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A Very Special Need
Caroline Anderson
A FAMILY FOR CHRISTMASThe last thing single mum Judith Wright expects when she takes her young son to a new osteopath is to be offered a much needed job. But practitioner Hugh Barber is in a fix and he needs a secretary now. Hugh’s impressed—not only by Judith’s secretarial skills, but also by her warmth and courage. As a single father of two he knows how tough and lonely her life must be. Judith ‘s company is something Hugh comes to cherish, and as Christmas approaches he can’t help proposing to her. But with three youngsters between them tensions emerge, and their children’s happiness has to come first. Except life apart is unbearable, and Hugh and Judith know they all really need each other—they just have to find a way to have the most wonderful Christmas ever…as one big happy family.
A Very Special Need
Caroline Anderson
www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk)
Table of Contents
Cover (#ufec9eb55-e73e-530b-8da9-862fa7111092)
Title Page (#u60f66e95-de23-5228-ba51-a24b56b378d9)
Chapter One (#ub9afdbac-7760-5fd3-afe7-f2426cd83cbe)
Chapter Two (#ud7037d46-8396-5643-8080-c489d4886eed)
Chapter Three (#u2c35cb12-9b43-513a-84a9-84b8d7b00121)
Chapter Four (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter Five (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter Six (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter Seven (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter Eight (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter Nine (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter Ten (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter Eleven (#litres_trial_promo)
Epilogue (#litres_trial_promo)
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CHAPTER ONE (#ulink_cc8a960a-7508-5300-a0cd-781baa68083f)
‘HAPPY birthday.’
‘Thanks.’
‘Thirty today and still looking as good as ever.’
Judith gave her reflection a jaundiced sneer. ‘You’re biased,’ she told it. ‘And a lousy liar.’
The reflection sneered back—the little snub nose wrinkling, the eyes unflinching—taking inventory with no holds barred. They scanned the skin, pale under the superficial light tan of summer, and the eyes smudged with shadows of worry and fatigue—the laughter lines unused in recent weeks. Hmm, she thought. The bone structure was all right, but the top dressing lacked a certain sparkle, and the hair today was definitely mouse brown.
The eyes scanned down her body over the soft curves that despite the scrimped diet failed to disappear, assessing the charity shop clothes—the clever buys that managed to look almost reasonable if not at the cutting edge of fashion—then back up, meeting themselves with relentless honesty.
‘OK,’ the reflection conceeded. ‘So you’re looking thirty today. And tired. And jaded, and dissatisfied with your lot. And you’ve got a white hair—see it there, sticking out?’
She turned away from the unblinking grey lasers. She didn’t need that much honesty, even from herself—and especially not today.
Thirty, she thought, and what had she got to show for it? She looked round the living room of the small flat, at the furniture that, like her, looked tired and jaded and dissatisfied. A rented home, second-hand furniture, Oxfam clothes, temporary work in the term time to keep them ticking over—she had nothing to show for her thirty years at all.
There was a shuffling, bumping noise in the hall.
No. Not nothing, she amended. She had Edward—and she hadn’t even managed to do that right.
She turned a bright smile to the door as it swung open. ‘All ready?’
He nodded, slowly and deliberately, and his mouth twisted into a parody of a smile. His eyes went from her to the mirror just beside her. ‘Looking for the wrinkles?’ he teased in his halting, reluctant speech.
‘Cheeky monkey,’ she said with a grin, and went over and hugged him. ‘All ready for school?’
‘I suppose so.’
She eyed him worriedly. ‘Want to talk about it?’
He shrugged, a slow, deliberate shrug that matched his other movements. ‘New kids—nothing I can’t handle.’
New kids looking at him, wondering what was wrong with him, calling him ‘Spaz’ and laughing at his hesitant speech and awkward gait. The first day of the new school year was always the same. A wave of maternal protectiveness almost swamped her, but she crushed it back down ruthlessly. He didn’t need her pity.
‘You’ll be fine,’ she assured him briskly. ‘They’ll soon get used to you and they won’t think anything of it in a week or so—less if they join the chess club.’
He grinned, his courage as always bringing tears very close to the surface. She turned away and gathered up her bag and a light jacket against the chilly September wind, and blinked hard.
‘Let’s go, then,’ she said, turning back with her smile firmly in place again. ‘And tonight we’ll have a treat and go out for a pizza.’
‘Can we afford it?’ he asked with a shrewd wisdom well ahead of his thirteen years.
She punched his arm gently. ‘Hey, you let me worry about that. It’s my birthday—we ought to celebrate.’
‘Yeah.’ His smile was sad, and he shifted his school bag on his shoulder and turned, picking up his sticks from by the door. ‘Let’s hit the road, then.’
They walked down the path and turned left, coming out within a minute or so onto the road along which the bus ran. There was a crowd of youngsters gathered at the stop, and she could feel the tension pouring off him as he braced himself and walked towards them.
‘See you, Mum,’ he mumbled, and she made herself hang back and watch from a distance as he joined the group.
A black boy separated from the crowd, tall and gangling in baggy jeans, his head completely shaved. ‘Yo, Woody, how you doin’, man?’ he yelled and gave her son a high five, then flung an arm around his shoulders and dragged him into the crowd.
She grinned to herself and turned away. He’d be all right now. Al would take care of him. Al’s baby sister had cerebral palsy, too—the double disadvantage of being black and disabled. Al understood Woody—and Al was a good kid with a heart of gold, even if his hairstyle made Judith flinch. Yes, he’d take care of her son.
