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Ransom’s horrified.
‘And I never learned to tell the time.’ She points to her wrist. ‘Couldn’t ever really master it, somehow. I just thank God the world had the good sense to go digital …’ She fondly inspects her watch, notices a tiny smear on its face and then casually buffs it clean on her breast (Ransom observes these proceedings with copious levels of interest).
‘Even tying my own shoelaces was a nightmare,’ Jen continues. ‘At school I always wore trainers with Velcro flaps …’
She illustrates this poignant detail with a little mime. Halfway through, though, Ransom clambers to his feet, reaches over the counter, grabs her arm and yanks her, unceremoniously, towards him.
She squeals, half-resisting. He ignores her protests, roughly twists her wrist and pulls the newly buffed timepiece right up close to his face. He inspects it for several seconds, his breathing laboured.
‘You manipulative little cow,’ he eventually mutters.
Much as he’d surmised, her watch has a leather strap, a gold surround, a traditional dial and two hands.
* * *
‘So you just took out the batteries and then tossed the casing into the bin,’ Valentine murmurs (more rueful now than accusing).
Her mother gazes at Valentine in much the same way a slightly tipsy shepherd might gaze at the eviscerated corpse of a stray sheep on a neighbouring farmer’s land (a gentle, watercolour wash of concern, querulousness and supreme indifference).
‘Well it’s my remote,’ she eventually sniffs, ‘so I can do what the hell I like with it!’
As if to prove this point, categorically, she marches over to her daughter, snatches the remote from her hand and returns to her bed again.
Valentine remains where she stands. ‘It’s not really a question of ownership, Mum –’
‘Frédérique,’ her mother interrupts.
‘Sorry?’
‘Frédérique,’ her mother repeats.
Valentine struggles to maintain her composure.
‘It’s not really a question of ownership, Frédérique …’ (she pronounces the name with a measure of emotional resistance), ‘no one’s denying that the remote is yours. It’s more a question of …’
She is about to say trust.
‘Piffle!’ her mother snorts (before she gets a chance to). ‘Absolute, bloody piffle!’
Valentine freezes.
‘I do find it odd how it’s never a question of ownership,’ her mother grumbles on, oblivious, ‘whenever I happen to own something.’
Valentine doesn’t respond.
‘I mean don’t you find that just a tad hypocritical?’ her mother persists.
Still nothing from Valentine.
‘Well don’t you, though?’
Her mother squints over at her daughter through the gloom.
Valentine is silent for a few seconds longer and then, ‘Piffle!’ she whispers, awed.
‘What?’
Her mother stiffens.
‘Piffle!’ Valentine repeats, raising a shaky hand to her throat, her voice starting to quiver. ‘You just said … you just said …’ She can’t bring herself to utter it again. ‘That was one of Mum’s favourite …’
‘I’M FRÉDÉRIQUE!’ her mother snarls, pointing the remote at her (as if hoping to turn her off with it – or, at the very least, to change the channel). ‘Don’t you dare start all that nonsense again!’
Valentine promptly bursts into tears.
‘STOP IT!’ her mother yells.
‘I can’t stop it!’ Valentine sobs, the grip of her hand on her throat growing tighter. ‘That was one of Mum’s favourite words, don’t you see? She used to say it all the time! Not in a nasty way. Not in a mean way. But when there was some … something she didn’t like on the TV or the ra … radio. “Piffle!” she’d say. “Absolute, bloody p … piffle!” And then she’d reach for the –’
‘FRÉDÉRIQUE!’ her mother screams, covering her ears.
Valentine’s suddenly bent over double, her chest heaving, her face convulsing. She can’t breathe.
‘GET OUT! GET OUT! I HATE YOU!’ her mother yells, then hurls the remote at her. The remote flies over Valentine’s shoulder and hits the wall behind her. Valentine turns, feels blindly for it in the half-light, locates it, grabs it and then darts for the door. She staggers out into the hallway.
‘I feel dizzy, Mum,’ she pants, clutching at her throat again. ‘I can’t breathe. I think I might be going to … I think I might be …’
Her voice slowly fades down the stairwell. In a neighbouring room a child is crying. Valentine’s mother cocks her head and listens intently for a while, then, ‘VALENTINE!’ she yells.
Pause.
‘What?’ Valentine finally answers, hoarsely, from some distance off.
‘How about twice of thirty-one?’ her mother demands.
‘What?’ Valentine repeats, incredulous.
‘Twice of thirty-one. Twice of … Merde!’ her mother curses. ‘Tu es sourde ou seulement –’
‘SIXTY-TWO!’ Valentine howls. ‘SIXTY-TWO! DOUBLE! DOUBLE! DOUBLE!’
Jen snatches her wrist from him, clamps her hand over her mouth and staggers backwards, her eyes bulging, bent double, convulsing, like she’s choking on something.
Ransom gawps at her, in alarm, then realizes (with a sudden, sinking feeling) that she’s not actually choking, but laughing – at him.
‘Oh God!’ she wails. ‘I’m so sorry! I just couldn’t resist …’ And then, ‘Urgh! Look! How disgusting! I’ve snotted on my hand!’
She holds up the offending digits and then goes to grab a napkin.
To mask his confusion, Ransom lunges for the beer bottle and tries to take a swig from it, but the bottle is empty.
