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Confessions of a School Nurse is part of the bestselling ‘Confessions’ series. (#litres_trial_promo)
About the Author (#litres_trial_promo)
Also by Michael Alexander (#litres_trial_promo)
About the Publisher (#litres_trial_promo)
Disclaimer (#u6d216568-54a3-537a-9ef6-5659c47e0a8f)
The stories described in this book are based on my experiences working as a school nurse in boarding schools over the past ten years. To protect confidentiality, some parts are fictionalised and all places and names are changed, but nonetheless they remain an honest reflection of the variety and crazy goings-on witnessed during a decade’s worth of school nursing – surprising as that might come to seem!
PROLOGUE (#u6d216568-54a3-537a-9ef6-5659c47e0a8f)
A Taste (#u6d216568-54a3-537a-9ef6-5659c47e0a8f)
Marcus made sure no one was sitting near the door before closing it.
‘It’s really personal,’ he whispered to me over his shoulder.
‘It has to be a guy,’ he’d insisted when he arrived at the bustling nurses’ office. Most requests of this nature are girls asking to see a female nurse; though this was only my first week in the role, Marcus was the first student to ask to see a man, so my mind went into overdrive imagining the ways in which I could impart my knowledge in a reassuring, helpful manner to a young man in obvious need.
As Marcus turned from the door to face me, his hands delved into the front of his pants. He wasn’t in uniform; he wore loose track pants instead. I got the feeling than an inspection of that area was on the horizon. He refused a seat, so I asked him what the problem was.
‘You won’t tell anyone?’ he answered.
‘Of course I won’t tell anyone, just explain what’s wrong.’
‘They’re sore. My nuts are sore. And the left one seems bigger.’
Ah!
I could either take a look at Marcus now, or wait for him to be seen at the local doctor’s office. I chose the latter. There was no need for the poor lad to be exposing himself more than necessary. It’s not that Dr Fritz wouldn’t have trusted my judgment, but there’s more to feeling someone’s nuts than the average guy thinks. Is there a lump? Does it move freely? Is it attached to the testicle? Is the spermatic cord twisted? It would be up to Dr Fritz to decide what to do – whether it would require an urgent scan today or was something that could wait – so he would need to examine the lad properly. And besides, this environment wasn’t ideal for an intimate examination; the south wall of my office was made of glass, a window that looked out upon the mountains and a large terrace … a window with no curtain.
But Marcus was too quick for me.
‘You have to see them,’ he declared, whipping his pants down. Looking up, he gave a short scream.
No students were on the terrace, but Mrs Driscoll, the headmaster’s wife, was there with what looked like a prospective family … admiring the view.
Despite the incident, the prospective girl did enroll. Rumour has it she insisted.
Now don’t worry, I’ll get back to Marcus’s nuts in a minute, but before I do, let me tell you how I came to be here on this snowy mountain.
The first day (#u6d216568-54a3-537a-9ef6-5659c47e0a8f)
Why did I become a school nurse?
At the age of 32, I was a skilled professional with more than ten years’ experience working in England and New Zealand. I was a highly trained emergency specialist, who had worked in some of the biggest hospitals and busiest departments in the world, and the money wasn’t too bad. Why would I leave all of that? At that time, school nursing didn’t even seem like real nursing to me.
But, I needed a healthier lifestyle. Thirty pounds an hour sounds great at first, but the irregular night shifts – one on, one off, two on then one off – it ruins you. That’s what temp or agency nursing is about in London; you take the work when you can, even if that means spending your weekends with a bunch of drunks, dealing with abuse and violence, as well as the two-hour commute to and from the hospital. I’d chosen that life, but it’s not doable long term, and besides, there was a much bigger factor at play. My partner and I were expecting our first child, and I wanted a safe, healthy environment in which to raise my family.
My choice seemed simple, go back to my homeland, New Zealand, and get my old job back, or find work somewhere in Europe that had regular hours, no drunks, no night shifts, no underground and clean air. I didn’t feel that going back to New Zealand to work in a regular ward or a small emergency department was right for me, especially as my partner had never even been to my hometown, and we both wanted to stay close to her family for our first child.
So when I saw an advert for a nurse to work at a boarding school in the Alps, I thought all my wishes had come true. It not only seemed to fit all my requirements, they also even offered me a chalet in the middle of a ski resort. What more could a nurse with half a dozen ski seasons behind him ask for?
I applied and after a phone interview, background and police check (I’d be living and working with children, after all) I was offered the job.
