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Dorothy Pine sat down on a circular footstool in front of the television, where Wile E. Coyote was noisily chasing the Road Runner. Her arms hung down between her knees, and tears plopped in miniature splashes onto the linoleum floor.
All those weeks Cardinal had tried to find the little girl – through the hundreds of interviews of classmates, friends and teachers, through the thousands of phone calls, the thousands of flyers – he had hoped that Dorothy Pine would come to trust him. She never did. For the first two weeks she telephoned daily, not only identifying herself every time but explaining why she was calling. ‘I was just wondering if you found my daughter, Katharine Pine,’ as if Cardinal might have forgotten to look. Then she’d stopped calling altogether.
Cardinal took Katie’s high-school photograph out of his pocket, the photograph they’d used to print all those flyers that had asked of bus stations and emergency wards, of shopping malls and gas stations, Have You Seen This Girl? Now the killer had answered, oh yes, he had seen this girl all right, and Cardinal slipped the photograph on top of the television.
‘Do you mind if I look at her room again?’
A shake of the dark head, a shudder in the shoulders. Another tiny splash on the linoleum floor. Husband murdered, and now her daughter too. The Inuit, it is said, have forty different words for snow. Never mind about snow, Cardinal mused, what people really need is forty words for sorrow. Grief. Heartbreak. Desolation. There were not enough, not for this childless mother in her empty house.
Cardinal went down a short hallway to a bedroom. The door was open, and a yellow bear with one glass eye frowned at him from the windowsill. Under the bear’s threadbare paws lay a woven rug with a horse pattern. Dorothy Pine sold these rugs at the Hudson Bay store on Lakeshore. The store charged a hundred and twenty bucks, but he doubted if Dorothy Pine saw much of it. Outside, a chainsaw was ripping into wood, and somewhere a crow was cawing.
There was a toy bench under the windowsill. Cardinal opened it with his foot and saw that it still contained Katie’s books. Black Beauty, Nancy Drew, stories his own daughter had enjoyed as a girl. Why do we think they’re so different from us? He opened the chest of drawers – the socks and underwear neatly folded.
There was a little box of costume jewellery that played a tune when opened. It contained an assortment of rings and earrings and a couple of bracelets – one leather, one beaded. Katie had been wearing a charm bracelet the day she disappeared, Cardinal remembered. Stuck in the dresser mirror, a series of four photographs taken by a machine of Katie and her best friend making hideous faces.
Cardinal regretted leaving Delorme at the squad room to chase after Forensic. She might have seen something in Katie’s room that he was missing, something only a female would notice.
Gathering dust at the bottom of the closet were several pairs of shoes, including a patent leather pair with straps – Mary Janes? Cardinal had bought a pair for Kelly when she was seven or eight. Katie Pine’s had been bought at the Salvation Army, apparently; the price was still chalked on the sole. There were no running shoes; Katie had taken her Nikes to school the day she disappeared, carrying them in her knapsack.
Pinned to the back of the closet door was a picture of the high school band. Cardinal didn’t recall Katie being in the band. She was a math whiz. She had represented Algonquin Bay in a provincial math contest and had come in second. The plaque was on the wall to prove it.
He called out to Dorothy Pine. A moment later she came in, red-eyed, clutching a shredded Kleenex.
‘Mrs Pine, that’s not Katie in the front row of that picture, is it? The girl with the dark hair?’
‘That’s Sue Couchie. Katie used to fool around on my accordion sometimes, but she wasn’t in no band. Sue and her was best friends.’
‘I remember now. I interviewed her at the school. Said practically all they did was watch MuchMusic. Videotaped their favourite songs.’
‘Sue can sing pretty good. Katie kind of wanted to be like her.’
‘Did Katie ever take music lessons?’
‘No. She sure wanted to be in that band, though.’
They were looking at a picture of her hopes. A picture of a future that would now remain forever imaginary.
7 (#ulink_42f6b8bc-e572-5236-a22a-99d487fd713c)
When he left the reserve, Cardinal made a left and headed north toward the Ontario Hospital. Advances in medication coupled with government cutbacks had emptied out whole wings of the psychiatric facility. Its morgue did double duty as the coroner’s workshop. But Cardinal wasn’t there to see Barnhouse.
‘She’s doing a lot better today,’ the ward nurse told him. ‘She’s starting to sleep at night, and she’s been taking her meds, so it’s probably just a matter of time till she levels out – that’s my opinion, anyway. Dr Singleton will be doing rounds in about an hour, if you want to talk to him.’
