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A Fighting Spirit
Paul Burns
On 27 August 1979, Paul Burns's life changed for ever. Travelling through Warren Point in Northern Ireland when the IRA detonated two massive bombs, he was involved in a devastating explosion - eighteen soldiers were killed that day; Paul was one of only two who survived.Newly recruited to the Parachute Regiment, Paul was performing a tour of duty in Northern Ireland when a four-tonne truck in which he was travelling was destroyed by a massive IRA bomb. Eighteen of his friends and colleagues were killed in the Warrenpoint blast – the biggest single loss of life for the British Army during the Troubles.Paul barely survived. His body was broken. His left leg was amputated below the knee. His skin was burned down to the bone. Those who saw him wondered if it might not be kinder to let him die.At just eighteen, Paul thought his life was over. But he refused to be beaten. He had made a promise to himself that he would make up for the loss of his friends' lives by living his own life to the full.And just over five years later he was a member of the elite parachute display team, The Red Devils. In 1996 he entered the record books as a member of 'Time and Tide': the first ever disabled crew to sail around the world. Today he works as a disabled extra in tv and film – amongst his accolades he can count a role in Hollywood blockbuster Gladiator.His story is a remarkable tale of one man's determination to make the most of his life against the odds.
PAUL BURNS
A FIGHTING
SPIRIT
The inspiring story of a soldier who survived the loss
of his comrades, faced adversity and overcome it all
This book is dedicated to all those who lost their lives at Warrenpoint, Northern Ireland, on 27 August 1979, and to their families.
ANDREWS, Corporal Nicholas J. (2 Para)—aged 24
BARNES, Private Gary I. (2 Para)—aged 18
BEARD, Warrant Officer Walter (2 Para)—aged 31
BLAIR, Lieutenant Colonel David (Queen’s Own Highlanders)—aged 40
BLAIR, Private Donald F. (2 Para)—aged 23
DUNN, Private Raymond (2 Para)—aged 20
ENGLAND, Private Robert N. (2 Para)—aged 23
FURSMAN, Major Peter (2 Para)—aged 35
GILES, Corporal John C. (2 Para)—aged 22
IRELAND, Lance Corporal Chris G. (2 Para)—aged 25
JONES, Private Jeffrey A. (2 Para)—aged 18
JONES, Corporal Leonard (2 Para)—aged 26
JONES, Private Robert D.V. (2 Para)—aged 18
MacLEOD, Lance Corporal Victor (Queen’s Own Highlanders)—aged 24
ROGERS, Sergeant Ian A. (2 Para)—aged 31
VANCE, Private Thomas R. (2 Para)—aged 23
WOOD, Private Anthony G. (2 Para)—aged 19
WOODS, Private Michael (2 Para)—aged 18
Contents
Cover (#ueff186ed-b75d-52dd-a3e8-95a96dd073be)
Title Page (#ue7efeb19-e218-5bd9-a93d-31c9afd36936)
Dedication (#ub229b328-38cd-5320-bdeb-16f256440046)
Foreword
Prologue
Chapter One The Terror of Toton
Chapter Two The Maroon Machine
Chapter Three Knowledge Dispels Fear
Chapter Four Warrenpoint
Chapter Five Broken
Chapter Six Moving On
Chapter Seven A Leap of Faith
Chapter Eight Red Devil
Chapter Nine The Wrong Way Round
Chapter Ten Preparing for the Race
Chapter Eleven The Lonely Sea and the Sky
Chapter Twelve The Southern Ocean
Chapter Thirteen Sea Change
Chapter Fourteen Not Forgotten
Chapter Fifteen The Silver Screen
Acknowledgements
Copyright
About the Publisher
Foreword (#u3d276d15-a647-5f5c-aac5-fa77ede5856b)
This an extraordinary and moving story of courage and fortitude: Paul Burns, as a young soldier in the Parachute Regiment, was grievously wounded in the IRA bomb attack at Warrenpoint in Northern Ireland in 1979. He refused to let the loss of one leg and severe damage to his other foot rule his life, and went on to do so many things that might daunt fully able-bodied people: freefall parachuting, sub-aqua, motorbiking, skiing, and round-the-world sailing as a member of a disabled crew.
