Adele Parks.

I Invited Her In: The new domestic psychological thriller from Sunday Times bestselling author Adele Parks






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Copyright


An imprint of HarperCollins Publishers Ltd

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First published in Great Britain by HQ in 2018

Copyright Adele Parks 2018

Adele Parks asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work.

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This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the authors imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities is entirely coincidental.

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Ebook Edition September 2018 ISBN: 9780008284626

PRAISE FOR ADELE PARKS

Gripping, twisty and heartbreaking, this standout story is a triumph Isabelle Broom, Heat

Unpredictable and gripping until the end

The Lady

The plot twists and turns . . . the reader is left frantic to know how its going to work out

Woman

Twisty, unputdownable and utterly engrossing

Jenny Colgan

The secrets, lies and suspense kept me engrossed

Daily Mail

Convincing, sensitive and rich with emotional intimacy

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Contents

Cover

Also by Adele Parks

Title Page

Copyright

PRAISE

Prologue

1.

Melanie

2. Abigail

3. Melanie

4. Abigail

5. Melanie

6. Abigail

7. Melanie

8. Abigail

9. Melanie

10. Abigail

11. Melanie

12. Abigail

13. Melanie

14. Abigail

15. Melanie

16. Abigail

17. Melanie

18. Ben

19. Melanie

20. Abigail

21. Melanie

22. Ben

23. Melanie

24. Melanie

25. Abigail

26. Ben

27. Melanie

28. Abigail

29. Melanie

30. Melanie

31. Melanie

32. Melanie

33. Ben

34. Melanie

35. Melanie

36. Abigail

37. Melanie

38. Ben

39. Tanya

40. Abigail

41. Ben

42. Melanie

43. Melanie

44. Melanie

45. Melanie

46. Abigail

47. Ben

48. Melanie

49. Melanie

50. Ben

51. Abigail

52. Melanie

53. Liam

54. Melanie

55. Abigail

56. Melanie

57. Abigail

58. Melanie

59. Tanya

60. Ben

61. Melanie

62. Abigail

63. Melanie

64. Tanya

65. Melanie

66. Liam

Epilogue

Acknowledgments

Questions for Discussion

Extract

About the Publisher

Prologue

Becoming a Single Mum, for the first time, is like someone has just thrown you out of a car thats travelling at high speed on a motorway. Door flung open, a gush of blustery, sharp wind, a mean, forceful shove and there you are, face down on the tarmac in the middle of the fast lane. You scramble to your feet, cling to your offspring. Both of you are in utter peril.

The thing is, you do not have time to be outraged at the fact youve just been shoved out of the car a car youd assumed would comfortably, carefully take you on your lifes journey to a destination unspecified but simply and certainly lovely. A future that included a nice home and the active participation of the father however, no time to dwell. Youre too busy dodging the on-coming traffic.

The cars zoom past swoosh, whizz, honk you duck, dive, dart, and dodge. A small Fiat speeds by and the driver winds down the window to shout, Children of single parents are more likely to do badly at school. You do not have a crystal ball that would show you the day he picks up his stonking GCSE results, so you panic. Next, a big family saloon (which is basically insulting because it is a big family saloon) drives by. The parents lean out of their windows and yell, in unison, Children who grow up without fathers are more likely to end up unemployed, homeless, or imprisoned, you know? You kiss your babys head and promise him you wont let that happen. Vehicle after vehicle speeds by. People are crying out about a new government report that insists kids from lone-parent families are more at risk of poverty, poor health, depression. Other drivers add that theyre also more likely to run away from home, drink, and smoke heavily. Then, finally, a juggernaut of a vehicle tries to flatten you. A paunchy, smug fella wearing a vest top and tattoos toots on his horn then screams, Kids from lone-parent families are more likely to suffer sexual and physical abuse, indulge in drug-taking, fall into crime, have early sex and, finally, complete the circle by becoming teenage parents themselves! You silly bitch!

Presumably this pillar of society (who farts in his cab) read all this in a tabloid, on a pit-stop in a layby (just after hed had a wank), so he is now an expert. Everyone is. You cover your babys ears. You dont want him to hear this stuff.

Of course, they have to say, loneparent but since ninety per cent of single families are headed up by mums, its clear who is being blamed. Not the absentee father, because that would be too logical, but rather the Boudica who is battling on alone.