‘My dad always says if there was an A-level in bullshit then I’d get top marks …’ Jen chatters away, amiably, ‘but, as luck would have it, I’m compelled to operate within the tedious constraints of a regular school syllabus.’
She gently blots the tears from the corners of her eyes. ‘I got such a low score for my maths GCSE that my teacher took me aside and congratulated me for it. She said it took a certain measure of creativity to get a mark that bad.’ Jen blinks a couple of times as she speaks. ‘Are my eyes still all red and puffy?’
She leans towards him, over the bar top.
Ransom puts down the bottle and gazes into her eyes, noticing – as she draws in still closer – that she has a tiny tuft of tissue caught on the side of one nostril and that she smells of raisins, industrial-strength detergent and baby sick.
‘You’ve smudged your make-up,’ he mutters (there’s a thin streak of black eye-liner on her cheekbone). He takes the napkin from her and gently dabs at her cheek.
‘Thanks,’ she says, surprised.
After he’s finished dabbing he doesn’t immediately pull back. Three, long seconds pass between them in a silence so deafening it’s as if the bottles of spirits behind the bar have just thundered out the last, climactic notes of a rousing concerto. This hiatus is only broken by the quiet beep of Ransom’s phone.
‘So you’d do anything to stay at the Leaside?’ he murmurs, ignoring the phone and focusing in on the nostril again, his tone ruthlessly casual.
‘Pardon?’
Jen blinks.
‘Earlier’ – he grins – ‘I thought you said …’
As he speaks, he notices how the milky-white flesh of her inner arm is now stained by an angry, red handprint. His grin falters.
‘I have a boyfriend,’ Jen says, stiffly.
‘God,’ Ransom mutters, withdrawing slightly, his mind turning – briefly – to Fleur, his deeply suspicious (and litigious) American wife. ‘I feel really, really pissed.’
He glances down at his phone and then back over his shoulder again, as though willing Gene to reappear, but Gene’s nowhere to be seen, so he lifts his hands and rubs his face with them (as if trying to revive himself, or excoriate something, perhaps). Jen, meanwhile, has tossed the used napkin into the bin and strolled over to the till, where she starts to cash up.
‘You know we had a kid like that at school,’ Ransom mumbles, dropping his hands. ‘Percy McCord. Played cymbals in the band. Wore lace-up boots, knee-high green socks an’ a pair of burgundy, corduroy knickerbockers. Total mooncalf, he was.’
‘Talking of performances’ – Jen smirks at him over her shoulder – ‘you put on a pretty impressive show back there yourself if you don’t mind my saying so.’
‘Huh?’
‘I mean all the crazy stuff about your plaits …’
Jen twirls her two ponytails at him, teasingly.
‘My …? Oh. Yeah …’ Ransom winces, pained.
‘EVERYBODY REMEMBERS THE PLAITS!’ Jen bellows (in a surprisingly passable northern accent). ‘THE PLAITS ARE BLOOMIN’ LEGENDARY!’
‘Hah.’ Ransom smiles weakly as he reaches for the pocket containing his cigarettes, but his hand is shaking so violently that he quickly withdraws it again.
‘I was really getting into character at that point,’ he mutters.
‘Well you deserved a bloody BAFTA!’ Jen heartily commends him. ‘Not that those things are worth diddly-squat, quite frankly,’ she adds.
‘I did a guest appearance on Neighbours once,’ Ransom recalls, almost poignantly, ‘and the director said I put in one of the most gutsy performances she’d ever –’
‘I MODELLED IN PARIS FOR JEAN PAUL GAULTIER!’
Jen strikes a gruesome array of camp poses in rapid succession.
Ransom grimaces. A tiny pulse starts to throb in his lower cheek. His phone beeps.
‘So will we let him in on the whole thing when he eventually gets back?’ he wonders, glancing down at his phone and casually scanning through his messages.
‘Who?’
Jen coldly inspects Ransom’s hairline as she speaks (it’s slightly receding), and the way his golfer’s tan kicks in halfway down his forehead.
‘Who?’ Ransom snorts, looking up from his phone and focusing in on Jen’s lips. ‘Your idiot barman, who else?’
‘I keep telling you’ – Jen’s lips tighten – ‘Gene’s not an idiot. He’s really wise, really funny, really emotionally intelligent –’
‘Emotionally intelligent?’ Ransom butts in, sniggering. ‘Next you’ll be calling him “one of the good guys”!’
Jen lets this pass.
‘Emotionally intelligent?!’ Ransom repeats, a single brow raised, tauntingly.
‘He runs marathons,’ Jen attempts to elaborate, evidently discomforted.
‘Marathons?!’ Ransom gasps. ‘No! Seriously?!’
‘Sponsored marathons,’ Jen snaps. ‘He organizes them.’
‘Sponsored marathons?’ Ransom clutches on to the counter, for support.
‘And triathalons.’
‘And triathalons?! Wow-wee!’
Ransom swoons across the bar top, overwhelmed.
‘Last year he raised almost fifteen thousand –’
‘I once raised double that amount in a single afternoon,’ Ransom interrupts her, straightening up, ‘for a land-mine charity. Just after Diana died, it was. My rookie year. I had this little, pre-match wager with Jim Furyk’s caddie …’
‘That’s very impressive,’ Jen concedes, ‘but have you ever been diagnosed with terminal cancer?’
‘Sorry?’
Ransom’s temporarily thrown off his stride.
