like a young bird, she snuggled closer, pressing her cheek against his.
"Tell me," she murmured.
"About what, darling?"
"About your lit – about your boy."
She never tired hearing about this wonderful son, and Cleland never tired of telling about Jim, so they were always in accord on that subject.
Often Cleland tried to read in the gravely youthful eyes uplifted to his the dreamy emotions which his narrative evoked – curiosity, awe, shy delight, frank hunger for a playmate, doubt that this wonder-boy would condescend to notice her, wistfulness, loneliness – the delicate tragedy of solitary souls.
Always her gaze troubled him a little, because he had not yet told his son of what he had done – had not written to him concerning the advent of this little stranger. He had thought that the best and easiest way was to tell Jim when he met him at the railroad station, and, without giving the boy time to think, brood perhaps, perhaps worry, let him see little Stephanie face to face.
It seemed the best way to John Cleland. But, at moments, lying alone, sleepless in the night, he became horribly afraid.
It was about that time that he received a letter from Miss Rosalinda Quest:
DEAR MR. CLELAND:
Will you bring the child out to Bayford, or shall I call to see her when business takes me into town?
I want to see her, so take your choice.
Yours truly,
ROSALINDA QUEST.
This brusque reminder that Stephanie was not entirely his upset Cleland. But there was nothing to do about it except to write the lady a civil invitation to call.
Which she did one morning a week later. She wore battle-grey tweeds and toque, and a Krupp steel equipment of reticule and umbrella; and she looked the fighter from top to toe.
When Cleland came down to the drawing-room with Stephanie. Miss Quest greeted him with perfunctory civility and looked upon Stephanie with unfeigned amazement.
"Is that my niece?" she demanded. And Stephanie, who had been warned of the lady and of the relationship, dropped her curtsey and offered her slender hand with the shy but affable smile instinctive in all children.
But the grey, friendly eyes and the smile did instantly a business for the child which she never could have foreseen; for Miss Quest lost her colour and stood quite dumb and rigid, with the little girl's hand grasped tightly in her grey-gloved fingers.
Finally she found her voice – not the incisive, combative, precise voice which Cleland knew – but a feminine and uncertain parody on it:
"Do you know who I am, Stephanie?"
"Yes, ma'am. You are my Aunt Rosalinda."
Miss Quest took the seat which Cleland offered and sat down, drawing the child to her knee. She looked at her for a long while without speaking.
Later, when Stephanie had been given her congé, in view of lessons awaiting her in the nursery, Miss Quest said to Cleland, as she was going:
"I'm not blind. I can see what you are doing for her – what you have done. The child adores you."
"I love her exactly as though she were my own," he said, flushing.
"That's plain enough, too… Well, I shall be just. She is yours. I don't suppose there ever will be a corner in her heart for me… I could love her, too, if I had the time."
"Is not what you renounce in her only another sacrifice to the noble work in which you are engaged?"
"Rubbish! I like my work. But it does do a lot of good. And it's quite true that I can not do it and give my life to Stephanie Quest. And so – " she shrugged her trim shoulders – "I can scarcely expect the child to care a straw for me, even if I come to see her now and then."
Cleland said nothing. Miss Quest marched to the door, held open by Meacham, turned to Cleland:
"Thank God you got her," she said. "I failed with Harry; I don't deserve her and I dare not claim responsibility. But I'll see that she inherits what I possess – "
"Madame! I beg you will not occupy yourself with such matters. I am perfectly able to provide sufficiently – "
"Good Lord! Are you trying to tell me again how to draw my will?" she demanded.
"I am not. I am simply requesting you not to encumber this child with any unnecessary fortune. There is no advantage to her in any unwieldy inheritance; there is, on the contrary, a very real and alarming disadvantage."
"I shall retain my liberty to think as I please, do as I please, and differ from you as often as I please," she retorted hotly.