It makes my blood fucking boil, it really does. Sorry about my language but sometimes, you know, no other word can do the job.

It seems everyone is out to get you. No one says that youre a warrior, a Trojan, a veritable saint. Cant they see these babies, these children, are total miracles little soldiers in their own right?

Still, no time to ponder. You hop and jump, weave and scurry because your life depends on it. You cling to your child, tight, taut, tense. Youre prepared to lie down in front of one of those cars for him, if you have to, but you know that act of martyrdom would be pointless. What you really must do is stay alive and look after him, no matter what comes hurtling your way.

You just have to look after him.

1

Melanie

Monday 19th February

While the girls are cleaning their teeth I start to stack the dishwasher. Its too full to take the breakfast pots I should have put it on last night. Theres nothing I can do about this now, so I finish making up their packed lunches and then have a quick glance at my phone. Im expecting an email from my area manager about the results of some interviews we held last week. I work in a high street fashion retailer that everyone knows. Theres one in every town. Our branch needs another sales assistant and, as assistant manager, I was asked to sit in on the interviews. Dozens of people applied; we interviewed six. I have a favourite and Im crossing my fingers shell be selected. Unfortunately, I dont get to make the final decision.

I skim through the endless offers to invest in counterintuitive home-protection units, or pills that promise me thicker and fuller hair or a thicker and fuller penis, and look for my bosss name. Suddenly, I spot another name ABIGAIL CURTIZ and Im stopped in my tracks. It jumps right out at me. Abigail Curtiz. My first thought is that it is most likely to be a clever way of spreading a virus; the name is a coincidence, one just plucked out of the air by whoever it is who is mindless enough, and yet clever enough, to go to the effort of sending spam emails to infect other peoples gadgets. But Curtiz with a z? I hesitate before opening it, as its probably just trouble. However, the email is entitled, Its Been Too Long which sounds real enough, feasible. It has been a long time. I cant resist. I open it. My heart thumping.

Normally, I skim read everything. I have three kids and a job, my default setting is hurried, but this email I read carefully. No! I gasp, out loud.

Bad news? asks Ben with concern. Hes moving around the kitchen, looking for something. His phone, probably. Hes always mislaying that and his car keys.

No, its not. Not exactly. Ive just got an email from an old friend of mine. Shes getting divorced.

Thats sad. Who?

Abigail Curtiz. Abi. Her name seems strange on my lips. I used to say it so often, with such pleasure. And then I stopped doing so. Stopped talking to her, stopped thinking about her. I had to.

Ben looks quizzical. Hes one of those good husbands who tries to keep up when I talk about my friends, but he doesnt recall me mentioning an Abigail. Thats not a surprise. I never have.

We were at uni together, I explain, carefully.

Oh, really? He reaches for the plate of now-cold toast in the middle of the kitchen table and snatches up a piece. He takes a bite and, while still chewing, he kisses me on the forehead. Right. Well, you can tell me about her later. Yeah? Hes almost out of the door. He calls up the stairs, Liam, if you want a lift to the bus stop, you need to be downstairs five minutes ago. I smile, amused at his half-hearted effort at sounding like a ruthless disciplinarian, hellbent on time-keeping. He blows the facade completely when he comes back into the kitchen and asks, Liam has had breakfast, right? I dont like him going out on an empty stomach. Ill wait if needs be.

We listen for the slow clap of footsteps on the stairs and Liam lumbers into the kitchen right on cue. He grew taller than me four years ago, when he was just thirteen, so it shouldnt be a surprise that he now towers above me, but it absolutely is. Every time I see him, Im freshly startled by the mass of him. Hes broad, makes an effort to go to the gym and bulk out. Hes bigger than most boys his age. I wonder where my little boy went. Is he still buried somewhere within? Liam is taller than Ben now, too. Imogen, who is eight, and Lily, just six, are still wisps. They still scamper, hop, and float. When either of them jumps onto my knee, I barely register it.

I have to stretch up now, to steal a hug from Liam. I also have to judge when doing so is appropriate and acceptable. I try to get it right because its too painful to see him dodge my affection, which he sometimes does. Hes outgrown me. I must respect his boundaries and his privacy; Im ever mindful of it but I cant help but miss the little boy I could smother with kisses whenever the desire struck me. Now I wait for Liams rare but generous hugs, mostly contenting myself with high fives. Today he looks tired. I imagine he stayed up later than sensible last night, watching YouTube videos or playing games. When hes docile, hes often more open to care and attention. I take advantage, ruffle his hair. Even peck him on the cheek. He picks up two slices of toast from the plate Im proffering. Shoving one into his mouth, almost in its entirety, unconcerned that its cold. He takes a moment to slather the second slice with jam. Hes always had a sweet tooth.