‘No, that’s all right. Where is she?’
‘In the sunroom. Just go through the double doors, and it’s –’
‘Thanks. I know where it is.’
Cardinal expected to find her still adrift in her oversize terry dressing gown, but instead, Catherine Cardinal was wearing the jeans and red sweater he had packed for her.
She was hunched in a chair by the window, chin in hand, staring out at the snowscape, the stand of birches at the edge of the grounds.
‘Hi, sweetheart. I was up at the reserve. Thought I’d stop in on the way back.’
She didn’t look at him. When she was ill, eye contact was agony for her. ‘I don’t suppose you’ve come to get me out of here.’
‘Not just yet, hon. We’ll have to talk to the doctor about that.’ As he got closer, he could see that the outline of her lipstick was uncertain and her eyeliner was thicker on one eye than the other. Catherine Cardinal was a sweet, pretty woman when she was well: sparrow-coloured hair, big gentle eyes and a completely silent giggle that Cardinal loved to provoke. I don’t make her laugh often enough, he often thought. I should bring more joy into this woman’s life. But by the time she had begun this latest nosedive, he had been working burglaries and was in a bad mood himself most of the time. Some help.
‘You’re looking pretty good, Catherine. I don’t think you’ll be in here too long this time.’
Her right hand never stopped moving, her index finger drawing tiny circles over and over again on the arm of the couch. ‘I know I’m a witch to live with. I would have killed me by now, but –’ She broke off, still staring out the window. ‘But that doesn’t mean my ideas are insane. It’s not as if I’m … Fuck. I’ve lost my train of thought.’
The swear word, like the obsessive circling movement of her hand, was a bad sign; Catherine didn’t swear when she was well.
‘So pathetic,’ she said bitterly. ‘Can’t even finish a sentence.’ The medication did that to her, broke her thoughts into small pieces. Perhaps that was why it worked, eventually: it short-circuited the chains of association, the obsessive ideas. Nevertheless, Cardinal could feel the hot jet of anger gushing inside his wife, blotting everything out like an artery opened in water. Both of her hands were making the obsessive circles now.
‘Kelly’s doing well,’ he said brightly. ‘Sounds practically in love with her painting teacher. She enjoyed her visit.’
Catherine looked at the floor, shaking her head slowly. Not accepting any positive remarks, thank you.
‘You’ll feel better soon,’ Cardinal said gently. ‘I just wanted to see you. It was a spur-of-the-moment thing. I thought we could have a chat. I don’t want to upset you.’
He could see Catherine’s thoughts growing heavier. Her head sank lower. One hand now covered her eyes like a visor.
‘Cath, honey, listen. You will feel better. I know it feels like you won’t just now. It feels like nothing will ever be right again, but we’ve got through this before and we’ll get through it again.’
People think of depression as sadness, and in its milder manifestations perhaps it is, but there could be little comparison between a tearful parting, say, or a sense of loss and these massive, devastating attacks Catherine suffered. ‘It’s as if I am invaded,’ she had told him. ‘It rolls into me like black clouds of gas. All hope is annihilated. All joy is slaughtered.’ All joy is slaughtered. He would never forget her saying that.
‘Take it easy,’ he said now. ‘Catherine? Please, hon. Take it slow, now.’ He put a hand on her knee and received not the slightest flicker of response. Her thoughts, he knew, were a turmoil of self-loathing. She had told him as much: ‘Suddenly,’ she said, ‘I can’t breathe. All the air is sucked out of the room, and I’m being crushed. And the worst thing is knowing what a misery I am to live with. I’m fastened to you like a stone, dragging you down and down and down. You must hate me. I hate me.’
But she said nothing now, just remained motionless, with her neck bent forward at a painful angle.
Three months ago Catherine had been bright and cheerful, her normal self. But gradually, as it often did in winter, her cheerfulness had ballooned into mania. She began to speak of travelling to Ottawa. It became her sole topic of conversation. Suddenly, it was vital she see the prime minister, she must talk sense into Parliament, she must tell the politicians what had to be done to save the country, save Quebec. Nothing could jog her from this obsession. It would start every morning at breakfast; it was the last thing she said at night. Cardinal thought he would go mad himself. Then Catherine’s ideas had taken on an interplanetary cast. She began to talk of NASA, of the early explorers, the colonization of space. She stayed awake for three nights running, writing obsessively in a journal. When the phone bill arrived, it listed three hundred dollars’ worth of calls to Ottawa and Houston.