Paul Burns’s life is a triumph of the human spirit over adversity, and a shining example to us all, able-bodied or not. It is typical of him that he has given so much to others who have lost limbs—not least by his tremendous support to the British Limbless Ex-Service Men’s Association (BLESMA).
General Sir Mike Jackson
Prologue (#u3d276d15-a647-5f5c-aac5-fa77ede5856b)
Northern Ireland, 27 August 1979
Even the most extraordinary days start out ordinary. Today is no exception.
It’s hot. Our uniforms are stifling. The air in the back of the truck in which we’re travelling is heavy with exhaust fumes. I’m sitting at the back, my red beret perched firmly on my head, trying to get a few lungfuls of fresh air.
Elsewhere in the lorry I can hear my mates chatting. It’s just the usual army banter. They’re saying nothing of any great importance. Why would they? They don’t realize what is about to happen. None of us does.
There are only eight of us in the truck. There might have been more, but we’re laden down with boxes of ammo. Sometimes you have to be grateful for small mercies. If there had been more of us, the carnage that lies ahead would have been all the greater.
I look out of the vehicle and smile to myself. I’m just a young man, a kid from the Midlands, but already I’m seeing the world. Having an adventure. Doing what I’ve wanted to do ever since I was a child. And it’s picturesque here. Breathtaking. The kind of place that tourists come to from far and wide to take the air and recharge their batteries. A famous beauty spot. But it’s about to become famous for a very different reason.
On the left-hand side of the truck is a stretch of water, a wide estuary that separates Northern Ireland from the Republic. And, on the other side of the water, thick forest coming down to the shore. It’s impossible for any of us to know what dangers those trees are hiding. Why would we even think about it? They are far away, and in any case we are members of the Parachute Regiment. We’ve passed one of the most rigorous selection procedures in the British Army. We are young and fit, well prepared and confident. Why should we fear what may be lurking in the woods?
The lorry trundles on. The lads continue to chat.
I continue to look out of the lorry, killing time till we reach our destination, little knowing that, for so many of my friends, time is coming to an end.
The worst horrors come without warning. The most brutal shocks are those for which you are the least prepared. And although, deep down, I know what the reality of conflict is, nothing could have prepared me for what is about to happen.
We drive past a trailer parked in a lay-by and filled with bales of hay. I do not notice it because there’s nothing to notice. It’s an ordinary scene. An innocent one.
And I do not hear the bang, nor the screams that follow. I do not smell the stench of burning flesh, or witness the confusion. All I know is darkness.
It’s as though a curtain has been drawn. A curtain that signals the end of my old life, and the beginning of a new one, though what this new life will be like, nobody can say.
It is a darkness that means the lights of many lives have been extinguished. And that my own world can never be the same again.
Chapter One The Terror of Toton (#u3d276d15-a647-5f5c-aac5-fa77ede5856b)
It was a quiet, sunny day in the early part of the 1960s when my mum received the phone call.
‘Joan speaking,’ she said.
It was a neighbour, Marjorie, who lived next to our comfortable house in Toton, a suburb of Nottingham.
‘Er, Joan,’ she said. ‘Don’t panic or anything. Just nip upstairs and quietly go into the back bedroom.’
‘Why? What’s wrong?’
‘Just be quick, eh?’
So my mum put down the phone, went upstairs and opened the door to one of the bedrooms. And there she saw me. Somehow I had managed to open the window, climb into the frame, then hold onto the window itself and swing outside. I was rocking to and fro with a big smile on my face. The only problem was that I was 3 years old, and my makeshift playground was twenty feet up in the air with nothing to break my fall. Quite how Mum managed to hold it together enough to gather me in her arms and pull me back inside to safety, I don’t know. But I guess, with antics like that, it’s no surprise that my family started to call me the Terror of Toton.
That wasn’t the only time I gave my mum cause to catch her breath. Far from it, if the stories I’ve heard about my earliest years are true. Our house was in a cul-de-sac about 100 metres from the busy A52. This major road linked the north Midlands with the east of England and, even in those days, it was full of lorries and other fast-moving traffic. Not the ideal place for a toddler to go walkabout, but that’s just what I did, not long after the window incident. The Terror of Toton was found wandering across this road on the back of his treasured hobbyhorse, oblivious to the danger he was in.