And who would take care of her? She stifled a sigh, tugged her jacket closer against the wind and walked briskly towards town and the job centre. Term time meant finding a job to hold body and soul together—and she’d have to find one or there was no way she dared to take Woody out tonight for a pizza, or it might be the last meal they ate for a long, long while.
‘So, how was it?’
He shrugged. ‘OK. I’ve got Mr Greenhill for Maths.’
Her eyebrows shot up and pride surged in her chest. ‘Really? Well done.’
She watched as he pulled off another slice of pizza and wrapped his tongue round the trails of stretchy cheese, hooking it into his mouth with conscious deliberation.
‘It’s no big deal. I can do the work easily.’
She smiled. ‘I know.’
He pushed the pizza towards her. ‘Here. You’ve only had one bit.’
‘I’m not hungry,’ she lied. ‘You eat it.’
He put the slice down and met her grey eyes with his blue ones. ‘Did you get a job?’
She swallowed the fear that seemed to grow ever larger in her chest. ‘Uh—not today. They’ve got another one or two they’re looking into for me,’ she lied, and wondered if her thirties were going to be remembered for the number and range of lies she was to tell her son.
‘Something will turn up,’ she promised him, and to take the worry out of his eyes she picked up the slice of pizza she’d meant to save for her lunch tomorrow and ate it. As it was they had bought one from the supermarket to save money rather than go to the Pizza Hut, and she’d only done that because she’d promised him pizza and the fresh ones from the supermarket were nearly as nice and not quite as expensive.
Tomorrow would be sausages or mince or fish fingers as usual.
Please, God, she thought, let me find a job.
‘How about a game of chess?’ she suggested brightly.
Woody eyed her sceptically. ‘Does that mean I have to let you win because it’s your birthday?’
‘Cheeky monkey. I might beat you anyway.’
He grinned, lopsided and teasing. ‘Yeah. After all, there’s always room in the world for another miracle.’
She chuckled, cleared away the pizza plates and put the chess board on the table. ‘Right, you, do your worst,’ she challenged, and wondered, if there was a spare miracle lying around, whether it could please be dedicated to her finding a job and not thrashing her cocky son at chess…
Nothing was ever easy. There was no job, neither the next day nor the one afterwards, and on the Thursday evening Woody was late back from the bus. She was walking down the path to investigate when he came into view, walking even more awkwardly and his face twisted with pain.
‘Woody? Whatever’s wrong?’ she asked, running the last few steps towards him.
‘I fell,’ he said tersely. He looked withdrawn and mutinous, and she could tell he was suffering.
‘OK. Let’s get you in and inspect the damage. I want to hear all about it.’
‘I’m fine, I just fell,’ he repeated, limping painfully up the little step to their front door.
Judith doubted that he ‘just’ fell. Oh, he did sometimes genuinely fall, of course. She knew that. She also knew that look on his face, that stubborn, determined look which overtook him when someone had cut him to the bone—just as she knew that there was more to this than a simple fall, but she could do nothing.
To interfere and fuss would simply make it worse.
‘Cup of tea?’ she offered, allowing him to deal with it in his way.
‘Mmm, please.’ He sat at the kitchen table, a muffled groan escaping from his tightly closed mouth, and she shut her eyes and counted to ten.
She put the mug down in front of him. ‘Here. Drink this while I run you a hot bath,’ she said softly, and went out before she gave in to the urge to cry her eyes out.
He didn’t deserve this—whatever ‘this’ was. Life was tough enough without some bully going for him. She wondered if he would ever tell her what had really happened.
He wouldn’t let her help him with the bath. That didn’t surprise her. He’d been independent in that department for some years now, struggling to cope alone while she metaphorically bit her nails on the other side of the door.
This time, though, he was ages and she could hear the groans from the kitchen.
There was a time for his pride, she decided, and a time when she just had to be a mother.
She waited until he had gone into his bedroom, then knocked on the door.
‘What?’ he growled.
‘Edward, I want to come in.’
The door opened to reveal her son, clad only in a pair of briefs and some colourful bruises. ‘Why do you always call me Edward when you want to pull rank?’ he said mildly, and turned away.
She swallowed a retort and studied his body. Thin, a little twisted, never moving smoothly, it was even more stiff and jerky than usual tonight. She ran her practised eye over him, looking for strains and stresses, and her eyes settled on his spine.
‘Have you put your back out, falling?’
He nodded. ‘I’ll live.’
‘I don’t doubt it. Where did you fall?’ She tried to keep the edge of irony out of her voice but failed.
‘On the stairs,’ he told her defiantly. ‘I tripped over my foot.’
Plausible but not the truth. Her son could never lie to her, she knew him far too well. Sure, he’d tripped over a foot, but whose? ‘I’ll bring you some ibuprofen tablets.’
‘I’ll come. I’ve got homework to do,’ he told her, and followed her a few painful minutes later, dressed in a baggy tracksuit which hung on his gaunt frame. Heavens, he was getting so tall now…
‘How about your physio?’ she suggested, wondering if that would give her an opportunity to find out how hurt he really was.
‘I don’t think so. Not tonight. Perhaps tomorrow.’
It must be bad, she thought. Painful as his physio was, he never shirked the chore they had shared each evening for so many years.
She went in to his room to tuck him up and turn off his light at ten. He was asleep, his lashes black against the pale, drawn cheeks. He looked so fragile. She brushed the thick dark hair away from his brow and dropped a kiss on his cheek, surprised yet again at the fine dark fuzz that covered his jaw. He would need to start shaving soon, she realised with a shock.
He was growing up so fast. Up and out and away from her, his battle for independence every bit as fierce as any other teenager’s, only the other kids didn’t have to deal with disability as well.
‘I love you,’ she whispered soundlessly. ‘Please don’t be hurt.’