Finally, on the fourth day, she had spiralled to earth like a plane with a dead engine. She remained in bed for a week with the blinds pulled down. At three o’clock one morning, Cardinal awoke when she called his name. He found her in the bathroom, sitting on the edge of the tub. The cabinet was open, the rows of pills (none of them in themselves particularly lethal) waiting. ‘I think I’d better go to the hospital,’ was all she had said. At the time, Cardinal had thought it a good sign; she had never before asked for help.
Now, Cardinal sat next to his wife in the overheated sunroom, humbled by the magnitude of her desolation. He tried for a while longer to get her to speak, but she stayed silent. He hugged her, and it was like hugging wood. Her hair gave off a slight animal odour.
A nurse came, bearing a single pill and a paper cup of juice. When Catherine would not respond to her coaxing, the nurse left and returned with a syringe. Five minutes later Catherine was asleep in her husband’s arms.
The early days are always bad, Cardinal told himself in the elevator. In a few days the drugs will soothe her nerves enough that the relentless self-loathing will lose its power. When that happens, she will be – what? – sad and ashamed, he supposed. She’ll feel exhausted and drained and sad and ashamed, but at least she’ll be living in this world. Catherine was his California – she was his sunlight and wine and blue ocean – but a strain of madness ran through her like a fault line, and Cardinal lived in fear that one day it would topple their life beyond all hope of recovery.
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It wasn’t until Sunday that Cardinal got the opportunity to review background material. He spent the entire afternoon at home with a stack of files labelled Pine, LaBelle and Fogle.
In a city of fifty-eight thousand, one missing child is a major event, two is an out-and-out sensation. Never mind Chief R.J. or the board of commissioners, never mind The Algonquin Lode or the TV news, it was the entire town that wouldn’t let you rest. Back in the fall, Cardinal could not so much as shop for groceries without being peppered with questions and advice about Katie Pine and Billy LaBelle. Everyone had an idea, everyone had a suggestion.
Of course this had its bright side: there was no lack of volunteers. In the LaBelle case the local Boy Scouts had spent an entire week treading step by step through the woods beyond the airport. But there were drawbacks too. The station phones never stopped ringing, and the small force had been overwhelmed with false leads – all of which had to be followed up sooner or later. The files filled up with stacks of supplementary reports – sups, as they were not very affectionately called – follow-ups on tips that led like a thousand false maps to dead ends.
Now, Cardinal sat with his feet to the fireplace and a fresh pot of decaf on the stove, weeding through the files, trying to winnow the stack of data into facts. From these solid facts, newly regarded, he hoped to extract one solid idea, one fragment of a theory – because so far he had none.
Armed Forces had graciously lent them a tent big enough to cover Windigo Island and two heaters formerly used to heat hangars for the local squadron of F-18s. Down on their knees like archaeologists, Cardinal and the others had culled the snow foot by square foot. That took most of the day, and then, turning up the heaters bit by bit, they had slowly melted the snow and examined the sodden carpet of pine needles and sand and rock that lay beneath. Beer cans, cigarette butts, fishing tackle, bits of plastic – they were buried in trash, none of it tied to the crime.
The lock had yielded no fingerprint.
This, then, was Cardinal’s first sad fact: their painstaking search had rendered not a single lead.
Katie Pine had disappeared on September 12. She had attended school that day, leaving just after the final bell with two friends. There was the initial report – a phone call from Dorothy Pine – and then there were the sups: Cardinal’s interview with Sue Couchie, McLeod’s interview with the other girl. The three girls had gone to the travelling fair that was set up outside Memorial Gardens. Cardinal set this among the solid facts.
The girls didn’t stay long. The last they’d seen of Katie, she’d been throwing balls at some bowling-pin targets, hoping to win a huge stuffed panda she’d liked the look of. It was almost as big as Katie, who was thirteen but looked eleven, tops.
Sue and the other girl had gone to a dark little tent to have their fortune told by Madame Rosa. When they came back to the ball-throwing attraction, Katie was gone. They looked around for her, couldn’t find her and decided she must have left without them. This was around six o’clock.
There was Cardinal’s interview with the young man who operated the ball-throwing game. No, she didn’t win the bear, and he hadn’t noticed anyone with her, hadn’t seen her leave. No one saw her leave. The ground, as Dyson said, had opened up.