Perhaps it’s a bit too much to say that as a toddler I was a free spirit. Perhaps all toddlers are free spirits, and in many ways I was no different from a lot of children. As for so many little boys, my Action Man and soldiers were always my favourite toys. And I certainly remember being taken to a playgroup in a big Victorian building and spending the whole time sitting by the exit, waiting to be collected, while all the other kids happily played nursery games. I hated being cooped up inside—I just wanted to be out in the fresh air, left to my own devices. No doubt my tendency to swing from first-floor windows or venture alone across busy main roads was a source of some anxiety for my mum and dad, but I sometimes wonder if I’ve changed so much since those very early years.
Ours was a large family. When I was born, on 25 March 1961, my oldest brother John was already 18, my oldest sister Jill 16, and my youngest sister Rosalind was 8. John and Jill were more like an uncle and an aunt than a brother and sister, and I probably couldn’t help but be inspired by them in some way. Jill became a midwife and John a policeman—both professions in which they served the community, just as I would aim to do when the time came for me to make my own choice of career.
My dad, Matt, worked for the TV company Rediffusion as an area manager and general troubleshooter. It was a good job and it meant we lived comfortably in a large, four-bedroomed house, had a nice car, and my older brother and sisters went away to private schools. But in 1965, just as my earliest memories start to take shape, disaster hit our happy, well-to-do family. Dad suffered a massive heart attack and stroke. He died, leaving Mum widowed with a 4-year-old boy and a 12-year-old girl to look after. So I barely remember my father, and those memories I do have come more from creased old black and white photographs and from what other people have told me about him than anything else.
What I do know is that my father’s death inevitably made life very difficult for Mum. Dad was eleven years older than her, and they’d married when she was 21. All her adult life he’d been there to look after her. Now she was on her own, with no real income and two kids to care for. She sold the house and we moved into a smaller one in another part of Nottingham. Mum took a part-time job at Rediffusion. She did the best she could, and in the circumstances she coped remarkably, but from that point on money was always tight.
As for me, I became an independent little thing and even as a small boy I remember feeling that I was the man of the house, with all the duties and responsibilities that came with it. I wasn’t the type of kid to talk about the sadness I felt, but although our family was large and close-knit, I was constantly aware of the hole in my life left by the death of my father. Some holes can never be filled, and I have always carried with me a sense of that early loss. I probably always will. And yet, even as a child, I knew there was no point complaining about these things. All you can do is play the hand you’re dealt and get on with your life as best you can. It was an early lesson, but it would prove to be one of the most important I ever learned.
I went to school at the local comprehensive. I suffer from dyslexia, but back then I doubt they even knew what dyslexia was—I think they just assumed I was a bit thick when it came to letters and numbers. I was a fairly enthusiastic student, though, despite all the extra lessons I had to take. I liked school, and I liked learning. But it was outside the walls of the classroom that my heart really lay.
At the end of our cul-de-sac in Toton there was an army training camp—Chilwell Depot, which is still used today as a mobilization centre for the Territorials before they go off to Afghanistan. Back then it was separated from the road by a simple chain-link fence. One of my earliest memories is of wandering to the end of the road and pressing my face up against the fence to catch a glimpse of the soldiers moving about inside. I was transfixed by the sight of their vehicles, and by the olive drab of their uniforms, which matched the clothes my Action Man wore. If I was lucky, I might spot one of them carrying a weapon. And, like any other boy, I was addicted to the war movies and cowboy films that were so popular at the end of the 1960s and the beginning of the 1970s. Throughout my early childhood the British Army held a fascination for me. So it was that, the very moment I was old enough to become part of the Army Cadet Force, at the age of 11, I joined up.
A bit like the Boy Scouts, the Army Cadet Force is a youth group where young lads are given a bit of structure, discipline and the chance to have quite a lot of fun. I was issued with my very own olive-drab uniform—which I always made sure was immaculate—and once a week I would attend a drill night, and occasionally we would go away on camps. The Cadet Force was tailor-made for me. Most of the adults who ran it were ex-Army, and they taught us all the things I’d been longing to know: about guns and fieldcraft; about first aid and how to use a map and compass; about signals skills and other kinds of military know-how. As a small boy, my nose pressed against the fence of the training camp in Toton, I had wondered what it might be like to be a soldier; now I was being given the opportunity to act it all out.