Walking into my new office on that first day with Mr Driscoll, the headmaster, made me forget about big city life almost immediately.
The southern wall of the school consisted of a window looking out onto towering peaks over 3000 metres, the highest already capped with snow, despite only being late August. I felt a pang of guilt thinking the view was even better than what I was used to back in New Zealand.
Yes. I knew I’d made the right decision for me and my budding family. I felt this could be home.
‘You’re free to do as you see fit,’ Mr Driscoll said as he showed us around the clinic. My colleagues in crime, Justine and Michaela, glanced at me in surprise. None of us had ever worked in a boarding school before; we had all come from the frontline of the nursing profession, used to being surrounded by large teams. We had taken the leap from the Accident and Emergency to an elite boarding school. We had a clean slate.
Justine was from Alaska. She had spent the last ten years in emergency medicine and had come over with her husband who had a job as a maths teacher at the school.
Michaela was from Minneapolis and specialised in paediatric emergency medicine. She had also come with her husband; they had always wanted to live in Europe.
‘With your combined experience, I trust you’ll do a great job,’ Mr Driscoll added. And with that, he left us to it. The school was to be our playground.
On our first day at work, we found out that we were alone; alone and in charge of 400 students, some of the world’s most privileged children. There was no on-site doctor lurking in the background who we could turn to for help; no alarm button to press when things turned sour; no oxygen, no intravenous access, none of the equipment that I’d gotten used to having on hand, ready for instant use.
The 400 children came from over fifty nationalities, and while the majority spoke English to a high standard at least ten per cent knew little or none of the language. Other than English, the next most common tongue was Russian.
The other nurses and I were to be responsible for keeping the children healthy, taking care of them when they were ill or hurt, helping them to get along with each other, counselling them through life’s hurdles, and arming them with the knowledge that comes from being an ‘old woman’ or ‘old man’ who has made it this far in life without too many major screw-ups (the fact that we’re not even grey doesn’t seem to matter to the kids).
I was looking forward to the challenge. No longer would I have to deal with shootings, stabbings, heart attacks, strokes, violent drunks or demented, incontinent or suicidal patients. Instead, I was going to be looking after fit, young, healthy teenagers. How hard could that be?
The parents had spent a fortune to send their kids here: 100,000 euros per child per year. I assumed they would be hardworking, motivated, intelligent, considerate, good-natured, balanced individuals …
However, as you’ll discover over the course of this book, I’m not always great with assumptions.
Marcus’s jewels (#u6d216568-54a3-537a-9ef6-5659c47e0a8f)
‘Why didn’t you tell me?’ Marcus cried, whipping up his tracksuit bottoms to hide himself from the family crowd gathered outside.
I bundled Marcus out the office, into the car and off to the local doctor’s office. Thankfully, Dr Fritz’s surgery is in the centre of the village, only a five-minute drive away.
Proximity and willingness alone made Dr Fritz the unofficial school doctor. In addition to running a full-time GP practice, he was also our first port of call if there was an issue the nursing staff felt needed a doctor’s opinion, and we would make an appointment at his office and send the child along. Even on his time off, it was not uncommon for him to see our students if the matter was urgent. Dr Fritz was also there if a student needed specialist help, as he knew who the closest and best experts were, and referrals were made through him.
Like all born and bred mountain men, Dr Fritz is a no-nonsense man. He’s also one of the hardest working GPs I’ve ever met. He is always there during the day or available in the middle of the night, no matter what, and it wasn’t unusual for him to put in an eighty-hour week.
He even has the ‘unique quirks’ that often come not only with living in an isolated mountain village, but being the only GP for a whole community.
He was happy to see Marcus straight away. Pain in the testicles can be very serious. Torsion (a twisted spermatic cord) is a surgical emergency. Within minutes, the doctor had Marcus lying on the examination table.
He began his assessment as all doctors do, by examining the whole person and not just the affected part, and gradually worked his way to Marcus’s testicles. I had wondered if he was going to glove-up as he doesn’t always, and in this case didn’t, although he was completely professional in his exam. At one point Marcus raised an eyebrow and gave me a worried look, but he kept quiet. It isn’t wise to question any man who has your nuts resting in the palm of their bare hands.
Once the examination was over, Dr Fritz arranged for an ultrasound scan to take place as soon as possible.
‘I do not think it is a torsion,’ he explained, ‘but we need to be sure.’ We were standing by the reception desk, as he turned the pages of his diary. He licked the index finger of his right hand to turn another page … the same hand he’d just used to feel Marcus’s testicles.