Thanks Mum, youre the best.

I dont spoil the moment by telling him not to speak with his mouth full; there really are only so many times you can remind someone of this. He turns to his dad and playfully asks, What are you waiting for? Im ready.

Theyre out the door and in the car before I can ask if he has his football kit, whether hes getting himself home from training this evening or hoping for a lift, whether he has money for the vending machine. Its probably a good thing. Me fussing that way really irritates him. I usually try to limit myself to just one of those sorts of questions per morning. The girls, however, are still young enough to need, expect and even accept, a barrage of chivvying reminders. I check the kitchen clock and Im surprised time has got away. I gulp down my tea and then shout up the stairs. Girls, I need you down here pronto.

As usual, Imogen responds immediately. I hear her frantic footsteps scampering above. She starts to yell, Where is my hairbrush? Have you seen my Flower Fairy pencil case? Who moved my reading book? I left it here last night. She takes school very seriously and cant stand the idea of being late.

Lily is harder to impregnate with any sense of urgency. She has picked up some of the vocabulary that Liam and his friends use luckily nothing terrible yet, but she often tells her older siblings to chill and she is indeed the embodiment of this verb.

I drop the girls off at school with three minutes to spare before the bell is due to ring. I see this as a bonus but honestly, if theyre a few minutes late I dont sweat it. I only make an effort with time-keeping because I know Imogen gets stressed and bossy otherwise. Im aware that its our duty as parents to instil into our children a sense of responsibility and an awareness of the value of other peoples time, but really, would the world shudder if they missed the start of assembly?

I wasnt always this relaxed. With Liam, I was a fascist about time-keeping. About that, and so much more. I liked him to finish everything on his plate, I was fanatical about him saying please and thank you and sending notes when he received gifts. Well, not notes as such, because Im talking about a time before he could write. I got him to draw thank you pictures. His shoes always shone, his hair was combed, he had the absolutely correct kit and equipment. I didnt want him to be judged and found lacking. Its different when youre a single mum, which I was with Liam. I met Ben when Liam was almost six. Being married to Ben gives me a confidence that allows me to believe I can be two minutes late for school drop-off and no one will tut or roll their eyes. I didnt have the same luxury when Liam was small.

Suddenly I think about Abigail Curtizs email and Im awash with conflicting emotions.

There are lots of things that are tough about being a single parent. The emotional, physical, and financial strain of being entirely responsible for absolutely everything around the clock, a relentless twenty-four/seven takes its toll. And the loneliness? The brutal, crushing, insistent loneliness? Well, thats a horror. As is the bone-weary, mind-wiping, unremitting exhaustion. Sometimes my arms ached with holding him, or my back or legs. Sometimes, I was so tired I wasnt sure where I was aching; I just felt pain. But there were moments of reprieve when I didnt feel judged, or lonely, or responsible. There were moments of kindness. And those moments are unimaginably important and utterly unforgettable. Theyre imprinted on my brain and heart. Every one of them.

Abigail Curtiz owns one such moment.

When I told Abi that I was pregnant she was, obviously, all wide eyes and concerned. Shocked. Yes, I admit she was bubbling a bit, with the drama of it all. That was not her fault we were only nineteen and I didnt know how to react appropriately, so how could I expect her to know? We were both a little giddy.

How far on are you? she asked.

I think about two months. I later discovered at that point I was officially ten weeks pregnant, because of the whole calculate from the day you started your last period thing, but that catch-all calculation never really washed with me because I knew the exact date Id conceived. Wednesday, the first week of the first term, my second year at university. Stupidly, Id had unprotected sex right slap-bang in the middle of my cycle. That combined with my youth meant that one transgression was enough. And even now, a lifetime on, I feel the need to say it wasnt like I made a habit out of doing that sort of thing. In all my days, Ive had irresponsible, unprotected sex precisely once.