Thousands of interviews, thousands of flyers later, Cardinal had learned nothing more about her disappearance. She had run away twice previously, to relatives in Mattawa. But her father’s drunken rages had driven her to it, and when he was dead, her running stopped. Dyson had not wanted to hear it.
Cardinal got up and put a dressing gown on over his clothes, stirred the fire in the wood stove and sat down again. It was only five, but it was already dark, and he had to switch on the reading lamp. The metal chain was cold to the touch.
He opened the LaBelle file. William Alexander LaBelle: twelve years old, four foot eight, eighty pounds – a very little kid. The address in Cedargrove was upper middle class. Catholic background, parochial school. Parents and relatives ruled out as possible suspects. History of running, though only once in Billy’s case. Never mind, it was enough for Dyson. ‘Look, Billy LaBelle is the third son in a family of high achievers. He’s not doing as well as his football-star brothers, all right? He’s not getting the grades of his high-wattage sisters. He’s thirteen and his self-esteem is in the basement. Billy LaBelle opted out, okay? The kid took a walk.’
Where the boy had taken a walk to was a matter of less certainty. Billy had disappeared on October 14, one month after Katie Pine, plucked from the Algonquin Mall, where he had been hanging out with friends. Sup reports included interviews with teachers and the three boys who had been with him at the mall. One minute he’s playing Mortal Kombat in Radio Shack (sup reports of interviews with the salesman and cashier), the next minute he says he’s going to catch the bus home. He’s the only one of the four friends who lives in Cedargrove, so he leaves by himself. No one ever sees him again. Billy LaBelle, age twelve, steps out of the Algonquin Mall and into the case files.
Dyson had given Cardinal free rein for a few weeks after Billy’s disappearance, and then the walls had closed in: no proof of murder, a history of running, other cases deserved priority. Cardinal resisted, certain that both kids had been killed, probably by the same person. Dyson on Billy LaBelle: ‘Christ, man, look at his problems. He’s got nothing going for him. My guess is he offed himself somewhere and he’ll turn up in the spring floating in the French River.’
But why were there no previous attempts? Why no obvious depression? Dyson had cupped his ear, feigning deafness.
Cardinal tossed the LaBelle file aside. He poured himself another cup of decaf and put another log into the wood stove. Sparks shot up like smithereens.
He opened the Fogle file, which contained little more than the top sheet – the facts from the initial report – courtesy of the Toronto police. I should have seen how things would go, Cardinal reflected, and perhaps he had. Dyson had been right: he had spent a lot of money, a lot of manpower. What else were you supposed to do when children vanished into thin air?
Margaret Fogle – at seventeen not really a child – had been the straw that broke Dyson’s back. A seventeen-year-old runaway from Toronto? Not high priority, thank you very much. Last seen in Algonquin Bay by her aunt. McLeod’s sup report with characteristic misspellings (where for were, ‘her parents where separated’) was in the file. The girl’s stated destination: Calgary, Alberta. ‘Which leaves half a continent and several hundred police forces responsible for finding her,’ Dyson had pointed out. ‘You hear me, Cardinal? You are not the country’s sole policeman. Let the horsemen earn their keep for a change.’
All right, give him Margaret Fogle. With her out of the equation, it seemed even clearer there was a killer at work.
‘Why do you keep saying that?’ Dyson had fumed, not conversational any more, not avuncular. ‘Molesters? Perverts? They go for boys, they go for girls, but they almost never – never – go for both.’
‘Laurence Knapschaefer went for both.’
‘Laurence Knapschaefer. I knew you’d say Laurence Knapschaefer. Too far out for me, Cardinal.’
Laurence Knapschaefer had murdered five kids in Toronto ten years previously. Three boys, two girls. One girl got away, which was how they finally got him.
‘The exception that proves the rule, that’s what Laurence Knapschaefer is. There are no bodies, therefore this is not homicide. You don’t have one scrap of evidence that it is.’
‘But even that could be taken as evidence for murder.’
‘What could?’
‘The lack of evidence. It only bolsters my theory.’ He had seen in Dyson’s cold blue gaze the doors slam shut, the bolts shoot home. But he couldn’t leave it alone, couldn’t shut up. ‘A runaway is seen – by bus passengers, ticket takers, hostel workers, drug dealers. A runaway is noticed. That’s how we find them. A runaway leaves clues: a note, extra clothes or money missing, warnings to friends. But a murdered child – a murdered child leaves nothing: no warning, no note, nothing. Katie Pine and Billy LaBelle left nothing.’