The Army Cadet Force was a constructive influence in my life. It was good fun and got me out of the house, of course; but it also gave me something to work for and something positive to think about. I particularly enjoyed the camps we went on. There are several of these camps dotted around the country, where a couple of hundred cadets would descend for a few days. Because all of them actively wanted to be there, and most of them tried hard to be the best at whatever they were doing, there was always a real buzz about these places. Back then, the cadet camps were made up of old wooden huts that looked like something from the Second World War. These huts contained little more than a small pot-bellied stove in the middle, with beds arranged along either side. Basic stuff, but I loved it because it gave me the opportunity to do the one thing that I enjoyed above all others, and that was being out of doors. It was thrilling to use a map and compass to move stealthily through the woods, creeping up on other people without being heard, and to build shelters what seemed like miles from civilization. I loved being close to nature, out in the wild, learning the basic fieldcraft skills that would—I imagined—allow me to survive out of doors on my own.
And, like any young boy would, I enjoyed learning how to handle a gun. We would go to proper rifle ranges, ones that real, grown-up soldiers used. It was all very exciting, even though the weapons we were given to practise on were rather old bolt-action rifles that looked like relics from the First World War. They fired reasonably large rounds, though—.303s—and for a young lad the kickback from a weapon like that was quite severe. But that didn’t matter to me. I was just thrilled to be taught how to fire a gun, just like the soldiers in the war movies. And sometimes, when we were away on camp, we were given the chance to drive tanks. Imagine it—barely a teenager and driving a tank. No wonder I loved the Army Cadet Force, and no wonder I thrived there. My boots were always highly polished, my uniform perfectly ironed and ready for inspection on drill nights. It instilled in me a lot of pride, self-discipline and self-reliance, and these are qualities that I hope have never left me. Being a cadet also bolstered my enthusiasm for all things military, and I became so obsessed with Airfix models that the ceiling of my bedroom started to resemble the Battle of Britain. And it meant that even when he was very young, the Terror of Toton had his sights firmly set on a career in the British Army.
The Parachute Regiment was born on 22 June 1940, but the British Army was late to the party in terms of military parachutists. As early as 1927 the Italians were developing a military parachuting unit; in 1936 the Soviet Army countered an Afghan invasion of Tajikistan using airborne soldiers; and, in the early stages of the Second World War, Germany had launched devastatingly successful assaults on the Netherlands and Belgium using glider and parachute troops. Hitler’s airborne units were also crucial to the Blitzkrieg that led to the fall of France in 1940 and it was this that persuaded our Prime Minister, Winston Churchill, that Britain needed its own airborne division. In a memorandum to the Joint Chiefs of Staff, he called for a ‘corps of at least five thousand parachute troops, suitably organised and equipped’ as part of his plan for ‘a vigorous, enterprising and ceaseless offensive against the whole German occupied coastline’.
Not everybody thought Churchill was right. As a report by the Air Staff put it:
We are beginning to incline to the view that dropping troops from the air by parachute is a clumsy and obsolescent method and that there are far more important possibilities in gliders. The Germans made excellent use of their parachute troops in the Low Countries by exploiting surprise, and by virtue of the fact that they had practically no opposition. But it seems to us at least possible that this may be the last time that parachute troops are used on a serious scale in major operations.
They were overruled. A Parachute Training School was set up at Ringway airfield, near Manchester, and the men of No. 2 Commando—one of fifteen Commando units that Churchill had tasked to ‘develop a reign of terror down the enemy coast’—were selected to train with parachutes.No. 2 Commando became the 11th Special Air Battalion, before mutating into the Parachute Regiment in 1942.