Then theres still time. You could abort, Abigail had said simply. She did not shy away from the word. We were young. The power, vulnerability and complexity of our sexuality was embryonic, but our feminist rights were forefront of our minds. My body, my choice, my right. A young, independent woman, I didnt have to be saddled with the lifetime consequences of one nights mistake. There had been a girl on my course whod had a scare in the first year. Id been verbose about her right to choose and Id been clear that I thought she should terminate the pregnancy, rather than her education. The girl in question had agreed; so had Abi and pretty much everyone who knew of the matter. She hadnt been pregnant, though. So. Well, you know, talk is cheap, isnt it? Shes the chief financial officer of one of the biggest international Fast-Moving Consumer Goods corporations now. I saw her pop up on Facebook a couple of years ago. CFO of an FMCG. I Googled the acronyms. She accepted my friend request, which was nice of her, but she rarely posts. Too busy, I suppose. Anyway, I digress.

I remember looking Abi in the eye and saying, No. No, I cant abort.

Youre going ahead with it? Her eyes were big and unblinking.

Yes. It was the only thing I was certain of. I already loved the baby. It had taken me by surprise but it was a fact.

And will you put it up for adoption or keep it?

Im keeping my baby. We both sort of had to suppress a shocked snigger at that, because it was impossible not to think of Madonna. That song came out when I was about five years old but it was iconic enough to be something that was sung in innocence throughout our childhoods. The tune hung, incongruously, in the air. It wasnt until a couple of years later that the irony hit me: an anthem of my youth basically heralded the end to exactly that.

OK then, she said, youre keeping your baby.

Abigail instantly accepted my decision to have my baby and that was a kindness. An unimaginably important and utterly unforgettable kindness.

She didnt argue that there were easier ways, that I had choices, the way many of my other friends subsequently did. Nor did she suggest that I might be lucky and lose it, the way a guy in my tutorial later darkly muttered. I know he behaved like an arsehole because before Id got pregnant, hed once clumsily come on to me one night in the student bar. I was having none of it. I guess he had mixed feelings about me being knocked up, torn between, Ha, serves the bitch, right and So, she does put out. Why not with me? I tell you, theres a lot of press about the wrath of a woman scorned, but men can be pretty vengeful, too. Anyway, back to Abi: she did not fume that I was being romantic and short-sighted, the way my very frustrated tutor did when I finally fessed up to her, and nor did she cry for a month, the way my mother did. Which was, you know, awful.

She made us both a cup of tea, even went back to her room to dig out a packet of Hobnobs, kept for special occasions only. I was on my third Hobnob (already eating for two) before she asked, So who is the dad? Which was awkward.

Id rather not say, I mumbled.

That ugly, is he? she commented with a smile. Again, I wanted to chortle; I knew it was inappropriate. I mean, I was pregnant! But at the same time, I was nineteen and Abi was funny. I didnt even know that you were having sex with anyone, she added.

I didnt feel the need to put out a public announcement.

Abigail then burst into peels of girlish, hysterical giggling. The thing is, youve done exactly that.

I suppose I have. I gave in to a full-on cackle. It was probably the hormones.

Its like, soon you are going to be carrying a great big placard saying, Im sexually active.

And careless, I added. We couldnt get our breath now, we were laughing so hard.

Plus, a bit of a slag, cos youre not sure who the daddy is.

I playfully punched her in the arm. I do know.

Of course you do, but if you dont tell people who he is, thats what theyre going to say. She didnt say it meanly, it was just an observation.

Even if I tell them who the father is, theyll call me a slag anyway. Suddenly, it was like this was the funniest thing ever. We were bent double laughing. Which was odd, since Id spent most of my teens carefully walking the misogynistic tightrope, avoiding being labelled a slag or frigid, and Id actually been doing quite a good job of balancing. Until then. It really wasnt very funny. The laughter was down to panic, probably.

The bedrooms in our student flat were tiny. When chatting, we habitually sat on the skinny single beds because the only alternative was a hard-backed chair that was closely associated with late-night cramming at the desk. The room that was supposed to be a sitting room had been converted into another bedroom so that we could split the rent between six, rather than five. We collapsed back onto the bed. Lying flat now to stretch out our stomachs that were cramped with hilarity and full of biscuits and in my case, baby. I looked at my best friend and felt pure love. We were in our second year at uni; it felt like wed known one another a lifetime. Uni friendships are more intense than any other. You live, study and party together, without the omniscient, omnipresent parental influence. Uni friends are sort of friends and family rolled into one.





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