I glanced at Marcus to see if he had noticed, and saw him staring at the doctor’s hand, his mouth hanging open. He leant towards me and whispered in an appalled tone, ‘He just tasted my balls.’
Dr Fritz does wear gloves when strictly necessary, has always been proper and he did wash his hands, but not before the ultrasound had been arranged. Where other doctors usually wear gloves when examining warts, fungusy toes, and the like, Dr Fritz doesn’t. I don’t agree with Dr Fritz sometimes, but he is completely trustworthy if a little unprofessional – you wouldn’t get away with it in most places, and in a way, that shows just how unique this little community is.
This was the first of many peculiarities I would eventually come across while working with the doctor.
As for Marcus, the ultrasound showed that he had a hydrocele, or a little cyst full of fluid, attached to his left testicle, that is absolutely harmless. Marcus calmed down a great deal once he realised his balls weren’t going to drop off, and the pain settled with some ibuprofen.
As first weeks go, this was pretty ridiculous … but, as I was to find out, this was just the beginning.
Chapter One (#u6d216568-54a3-537a-9ef6-5659c47e0a8f)
Luke (#ulink_4f37b038-bb69-599b-b4e2-0bf4d246ef29)
I have a confession to make: before seeing the school vacancy, I had never planned on working with children. But I figured it wouldn’t be too hard. I’d learned some of the general rules during my years in the emergency room; developed the hunches that seep into the core of any nurse or doctor who spends their life looking after others.
A screaming child is a good thing, although not for one’s ears. It means a set of functioning lungs and an airway that is clear. A child that fights as you struggle to put in an IV or suck some blood is also a good sign, it means their illness hasn’t sapped too much of their life force. A child that is quiet, a child that doesn’t put up a fight, is a concern. Their illness has begun to overthrow their natural survival instincts.
Luke was quiet. He was nine years old and one of the youngest children at our school. He was also one of my earliest patients.
The junior school consists of about sixty children, an almost even split of boys and girls from ages 9–12, and while they do sometimes mingle with the high school kids, they live and study separately. They do, however, share the same nurse. I see the little ones and the big ones.
‘What’s wrong?’ I asked as I ushered a pale, sunken Luke into the examination room. He mumbled a reply and I asked him to speak a little louder.
‘I feel sick,’ he managed, his chin resting on his chest, his eyes staring blankly at the ground.
The words ‘I’m sick’ don’t really help a lot, but he wasn’t up to giving me a more useful answer. To investigate, I phoned up the people in charge of his dorm to get a bit of background.
‘He’s had a bit of a cough,’ Mrs Pierce his dorm parent explained. ‘I didn’t realise he was so sick. He was running around with the others playing football this morning. I’m so sorry.’
The people in charge of the dorms are usually a married couple of any age, but often with their own children, and they’re the heart of all boarding schools, wherever they may be. They act as a parent to these children, hence the title.
Mrs Pierce sounded defensive, but she had no need to be. Kids are renowned for bouncing off the walls one minute, then being deathly sick the next. They reach that tipping point where their reserves are finally exhausted and their body suddenly catches onto the idea that it’s unwell.
With Luke I, at least, had a starting point – a cough and a runny nose. He also had a high temperature, 39.9. I was worried, not because of his illness, but because it was up to me to make the call on what to do. I could make the five-minute drive to the doctor’s office, but Dr Fritz is a busy man. He has a whole village to take care of, and I can’t go running to him every time a child has a high fever. To help me decide, I did what I would do if triaging someone in the emergency room. I got as much data as possible.
No headache, no neck stiffness, no rash and no photophobia (sensitivity to light) plus a probable cause for his fever, that is, a cough and runny nose; probably a simple cold.
Lungs clear, with good air entry on both sides with no wheezes, crackles or signs of respiratory distress and his pulse and blood pressure were fine. But he oozed misery. His body ached and shivered. ‘I’m so cold,’ he mumbled.
It’s normal to feel cold when your temperature is up. Sometimes it’s the first sign you notice when someone is sick; you’ll find them nestled under two duvets with a hot water bottle, trying to warm up, and when you check their temperature, it’s very high.
‘You’re going to stay with us for a bit,’ I explained as I led him through to the sick bay. We have sixteen beds for 400 kids. The most sick get the beds, while the not so sick stay in their dorm where their dorm parent takes care of them. Luke probably had a simple cold, but such a high temperature needed to be monitored.