The Paras’ first operation took place in February 1941, when they were dropped into Italy and destroyed the Tragino Aqueduct in Apulia. Nearer home, in early 1942 they pulled off a daring raid during which they removed vital components from a German radar installation on the Normandy coast. They were also deployed in North Africa, where the Germans dubbed them ‘Die Roten Teufeln’—the ‘Red Devils’—on account of their maroon berets. Churchill’s conviction that the British Army needed a parachute regiment was more than justified, and after the Second World War the Paras would go on to see active service in, among other places, the Far East, Aden, Cyprus, and, when I was still a teenager, Northern Ireland. They had a reputation for being some of the toughest, most fearless, most respected soldiers in the British Army.
I was about 14 when the Parachute Regiment came to Nottingham, and I knew none of this. I only knew I loved soldiers and soldiering, which was why I went to a big Army show in the Old Market Square, a large, old-fashioned space in the centre of the city. It was here that the Parachute Regiment Display Team had set up shop. Of course, I was interested in all aspects of the Army, but it was these soldiers who immediately caught my eye. There was something about them, something that set them apart from all the others. Perhaps it was their air of confidence, or perhaps it was just the way they dressed. They wore parachute smocks, for a start, and had a different sort of camouflage uniform. And, of course, they wore the famous red beret.
The Paras had erected a tower in the middle of the square. It must have been about fifty feet high—although to me at that age it no doubt looked twice that—and we were allowed to perform simulated parachute jumps from the top of it. It was by far the most exciting thing I’d ever done. The tower, I now know, was a fan descender. Kitted out in a parachute harness, you attached yourself to a cable. Down below, at the other end of this cable, was a fan that slowed your descent to a speed similar to that of a real parachute jump—about twenty feet per second. I was awed by the experience.
Long before that day I knew that I wanted to join the Army, and I knew that I wanted to be a soldier—the best solder I could possibly be—rather than a military mechanic or an engineer. And when I saw the Red Berets in the Old Market Square that day, I realized that I wanted to be in the Parachute Regiment. Whenever I mentioned it to anyone, they would suck their teeth and warn me how hard it was to get in, and how gruelling the training would be if I was accepted. The Parachute Regiment was only for the best of the best. That only made me want to join it all the more.
Still, it seemed a big step from being a teenage Army cadet to signing up with my revered Paras. But when I started what was to be my last year at school, an Army recruiting officer came to talk to us. His job was to try to persuade classrooms full of teenage kids that joining up was a great way to see the world and get a bit of excitement. I don’t know what effect his words had on my peers, but as far as I was concerned, he was preaching to the converted. I couldn’t quite believe it could all be that easy—I didn’t even have to go and ask anyone about joining the Army. They had come to me! I told the officer that I wanted to join the Parachute Regiment. No teeth-sucking from him. No words of discouragement. He just gave me a big smile and a piece of paper to sign.
Soon afterwards the Army invited me to go on an assessment course. This lasted about a week and was a bit like The Krypton Factor—a series of mental, aptitude and physical tests—but I passed easily enough and was given the green light to join the Army as a junior soldier when I left school. I was over the moon. I’d always wanted to be a soldier, and now I didn’t have to worry about what I was going to do when my schooling was over. I certainly had no worries that I was embarking upon a dangerous career. Why would I? I was only 16, and quite unaware of the realities of those conflicts that had filled the public consciousness as I was growing up, like the Vietnam War or the Troubles in Northern Ireland. I was embarking upon an adventure, and looking forward to it.
And so I joined up, along with a friend from the Army Cadet Force called Ralph—a big guy with a black belt in judo. Filled with excitement, we travelled down to Aldershot to begin our training with 30 Platoon, Junior Parachute Company, at Browning Barracks. It felt like a big step, flying the nest and joining the college-like atmosphere at Aldershot. We still had the benefit of school holidays, but now we actually earned a wage. It was a pittance really—enough to buy boot polish and toothpaste, just about—but all the same it felt good to have money in your pocket.
The emphasis at Aldershot was on sport and fitness with lots of outside activities, including trips to go canoeing, climbing and potholing all round the country. I remember camping out in the Devil’s Punch Bowl in Surrey in a foot of snow, which was just the sort of thing I loved. It wasn’t for everyone, though. Ralph dropped out after about six weeks, having decided that the disciplined environment wasn’t for him. He wasn’t the only one. A lot of people left, for a variety of reasons, but I stuck it out.