‘Sorry, Cardinal. Your reasoning is out of Alice in Wonderland.’
Next morning Cardinal had ordered a grid search – his third in six weeks – that had come up empty. That afternoon Dyson yanked him off Pine and LaBelle. Off homicide altogether for the foreseeable future. ‘Bring in Arthur Wood. He’s robbing the citizenry blind.’
‘I don’t believe this. Two missing children, and you’re putting me on burglaries?’
‘I can’t afford you, Cardinal. This is not Toronto. If you miss the big time so much, why don’t you go back there? In the meantime, you can bring me the head of Arthur Wood.’
The Fogle file landed on top of the others.
Cardinal warmed up a tourtière he’d thawed out earlier. Catherine had wheedled the recipe out of a French Canadian friend, but McLeod had tried it once and claimed they’d stolen it from his mother. It was the sage that gave them away.
He ate in front of the television, watching the news from Sudbury. The discovery of a body on Windigo Island was the lead. Grace Legault had pulled back her hood to do her standup on the island, snowflakes winking out like stars on the lion’s mane of chestnut hair. She looked a lot taller on television.
‘According to Ojibwa legend,’ she began, ‘the windigo is the spirit of a hunter who went out in winter and got lost in the icy woods, where he was forced to live off human flesh. It’s easy to believe such a legend when you set foot on this desolate island, where yesterday afternoon the body of an unidentified adolescent was discovered by a couple of snowmobilers.’
Thanks, Grace, Cardinal said to himself. We’ll be having the ‘Windigo killer’ next, or even ‘The Windigo’. Going to be a circus.
The report cut to file footage of the OPP dragging Lake Nipissing in the fall, while Legault speculated on whether the body might be that of Billy LaBelle or Katie Pine. Then they cut to Cardinal on the island acting cool and official, telling them let’s wait and see. I’m a conceited prick, he thought. I see too many movies.
Cardinal wished he could phone Catherine, but she didn’t always respond well to such calls, and she rarely called him from the hospital. I feel too embarrassed and ashamed, she told him, and it all but undid Cardinal to think that she could feel that way. Yet somewhere within that welter of feelings he was aware of a lurking anger that she could abandon him like this. He knew it was not her fault, and he tried never to blame his wife, but Cardinal was not a natural loner, and there were times when he resented being left on his own for months at a time. Then he would blame himself for being selfish.
He wrote a short note to Kelly, enclosing a cheque for five hundred dollars. With both her and Catherine gone, the house seemed way too big, he wrote, then screwed up the note and tossed it in the wastebasket. He scrawled, I know you can use this, and sealed the envelope. Daughters like their fathers to be invulnerable, and Kelly always squirmed at the least expression of feeling on his part. How strange, that someone he loved so much would never know the truth about him, never know how he had come by the money that paid for her education. How strange and how sad.
He thought about missing persons, missing kids. Dyson was right: if you crossed the country, you went through Algonquin Bay, and it was bound to get more than its fair share of runaways. Cardinal had made a separate file of top sheets from other jurisdictions: cases from Ottawa, the Maritimes, even Vancouver, that had come in over the fax within the past year.
He called the duty sergeant, horse-faced, good-hearted Mary Flower, to dig up some statistics. It wasn’t her job, but he knew Flower had a minor crush on him and she would do it. She called him back just as he was getting undressed to take a shower. Naked and goosebumped, he gripped the phone in the crook of his neck and struggled back into the sleeves of his bathrobe.
‘Last ten years, you said?’ Mary had a piercing nasal whine of a voice that could peel paint. ‘You ready?’
For the next few minutes he was scribbling numbers onto a pad. Then he hung up and called Delorme. It took her a long time to answer. ‘Hey, Delorme,’ he said when she finally picked up. ‘Delorme, you awake?’
‘I’m awake, John.’ A lie. Fully awake, she wouldn’t have used his first name.
‘Guess how many missing persons – adolescents – we had the year before last.’
‘Including ones from out of town? I don’t know. Seven? Eight?’
‘Twelve. An even dozen. And the year before that we had ten. Year before that, eight. Year before that, ten. Year before that, ten again. You getting my drift?’
‘Ten a year, give or take.’
‘Give or take exactly two. Ten each year.’
Delorme’s voice was suddenly clearer, sharper. ‘But you called to tell me about this past year, right?’