‘Please don’t take it away!’ Luke screamed, horrified that I’d removed the duvet and replaced it with a thin blanket. It was the most he’d reacted since being admitted. It’s cruel, watching him shiver, and it didn’t help when I placed a cool compress on his forehead. But he was only nine years old and did as told.
Over the next couple of hours, the combination of cooling measures, paracetamol and half a litre of water brought his temperature back down to 37.2, and his actions showed.
‘Can I watch a movie?’ is a sign that a child is getting better. I set him up with something to watch. Once the movie was over, this was followed by ‘I’m bored’. I love those words. They’re almost as good as ‘I’m hungry’. Sure signs of recovery.
All the same, I kept Luke in the health centre that night. Illness comes in waves, and Luke didn’t disappoint. His temperature went up and down, dragging his body along for the ride, but by the following morning he was feeling good again, and after a day with no fever or body aches, he was sent back to his dorm.
Why had I been so worried? Why had I even considered sending him to the doctor? I knew he had a simple cold, and I know that children are adept at taking onboard very high fevers.
It was because I was the one making the ultimate decision, although it did help having two experienced colleagues to turn to. But I was the one making the decisions, especially late at night or on the weekend, and deciding if a fever was benign, or a sign of something more sinister, even life threatening, and I was the one going to sleep at night wondering ‘what if?’. There were no doctors in the background to run a reassuring eye over him, and no blood tests to see how his white blood cells were holding the fort, or inflammatory markers to see how much of a battering his body was taking. I was using my senses and basic observations to make what seemed like a simple call.
But nothing is simple, and in medicine, the simplest decisions don’t happen without a lot of thought. This is my job now. I’m the decision maker, the responsible one. It’s terrifying.
Learning the basics (#ulink_12264a2e-3c6a-5c13-a49a-71b421862991)
‘Shit,’ I thought to myself as yet another girl burst into tears. That was three already this morning. What the hell was I doing? Am I some sort of monster?
No, I was just doing what I had done for the last half dozen years – triaging the students as if this were an A&E department.
‘My nose is blocked,’ said Marie. I handed her a box of tissues and moved on to the next patient.
‘I feel dizzy,’ said Sarah. Blood pressure fine, pulse steady and strong, no medical history of note, but skipped breakfast – treated with banana and told to return to class.
‘I’ve got a cough,’ said Isabelle. Chest clear, cough non-productive, dry, had only for 24 hours, no fever, otherwise well, and has not coughed once in the last thirty minutes she’s been in the waiting room – told to take some cough syrup if it comes back, no treatment at present.
Marie hadn’t made it out to the hallway before the flood of tears began again. I stood and watched helplessly as she sat back down between Sarah and Isabelle, who instantly put their arms around her. For teenage girls, tears are contagious, and within moments the three of them were weeping quietly, hands entwined, consoling each other with mumbled words and the occasional glance in my direction, pleading with their eyes for some sign of compassion from me.
I’d never managed to upset three fourteen-year-old girls at once before, but I was doing a fine job of it. I’d even made it an international event, as Marie was Italian, Sarah American, and Isabelle from Russia. I’d covered half the globe.
What the heck should I do?
I did what any male would do when confronted with such a convincing scene. I ran for the hills!
Not really.
I let all three of them rest in the bedroom for an hour and made them some camomile tea with honey.
‘We won’t bother you again all week,’ promised Marie as she went back to class.
‘Thank you so much,’ said Sarah.
‘You didn’t forget to excuse us from class?’ asked Isabelle, making sure they didn’t get an absence marked on the computer.
‘You’re all excused. No need to worry,’ I assured them.
I had just let myself be played. They knew it, and they also knew I knew they knew. I suspect they felt obliged to push the limits. They had three new nurses, completely new to the world of boarding schools, and in these first few months everyone was still figuring out their boundaries. But if I was to continue treating these students like we were in a hospital trauma centre, I was never going to come out on top. I had to come up with another strategy, because if 90 per cent of the patients I had seen this morning had turned up to their local hospital, they would have been encouraged to turn away, or put at the back of the queue and wait hours to be seen.
Hospitals are great for treating accidents and the seriously unwell, but my role as a boarding school nurse was much more than just looking after the sick.
I’m more than a nurse; I’m a parent to these kids, a disciplinarian, an example, a counsellor, a mentor and often a dry shoulder to cry on. It sometimes means playing along with them and their antics, their dramas, and it also means knowing when and how to set limits – you have to know when to say ‘enough is enough’.
